Thursday 28 September 2006

MY DREAM. GOD'S DREAM.(finally posted)

It all started a few days after Zion started advertising about Search for a Star. Shelina and Jazper were telling me they were joining FuZion DanZe. So I asked Jazper to help me get into DanZe. The next day he told me he didn't help me sign up because he was busy. There was also this day where I met up with Junie and Faith and we (Faith and I) were thinking if we should still join DanZe. I thought and thought and thought, and decided not to. Reason? Exams were near.



There was this another day where I went out with Wei Xian and Jay. While we were at Borders (Jay looking at car mags, Wei Xian wandering off somewhere), I sat down on a bench, stoning out. Then I chanced upon this ballet magazine in one of the shelves. I stared at it with glowing eyes like as though I just saw gold in the shelves lol. I got so hyped up I forgot I was hungry. That very night, I dreamt about myself dancing ballet on stage TWICE. The dream even ended with me rehearsing backstage with the curtains down before a performance.



A few days later I bumped into Sean in school and was telling him I wasn't in DanZe for SFAS anymore because I was worried for my exam and hip hop wasn't my thing. He told me they were also doing ballet for SFAS. At that very moment I froze. I was lost for words. In a good way. He gave me Lisa's number and I messaged her at that instant.



There wasn't any response so I thought I was too late or something. A week later, a girl by the name of Yivonne messaged me, asking me to go to The Gowrie on a Sunday (3rd Sept, right after Mamak Night) for practise. It felt like heaven for me. I couldn't supress my joy. Was more than just jumping up and down for joy in my room. God has been talking to me. Telling me to make my dream come true. =)



The practises didn't start out too good. We only had practises once a week for about two weeks. I missed out on two practises, one on 7th Sept, the other on 16th Sept. Cell and church service. On Sunday 17th Sept, we managed to rent a proper studio in Vic for Life Aqualife Centre. I was totally lost when I got there. They changed the finale steps and some of the ballet steps. AND I didn't know that very day was our AUDITION for SFAS.



I didn't have my shoes. I wasn't wearing proper outfit for the audition. I wasn't sure of my steps and they were super messy. When we finished our practise, I was close to breaking down.



The next day, muscle ache. Our finale had lotsa squat movements and we did too much of those on Sunday. EVERYONE went to The Gowrie aching here and there. We couldn't practise with full actions because of the aches. But we still practised the best we could because SFAS was less than a week away.



We practised at Aqualife on Tuesday. Same thing. We couldn't do full action. BUTBUTBUT we had this fire alarm practise thingy. Waste our money lo! Julie was going high over firmen even lol. Wednesday was at Gowrie from 7-8.30pm then Riverton from 9pm-12am. Yes, it took half an hour to get from Gowrie to Riverton lol. Did I mention Frances nearly lost her way with Angeline following behind? LOL. Thursday was our very very last practise. At Riverton. We put in our very best and practised from about 9-12am++. I went late because of cell but I heard later on that the ballet didn't really pracitse till 9pm when I just arrived.



On Friday night I went to the Gowrie at around 7 to watch the YA people dance because I was supposed to follow Cherrie down to Winthrop at around 10pm. THE YA DANCE WAS SO CUTE!!!!! Haha. At around 10.15pm, we left the Gowrie and ZOOM off to Winthrop. Cherrie followed Yusuke to Karen's house first then Yusuke parked his car there and drove Cherri's car (with Cherrie, Kai Ting and I inside) to Winthrop.



The nightmare started when I reached there. So many UWA people were there!!!!! My surprise was half destroyed. I sat facing the other direction but I bet the distinct colour of my jacket gave me away. When it was our turn to go in, the jazz and hiphop people went on stage to mark stickers on their positions. In the end we found out that the ballet people didn't even need to go there. Lol.



Karen said on Thursday night that we MUST reach home by 11.15pm and sleep by 12am on Friday night but at 12am, we were still at Winthrop LOL. Andrew was in charge of chasing us out so that all of us could go home and rest. Yusuke was aso trying to chase me out but the way he hit my bag to chase me out looked as though he was trying to grab my butt!!!!! That makes it worse given that his surname already has "hamsap" in it! I'm not kidding! Lol.



In the end Zee sent me home. And I guessed Marcus Cheong's age right! He IS 22! Haha. I'm pretty good at guessing ages aye lol. I only reached home at around 12.30 and only managed to sleep at around 2am because I was just too darn excited for the next day. But guess what. Nic woke me up at 3.15am just because he couldn't get in. I felt like smacking his head I tell you.







SATURDAY 23RD OF SEPTEMBER IS SEARCH FOR A STAR BABEH!!!!! Was supposed to wake up at around 6am because Dave was going to pick me up at 7.30am. Ended up waking up at 6.15am. Heng I packed my bag the day before, before going out. Dave came at 7.35 and went to pick up Fay and another guy whose name I've clearly forgotten. Fay didn't know Dave was picking him up so he took quite some time lol. We only reached Catherine's house at 8am. The time we were supposed to reach Winthrop by. LOL.



So Dave followed Catherine's car all the way to Winthrop. On the way we saw Andrew and Frances haha. We felt better because we knew we weren't the only ones going late. =X. Once we reached there, we put down our bags and went to practise on stage. Once our practise was over, we had our mass praying with all the dancers and other performers. Ray led. Then more practises here and there and...LUNCH!



I had my BEEF HOR FUN! It was totally awesome but...super filing. George and I both couldn't finish our hor fun lo! Must've been the starch. So we rested. Some people slept in one of the rooms in the sofas. So funny lo can haha. Then we had one full dress rehearsal and OFF TO MAKE UP SESSION!!!!!



I was freaking out I tell you. I didn't know where Priscilla was and I didn't know whether I was supposed to do my make up myself or not. In the end I was assured by Yivonne that Priscilla was going to do my make up for my because we were going to have feathers at the side of our eye. Ballerinas I mean. =D.



Priscilla came to do my make up at around 4 plus. I had to run up and down from the entrance area to the changing room like so many times. Once to get liquid foundation from Adeline and another time to get liquid eye liner from Lynn. I DID have the feather at the side of my eye! I was so hyped about it! I just couldn't resist touching it all the time =P.



I freaked out again when I didn't know who was going to do my hair for me. I was running up and down searching for Cherrie but she was no where to be found and then I realised we were supposed to do another round of rehearsing to mark our positions. When I was done, Yivonne told me we were supposed to tie our hair up into a poliana. Or whatever you spell that lol.



Priscilla did my hair too! Haha I so loved it. Oh I'll upload pictures in my Flickr thing soon. Then we rested even more. I walked here and there, taking pictures with many people. BUT I've only got pictures from Yivonne. I need more pictures!!!!! =D



We managed to watch the first half of the show. During interval, Venessa, Adeline (hagau), Andrew and I went to the toilet lol. We got back in time to go backstage to warm up for our dance. The warm up took quite long (we did it during THREE items) but it felt short. Felt as though it was our turn already in a split second. I was super duper hyped.



When the ballerinas (that includes me) were still stretching at the backstage, I wished Ray and Francis good luck for their item; Collide. JON DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO LOOK AT ME LONG ENOUGH TO LET ME SAY GOOD LUCK LO! When he turned to my direction, I lifted my hands, opened my mouth in preparation to say "good luck", then he turned away =_=.



ANYWAYS, we got on the stage when Genesis and Richard went on to comment. LIGHT'S OUT! SPORT LIGHT! MUSIC ON! AND THAT WAS IT!!!!!



The whole dance felt like it was only one second! When I got off, I had the sudden urge to get on and dance again. When the hiphop was done, everyone went on stage again for our dance's finale. IT FELT AWESOME! When the thing ended, the cheer was sooooo loud I nearly went deaf! IT FELT REALLY GOOD HAVING ALL THE ATTENTION ON US WHILE WE DANCED!!!!!!!!!!



The thing just ended like that. We stayed backstage, though, in preparation for the WHOLE finale. It ended with all the performers shouting "SEE YOU NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!"



That was the end of SFAS. All the performers stayed behind. The FuZion DanZe people (that includes me) stayed on stage going high, taking pictures. It was so so so fun. I was jumping and running here and there taking pictures with everyone!!!!! I then went to change and OFF WE GO to Northbridge!!!!!



We ate at Saigon. All the dance people =D. Garry came over to talk to Adeline and asked why I was here. So I explained to him how I could still see the UWA people everyweek but not the dance people and that it was A DANCERS' NIGHT OUT!!!!! =D Andrew and I both had banana fritter with ice cream only. I also had a cup of Avocado milkshake.



WE MADE JESSE TRY THE DURIAN FRUIT JUICE! Haha Jesse, Zee and Andrew didn't like it. Poor Jesse had to try a few sips and give the rest to Venessa and Adeline (hagau) to finish. We hung around more until all of us have eaten then we left Saigon.



We didn't part immediately, though. We stood outside Saigon chatting here and there. Dave couldn't wait any longer I guess so he wanted to leave first. So did Isaac. Our big day jsut ended like this.



I'm still suffering from post-SFAS syndromes. HELP.



signing off~RYNETTA
*SNIIIIIIIIIIFF*

The aroma of coffee is tempting me. I'm in Curtin's abacus lab now. Funny thing. I haven't touched an abacus in ages.



Both Faith and I are using two computers. One's our own lappie, the other's Curtin's computer. May's with us too! Studying and chatting on meebo at the same time HAHA. I obviously can't concentrate.



We came over after cell. Shelina, Wei Xian and i did refreshments. Games was done by Kenneth. Some card game involving co-ordinator, killer, doctor and victim. Lol. I got to be killer twice. Got killed once. Was a really fun game.



Words by Garry. REALLY a lot of discussion. I realised I really opened up a lot. I asked a few questions. Haha. Refreshments took really long as usual. But our refreshments was still GENG man! Haha. Pasta, otak, man tou and ice cream with toast! AWESOME RIGHT! Wahahahaha.



We left at around 9pm. Garry sent Shelina and Jay home first. Then Garry sent me home to get some stuff then send Faith and I to vickery house to find Kevin. Kevin passed Faith his curtin student card then drove both of us to Curtin. Both of us met up with May and now we're in the abacus lab.



I'm supposed to be working on my applicable maths paper but it seems to show I won't get much work done today. Ha!



signing off~RYNETTA
DON'T KNOW WHAT TITLE TO PUT.

No more peace in the library again. It's break time. I skipped my first class (calculus) and I've got a free period later. Going to skip applicable maths later and go for ELACS. BECAUSE Eve's gonna screen a movie. Cool eh? =D



Chanced upon someone's blog just now and saw something I least expected. And Eunice was telling me she's also trying to save the friendship. That blog just proved Eunice wrong I guess. I don't know. I'm still waiting for God's directions. But I hope I won't have to do anything this year because I need to concentrate on my studies. Next year probably.



Talking to Venassa. Talking about all the wonderful gourmets in Singapore. And yep. We shall get fat and go for dance classes together to shed off all those rubbish we'll be eating! =D



signing off~RYNETTA
PATIENCE PATIENCE!

The SFAS post is STILL on the way! So don't go away! Haha hey it rhymes ok! =D Anyways. I'm here to blog about last cell and church service before I have to blog about another cell again the next day lol.



Last cell was on last Thursday lo. Remember I had a post somewhere down there which stated how upset I was about skipping cell until Garry gave me a very confirming "CANNOT!"? Haha. Yep I was referring to last Thursday.



As usual, I went home after school. But that day I had a test so I couldn't skip ELACS and could only leave school at 5pm. Although I only did my research the day before my test and only compiled my notes on the day of the test itself, I'd have to say the test was pretty ok. I rushed through the last part though. Hope the ending wasn't too brief. BUT I only wrote about 730++ words when a minimum of 900 was required. AIYA I hope Eve is blind la although I know she's quite biased against some students and that includes me. We only know she pretty much likes _____. Pfff.



I didn't do refreshments for cell because...firstly Faith didn't ask me to and secondly, even if Faith asked me to, I wouldn't have done it either heh. I was too too TOO tired. When I got home, I just lay flat on my bed and spaced out. I surprisingly didn't fall asleep given the fact that I hadn't been having enough sleep for the past few nights ever since dance practises became every night.



Garry came at around 6.15pm. Shelina and Faith were in the car too! On the way, along freeway (hey it rhymes again!), Faith asked if I was still dancing for SFAS. And Shelina was like "oooooh! So you were supposed to do something for SFAS la!" So I said no to Faith and ya to Shelina. Soon after I messaged Faith, telling her I was still dancing for SFAS and that I don't need transport. LOL. Yes, we were messaging each other in the same car.



Isn't it fun? Hehe hiding it from everyone and only some people, who really needed to know, knew. It WAS fun, really. Seeing their disappointed looks when I said I wasn't gonna dance. Hehe. IT WAS DIFFICULT, THOUGH! You shall know why later.



So. Faith did games. Some card game thingy. Lazy to type ar. Go ask around yourself hehe. Garry wanted to have refreshments during cell but, ofcourse, guys can't multi-task! So we ended up eating first like before. Ha! Faith's food was awesome man. With that, I mean AWESOME. The cheese was like hea-ven-ly. I couldn't finish even one piece, though. I ate two tang yuan and drank quite a lot of the tang yuan soup before her food came. And I was gonna go for dance practises so I couldn't be too bloated. I ate the cheese, abit of the rice and gave the rest to Wei Xian hehehe. THAT GUY. WAS GETTING HIGH. OVER THE AMOUNT OF SUGAR IN THE SAGO+PURE MILK+SUGAR+TANG YUAN. You should've seen the way he was laughing away man. TOTALLY high!



Garry then did words but halfway through Yivonne called. SO PAISEH LO CAN. I was supposed to leave at 8.30pm but Yivonne called at 8.45pm, which was when I told Garry I had to go. Poor cell leader had to cut short everything, summarize things and end with a...pretty short prayer. Shorter than his usual prayers la ok happy lol. When people asked, Garry said I was going off to meet my cousin. THAT was because I told him to say that if people asked =D. THIS wasn't the hard part of hiding.



In the car, on the way to Riverton, Garry turned on the radio and one station was playing Sandi Thom's "I Wish I Was A Punk Rocker". I got so high I told Garry not to change station. That stupid cell leader went to change another station then change back again. THANKS AR! But ya. I sang the whole song and when I finished, Garry went "I still don't see what's so nice about this song lo." And I said, at the slip of my tongue, "But a lot of dancers like this song leh."



The moment I realised I said that, my mind kept on going "oh ****! OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO!!!!!!!!!!" But Garry was somehow fast enough to say "But Faith don't like leh." HENG AR. My secret bubble nearly bursted just like that ok! Somemore this bubble's soap is very chad-chad one, anytime also can burst. LOL.



Now you know how hard it was. Haha but ya. After cell, I went for our last practice lo. Finished at around 12am and had pizza (I only had one small piece so don't shoot me!) and ended with a big mass prayer. Only got home at around 1.30am. Was super dead tired.



signing off~RYNETTA

Wednesday 27 September 2006

DOUBLE SIGH.

I'll have lots to share during cell so...I shan't blog about it here! Haha.



It's really not easy adapting to the "new" life again. It's not really new because it's what I've been doing everyday before SFAS was near. But it's still very hard. I just got too used to the life of dancing. Sigh.



Got really really depressed yesterday evening. Been bottling up since Monday. Couldn't take it anymore so I just...ran out of the house. Somehow or rather my feet took me to The Gowrie, now called Zion Centre. Was tearing on my way there. It used to take me 5 minutes to get there because of the rush but yesterday, the walk took 15 whole minutes.



The moment I walked into Zion Centre, tears just kept pouring non stop. The door was locked, though. I just stared at it from outside. I then slowly made my way out, sat on the road side and continued crying. Dave came soon after. Sat down beside me and listened to all my rantings.



THAT STUPID IDIOT DIDN'T TELL ME HE WAS HAVING A HANGOVER AND HADN'T PREPARED FOR HIS GROUP MEETING!!!!! But he still insisted on accompanying me. It wasn't easy ranting and crying at the same time. Had to break them all up haha. Told him all my problems. Including...codename bomb. He was nice. Thanks insect head! =D



I hope he's much better today ah that stupid insect head lol. But, ya. Really, thanks. We shall dance again for next year's SFAS ok! Haha. You were a really really great friend x). Heng you forgot how codename bomb look like if not I sure kena suan by you like HELL lor can lol.



signing off~RYNETTA

Tuesday 26 September 2006

SIGH.

I can't believe Search for a Star is over just like that. The Gowrie just looks so quiet now. So lonely so pitiful.



LET'S HAVE AN ENCORE!!!!!



signing off~RYNETTA

Thursday 21 September 2006

RRRRRYNETTAR!

I'm getting more and more pissed with the librarians. Sigh. Nvm. Patience and endurance. God shall grant me with more of those.



Let's talk about Saturday. Had to wake up at 6am just for the stat test. Irritating lo can! Saturdays and Sundays are the only times I can wake up anytime I want but stat test killed my sleep. ARGH.



So I reached school at around 8.30am. Was super early. Why? Because if I took the later bus, I'd be on time but there'll be a tendency for me to be late. Better to be safe and sorry haha.



I reached school to realise I didn't bring the sheet of paper that had my candidate number on it. Meli didn't bring hers either. I was totally freaking out. On the inside I mean. So Meli and I stood at the door (we weren't allowed into the gym yet) waiting for Teresa. When she came out, Meli explained to her we didn't have our candidate numbers. She then assured us that we didn't need any numbers 'cos all numbers will be printed on the papers beforehand.



So they placed a board outside the gym to show the list of names of those who were going to take the stat test in the gym. I was one of them because my surname starts with C. Oh, ya, it was in alphabetical order. At 9.15 then we were allowed into the gym. LATE!



It only started at 9.35. SUPER LATE! But ya. Shan't complain. Chill. It was rather ok la. Maths/physics/graph related questions were easy. ONLY THOSE QUESTIONS THAT NEED COMPREHENSION SKILLS WERE SO DARN HARD. Especially the poems questions. I hope I guessed the right answers. Heh.



It lasted for two hours and we weren't allowed to leave in the first hour and last 15 minutes so I left 20 minutes before end time. If I didn't, I wouldn't have reached home before 11.45am. Once I reached home, I ate another round of cereal and prepared myself for church.



Went to take bus 33 to the city at around 3pm. Changed to bus 102 at Esplanade bus port. Reached UWA at around 3.50pm. Went toilet. That's it. Late for EduCell. Lol. Faith was also late! 'Cos I bumped into her outside the EduCell room and we went in together.



How Boon was preaching. About why some people can't bring themselves to believe in God. The musicians left at around 4.10. No ushers went for EduCell!!! Lol. It ended at around 4.30 and we went for service.



I sat beside an ECU girl in the service. Johnny led worship. Jack Chia (I'm still amazed by the fact that I can find someone else with the same surname as me here) chaired. Pau Ting did tithes and offerings. There was double offering. One for the church, one for our pastors' trip to Argentina. Coolness right? Haha.



Sermon was about Jabez again but this time about temptation. Done by pastor Joyce! Haha. After service I hanged around with Eufei, Kenneth and Joshua Chin. Joshua Chin that spastic cannot be my guardian lo! Not even for the next 6 months lo! Why? Because he stopped sharing room with one of his housemates and used the other empty room lo! Lol. Still talk so much.



Had dinner at China Dragon. Or Dragon China. I STILL CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT IT EXACTLY IS!!!!! But ya. When we reached, there was a table almost filled and an empty table. They told Jessie and I to sit at the empty table. Nic went over to the almost filled table. Garry and Stan came to out table.



At first Stan sat beside me then Garry sat beside Stan. But Evelyn was scared of...someone, so Garry had to go over and sit with Evelyn, living Stan at risk LOL. But when the remaining guys came, Joshua Chin sat beside Stan so...wasn't so bad la haha! Edwin was somewhere along the streets watching footie =_=.



Oh ya. When Stan came to sit beside me, he went "Rrrrrynettar!" Then he asked what my parents usually call me back home. I told him they called me by my chinese name. Then he asked if Rynetta was my chinese name. =_=. What rubbish! Lol. So I told him, "Nono, Rynetta's my african name." He went, "Oooooh, so Bijia's a guy." Bijia turned around with a blur "Huh?" So Stan explained to her about how I said Rynetta was my african name so she's a guy and not a girl. LOL. Then Bijia went on and on about how Bijia was her french name and that she's an underground French princess from Paris. Like...whatever! Lol.



We had dishes like, beef with ginger and onion, spare ribs, kang kong, vege fried with garlic, some chicken thing and others. OHOHOH not to forget squid with salted egg ^^. Almost EVERY single dish was grabbed for me either by Stan, Jessie or Bijia lo! When I was about to stretch my hand out to grab something, one of them would grab it for me. I felt like a 3 year old kid all over again.



After dinner was bubble tea. I had Pink Lady because Joshua Chin told me to. LOL. I couldn't make up my mind la so he told me to drink Pink Lady. It's basically Bandung la. Imagina frozen bandung. Yep, that's it. Then I only managed to play one round of Speed with Eufei and I had to leave already.



Garry sent Nic, Jessie, Stan and I home. Jessie stayed somewhere near Carousel. Stan went to Joshua's (the drummer) house. He said by to everyone normally but went "bye Rrrrrynettar!" Thanks ar. =_=. Lol.



Another day gone. =)



signing off~RYNETTA
BLOCKED TAGBOARD?!

I'm still very very very pissed. With the blocking of my tagboard and the librarians. MY TAGBOARD WAS MY ONLY FORM OF CONTACT SINCE MEEBO'S BLOCKED AND MY INTERNET AT HOME IS NOT WORKING!!!!!



This is not very helping at all. Especially when I've only slept for about 5 hours last night. Or maybe even less. I only reached home at around 12am. Everyone was aching at the end of the ________. So was I. I went to shower once I got home and when I got out of the shower, I couldn't sleep. I sat on my bed thinking how am I going to cope with the next 3 days. I only managed to sleep after stoning out for at least half an hour.



And FYI, I've got an in-class essay TODAY. I only did my research YESTERDAY and I haven't even done my notes. Yep, I'm so gonna score full marks for my essay today. Note the tinge of sacarsm.



I'm becoming more and more like Wei Xian. While I'm getting more and more tired each day, my mood continues to go down hill too. I'm really really pissed with the librarians. I mean...HELLO?! TAGBOARD?! WHAT'S THERE TO BLOCK ABOUT TAGBOARDS?! @&$* man! ARGH.



I hope I can survive for another three days. I thought I was going to miss cell group today because of _____ ________ and was pretty upset about it. But when I talked to Garry about it yesterday, he gave me a very firm "CANNOT". Lol. Hopefully _______ won't be upset about me going late. I mean...I've been to all of the _____ _________ and not once was I late or absent on purpose.



Ok if I go on, I'm really going to explode. I NEED MY TAGBOARD OK?! WTH?! Alright, off to my notes.



signing off~RYNETTA

Wednesday 20 September 2006

COUNTDOWN!

Got this off Mishi's blog =).



10 Favorites

Favorite season: Summer.

Favorite color: Pink/black/red/white/brown.

Favorite time: Between 5-10pm.

Favorite food: Creamy pasta.

Favorite drink: Eh. Berry/Banana smoothie.

Favorite ice cream: Mango/cookies n cream.

Favorite place: My home in Singapore =).

Favorite sport: Is dance considered a sport? Heh.

Favorite actor: I don't know =\.

Favorite actress: Uh. Don't know either. Heh.

9 Currents

Current feeling: Peeved, about to explode any moment.

Current drink: Eh. I'm not drinking anything now but the last thing I drank was milk. *sheepish smile*

Current time: 12.28pm

Current show on TV: No TV around me.

Current mobile used: Samsung E770 and Nokia 6681.

Current windows open: Blocked meebo, Mishi's blog, Who Lives Near You?, Blogger and BlogPatrol

Current Song: Hillson's "Dwell in Your House"

Current clothes: A Cotton On tee, jeans and a green jacket.

Current thought: You won't wanna know. It's not very pleasant. ^^

8 Firsts

First nickname: Can't remember. CDX maybe. Lol.

First kiss: At ECP.

First crush: HA Nigel Koh.

First best friend: Poh Jing Jie LOL.

First vehicle I drove: You know those small but quite large toys with pathetic motos that goes really slowly? Ya. Lol.

First job: Uh. Student lol.

First date: Woah. Eh. Not sure eh.

First pet: Goldfishes that belonged to my parents lol. Maybe the two hamsters.

7 Lasts

Last drink: Milk.

Last kiss: Mummy =).

Last meal: Cereal with milk.

Last website visited: Blogger? Lol.

Last movie watched: Crap. Let me think. "Get Rich or Die Tryin'" I guess.

Last phone call: Called 321 for more information on my voicemail.

Last TV Show watched: News I guess.

6 Have you evers

Have you ever broken the law: Yep.

Have you ever been drunk: Nope.

Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know: Yep. It's the culture of some country. Can't remember.

Have you ever been close to gun fire: Nope.

Have you ever skinny dipped: When I was 13 lol.

Have you ever broken anyones heart: Yep.

5 Things

5 things you can hear right now: Alex's voice, a girl's voice, me typing, flipping of pages, another girl's voice.

5 things on your bed: Uh, piglet, two garfields, teddy bear and the essentials.

5 things you ate today: Cereal, a pau, chewing gum, sweet. That's all.

5 things you can't live without: God, my family, best friends, cash, hp and internet.

5 things you do when you get bored: Blog, listen to music, chat, play games and sleep.

4 Places you have been today: School only lol.

3 Things on your desk right now: A ballerina figurine [=)], a star shapped piggy bank for ballerinas bought by Mummy [=)], tissue box and Bible.

2 Choices
Black or White: Black.
Hot or Cold: Cold.

1 Place you want to visit: Singapore. =D



signing off~RYNETTA
PEEVED.

YOU KNOW SOMETHING?!?!?!?!?! My school internet blocked meebo. That one, nevermind. WORSE, they blocked my TAGBOARD. Like...#%)&*@^)*#&@)&%$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ARGH. It's even more irritating now that my internet at home is having problems AGAIN. CAN SOMEONE JUST DO SOMETHING TO THE PEOPLE WHO DOWNLOAD THINGS THROUGH THE NET AND EXCEED THE SPACE LIMIT?!?!?!?!?! I mean, it's just TOTALLY UNFAIR for those who don't even download and don't even use the webcam to ensure the speed of the internet lo can! &(*@^)%&@$



signing off~RYNETTA

Tuesday 19 September 2006

THANK YOU, GOD.

I'm really glad God heard my prayers. I was...weeping on Sunday night. Yes, I was. Wasn't very terrible but still. Yesterday morning I was stressing out about how I'm going to have two tests on Thursday and that every night I will be out for something important. Then one test was prostponed till next Tuesday. That's why I said, praise the Lord. =)



Let's talk about...COMBINED CELL! Frrriday. ELACS test was pretty ok although I only had one form of in-text referrencing. A pass would be satisfactory given that I failed my last in-text referrencing test. Was so super peeved. After school, everyone literally disappeared. By 3.15, there wasn't a single soul outside the library. I mean, normally the crowd wouldn't even subside till about 3.30 can?! No one in the library wanted to go to the city so I started calling people who were going to combined cel that night.



Eufei's staying home because he needs to make something. Faith's going for discipleship. Didn't call Wei Xian because he was at home making prawn mee (YUM). In the end called Eunice and decided to go down to St. Cat's early. So I took bus 75 down to the city.



I wanted to get a cup of smoothie from Pure & Natural to drink at St. Cat's but decided not to because no drinks were allowed in buses you see. So I just went straight to Woolies and bought like 5 boxes of apple crumble and then walked to Esplanade bus port. That journey felt like forever I tell you! The apple crumbles felt so heavy! Shouldn't have bought so many. You'll know why later.



So I made my own way in to St. Cat's although after getting out of the tunnel I still had to ask Eunice for a bit of directions heh. BUT I already remember how to walk ok! Eunice opened the door for me and I went up her room. Tried the dessert she prepared for combined cell and ate all the other junks in her room. Er..Dau sa pia and this durian thingy. Don't know what that's called heh. Her room is full of food sia! Then she let me watch "The Prince That Turned Into A Frog" and went off to shower.



While she was showering, Faith called to say she's coming. Uninvited guest! Haha just kidding just kidding. But Eunice finished showering in time for Faith to come. Because when Eunice came back, Faith called my phone. Eunice went down to open the door for Eunice. But Eunice walked super fast, came back to the room and locked Faith out. Poor thing la can! Lol.



So three of us sat in the room. I continued watching The Prince That Turned Into A Frog, while chatting with Faith a little here and there. Eunice brought two whole pieces of the dessert she made for cell and let me and Faith eat. One each, that is. Lol. Then Letitia came. Eunice and Letitia went down to play basketball. Faith and I? Continue slacking in Eunice's room.



Eunice came back up soon after, leaving Letitia alone at the basketball court. At 6.15, Letitia came up to shower while Faith, Eunic and I went down. Some people were already there. Slacked around till everyone else came. Oh ya, Nic, Eufei and Garry were kicking Faith's shoes around. LOL.



Games was done Joshua, with Stanley assisting. It's like...dividing us into two groups. One on each side of the cloth. Each group will sent a representative to the cloth and when the cloth drops, you have to say the name of the person on the other side of the cloth as fast as possible. They sent me for the first round. When the cloth dropped, I saw Eunice and screamed her name lol. I WAS FASTER THAN HER! Oh oh the forfeit is the whole team will have to drink a cup of water each time they lose. As in, one person one cup. Lol.



Worship was led by Garry while Stan played the guitar. We were split into two groups again when it came to words. Jamie's and Garry's cell one group, Dorcas cell another group. I joined the former. We talked about the Hand of God. =)



THEN IT WAS REFRESHMENTS! There was an overload of apple crumble because Jessie made apple crumble. NOW you know why I shouldn't have bought so many. =\ But ya. Wei Xian's prawn mee was awesome man!!! So were the chicken pies. AND AND the popcorn potatoes and chicken bits. AND chicken nuggets. AWESOME!!!!! I ate till I was more than just bloated ok!



While eating, Peggy asked me some calculus question. We kept trying to figure out how to do the question but in the end we realised all were just careless mistakes. Lol. Then EUFEI WENT TO WEAR MY FLIPFLOPS UNTIL THEY WERE SUPER STICKY LO CAN! Idiot. Lol. After combined cell? TEA FUSION!!!!!



Jamie drove Peggy home first, though. That poor girl fell at her doorstep and her phone broke into two pieces. Sigh. Hope she can claim her gaurantee card. =\



After sending Peggy home, we drove to Tea Fusion. I had a large taro smoothie. Watched the people play speed and bluff. I played speed with Eufei. He lost. I played speed with Eunice. I lost. LOL. At around 12.05am, Wei Xian got a little moody because of the time. So the guys went off first while the girls stayed back and waited a little longer.



Few minutes later, we made our way to the main street. Sean/Shaun/Shawn drove Kevin's car with Nic and picked me up and drove me home. Loved cell. =))



signing off~RYNETTA
ARGH.

Maaaaan I'm so tired. Muscle cramps and body aches. Argh. I don't know how the rest can actually cope with it. But I shall not give up! NEVER!



BY THE WAY, I am NOT dancing/singing/acting for Search For A Star! What rubbish! Lol I said I want to perform well for SFAS doesn't mean I'm dancing/singing/acting right =_=. Can mean I'm serving what! Dorts.



How can sia...preform for the church. Will die lo me.



signing off~RYNETTA
ZION PEOPLE.

Guess who I saw this morning on the way to school today? Marcus. The Marcus with specs one. Lol.



I just alighted the bus and was walking to school then I saw this guy crossing the road. He looked familiar so I kept staring at him. Then when he looked up, he waved at me and I was like "oooooh! That's the Marcus with specs!" in my head. Lol.



THAT GUY STYLED HIS HAIR LA CAN! No wonder I couldn't recognise him at first. =_=



ZION PEOPLE ARE EVERYWHERE MAN!!!!!



signing off~RYNETTA

Monday 18 September 2006

ONE TEST DOWN.

PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!



I got into class in time to print out the speech I prepared last night. I only started preparing for that speech like...11PM?!?!?!?!?! It was super last minute can? But I managed to prepare a speech that was supposedly 5 minutes long.



We picked our numbers and at first I picked 4. I was ready you see so I went around exchanging for smaller numbers. I got 3. My lucky number =)))))))))). Haha. I read off my paper. I wanted to, y'know, speek without looking at my paper but if I did so, I would've exceeded the 3 minutes time limit even more.



Praise the Lord man, seriously. Without Him I wouldn't have managed to pull through this presentation.



Next up: Applicable maths test tomorrow, in-class essay on Thursday, calculus test next Tuesday, every night out from tonight on and SEARCH FOR A STAR ON SATURDAY!!!!!



You heard me! It's SEARCH FOR A STAR! On SATURDAY 23rd September, Winthrope Baptist Church, 7.30pm! Tickets selling at A$10. Doors open at 7.00pm, to be seated by 7.30pm. Those who have tickets already, DO COME DOWN YA?!?!?! Those without tickets, TRY YOUR VERY BEST TO GET A TICKET BEFORE THAT VERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!



PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!



signing off~RYNETTA

Sunday 17 September 2006

DREADED WEEK AHEAD.

I haven't got the time to blog about combined cell and yesterday's service but...all I have to say is, I'm tired. Physically and emotionally.



It's going to be a very happening week starting from tomorrow. Got an oral presentation in school tomorrow. Got an in-class essay in school on Thursday. Don't know when's my next calculus/applicable maths test. Going to be out every night for some reason I can't say here. And I'm still very worried about my Greatgrandma.



I was out just now. When I was about to go home, I nearly broke down. Sure, the others are more tired and stressed than I am but I've never handled this much stress myself.



Again, I believe God will pull me through. I believe God will give me the strength. I have all the faith in God. Only God. God alone.



This is going to be very tiring. I don't know how I'm going to handle it but I will handle it well with the help of God. Not relying on my experience, not relying on my feelings, but relying on God. And I believe God will help me avoid all temptations. And that God will keep me FROM evil.



God chose the right time to teach us about temptations. He did. Praise the Lord.



signing off~RYNETTA

Thursday 14 September 2006

FAMILY VS FRIENDS.

Which would you choose?



I'd choose family.



Even if Greatgrandma ain't passing away, I'd still choose family.



Even if it's family vs BEST friends, I'd still choose family.



What about you?



signing off~RYNETTA
MY 890th POST.

110 more posts before I hit my 1000th post. Heh.



In school. Bored. If I get any skinnier, ALL my pants are gonna fall off my butt even with belt on. Scary. But I want to lost at least like 2 more kgs.



I lost about 11kg in a year. Lost another 1kg a few days ago. And, sad to say, this is not healthy at all. The last kg I lost was unintentional. I was...pretty depressed a day or two ago so I didn't eat properly. Funny thing was, I didn't go jogging either.



Gonna take one week off from jogging. Shall start jogging again next week or something. 'Cos I'm getting pretty bored with jogging. But I WILL still continue jogging for the sake of dance. I need the stamina man. Stamina.



AND MR WERX CAN RUN 12KM AT ONE GO!



I'm like...what? 2.2km only punctured already. LOL.



signing off~RYNETTA

Wednesday 13 September 2006

PASSION TRAINING.

I don't feel like blogging. But if I don't blog. I'll forget about what happened during Passion Training (PT).



So it was on a Monday. I was in school. Was using the computer in the library (like now) as usual but went off for lunch at around 11.35am. When I got back to the library, I saw Faith message me on meebo but I couldn't reply 'cos I was already running late for class. So before I went in to class, I gave Faith a call. She wanted to have dinner with me but she realised she couldn't find her wallet so I decided to lend her money first.



School ended at 3.45pm. Went home straightaway. Wanted to go jogging but firstly, I was lazy, and secondly, I REALLY didn't have time. Also, it rained. So I just stoned at home till it was around 5.30pm then I left.



Met Faith outside KFC at around 5.45pm. We decided to have KFC because Wong's was closed. I couldn't make up my mind whether to have popcorn chicken, zinger or two piece feed. The popcorn chickens looked small. I wasn't in the mood for burger although I was dying for mayo. And two piece feed would've been a little too heavy. But in the end I ate two piece feed. So did Faith.



So we happily had our dinner 'cos both of us were really hungry. Dipped the chips into the mashed potato. I ate the soft and soggy fries while she ate the hard and crispy ones. At around 6.20 we left KFC because Faith wanted to get red bull so that she can stay up late that night to complete her assignment. Coles was closed so she got two bottles from the Liquor Merchant.



We started walking slowly to Zion Centre (The Gowrie). When we reached there, only two people were there. A guy and Yan Jing. The guy was setting up the speakers and stuff. So Faith and I started walking around. She wanted to call Alfred to tell him to go to Stan's house 'cos David's there to pick him and Stan up. She ended up calling David, thought David was Alfred, told him "to go to Stan's house 'cos David's there to pick him and Stan up". And when she realised she was talking to David, both of us couldn't stop laughing. THAT was the joke of the day! Hahaha.



Then slowly by slowly more people came. How Boon too. He was complaining about our UWA people being late. So he made Faith call all the UWA people. So she called. One (David I think) was reaching alrd, one (Max) lost his way and the rest were on their way. Faith reported to How Boon very detailed-ly. Like where they were at the moment and stuff. Yan Jing was calling those people from her zone (Murdoch) so How Boon turned to her and asked if she had a just-as-good report. LOL.



About 15 minutes later, the UWA cars starting flowing in one after another. So Faith and I went in. They were in the midst of a game already. I had NO IDEA how the game went. There were like two lines or something...I don't know la haha. Then we started worship. Then the cell leaders were led to the other room. The rest of us? Taken care of by Karen =).



I envy Karen. Envy the way she pulled through her first year here in Perth. Her father was very very against Christianity and even disowned her for a few times because of that. But she pulled through that year and now her father even turns to her for advice. Hurray! Haha.



We were supposed to talk about endurance and love but in the end only touched on endurance. Eunice kept hinting on me about me and a girl who used to be a friend of mine. THANKS AR. Lol. We also split into groups of three for discussions. At first I was with Su Ling and Wei Xian until Karen said there must only be one girl in the group. =_=. So I ended up with an African from my school, Wei Yue and Kenneth.



First discussion was about what we regret quitting. Like you know, we were supposed to endure but ended up quitting. I talked about quitting piano after failing grade 8 and about how I normally slack after ballet exams each year. I truely am regretful, ok, 'cos if not for the quittings, I could've been a better at piano and ballet now. I mean, yes, I'm a lot better in ballet after the last minute torture in my grade 8 exam but still, I could've been much much better.



Second discussion was about...what you're enduring now. I talked about the girl who was once a friend of mine. I said that if I could even be friends with a bully in secondary school again, I see no problems being friends with that girl again. Just that...it takes time.



We played more games. Like 7up. The two-headed professor LOL. We also held hands across the room to pray together. PASSION TRAINING WAS AWESOME MAN! Haha. It was also my second time only.



Aftter PT, at first Nic and I couldn't go for supper with the UWA people because no one would offer to send us home if we go for supper. So Garry and Adeline sent one of their friends home and Garry complained he was hungry. He thought Adeline cooked but in the end she didn't cook so I asked him to go dinner with the UWA people. He said Adeline would be cold. Nic and I both offered our jackets lol in the end he gave up. YAY!



We ate at Makan Makan at Vic Park. We made Garry sit at one end and Adeline at the other. Like the father and mother of the UWA gang. Ha! We sabotaged them. Asked Adeline facts about Garry and asked Garry facts about Adeline and we found out that Adeline knows Garry more than Garry knows Adeline! Tsk tsk tsk. We also found out that Adeline was the one who asked Garry out on their first date. TSK TSK TSK! Lol.



I had roti prata with ice cream and fruits. IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME MAN! As in, TOTALLY AWESOME. Haha. When we finished, Garry sent Nic and I home. It was DAMN funny I tell you because Adeline's driving so Max came over to give us his last words (eh..is that right?) for us. And Nic told Bijia to tell Jamie that where ever he is, he will forever support Jamie's cell. LOL.



You know why? Because just now on the way to Makan Makan, Garry was at a T-junction. Then he asked whether to turn left or right. Then Adeline asked him to go straight. HE NEARLY DID SIA! LOL.



We, THANKFULLY, got home safely lol. Actually Adeline's driving is not bad la haha. Really.







School was boring today, as usual. Except for what Mr. Stalker did to me today. SCARY LA CAN!!!!! Lol.



signing off~RYNETTA

Tuesday 12 September 2006

LIFE.

Totally lethargic. Woke up with gastric. Nearly woke up late. But still forced myself out of bed. I think things will get worse for the next two to three weeks. I've got an ELACS test on Thursday. An in-class essay on Monday. A presentation on I don't know when. And more tests like Calculus, Applicable and Accounting coming out.



Bad thing is, I'll be having lots of late nights in addition to the practises I'll be having. And not to mention I'm not in my best condition, with lotsa problems surrounding me. I haven't been hearing any news about Greatgrandma.



Good thing is, holidays will be coming on the 29th September. For only TWO WEEKS. Then it'll be back to more mugging for Sem 2 exams. Then Grad Night. Then more mugging for Foundation exam.



But I believe God will pull me through. I have all the faith...in Him alone.



How could I have been so selfish. Greatgrandma's been so sick back home in Singapore. Instead of worrying for her, I worry about my friendship problems. I worry about my studies. I worry about my accommodation nexy tear. I worry about SFAS. I worry about my feelings that's starting to develop for someone.



I've been to selfish. But I can't help it. I thought I could stop worrying about my friendship problems but God seemed to have brought the issue up again through last night's PT about endurance. I can't stop worrying about my studies. I mean, it's UNIVERSITY life next year. It's a whole new thing. I can't stop worrying about my accommodation because I don't know how to wake up at 5am every morning to take the bus to UWA for 8am classes. I can't stop worrying about putting up my best performance for SFAS. And I can't stop thinking about that someone whom I'm supposed to start waiting for and take things slowly with.



It's not easy. Really. It's not. My life's not the worst I know. There are people with lives worse than me. There are kids dying every 3 seconds. But my life's still not easy.



That doesn't mean I'm going to give up. I'm going to pull it through. I know I can. I'll endure till the very end. And make myself a better person with better strength, and better character.



signing off~RYNETTA

Monday 11 September 2006

WEEKEND!

I served on Saturday! Was supposed to wake up at around 11.30am but I was wide awake by around 11am. But I still managed to sleep for about 12 hours. How cool is that! Haha.



So Garry picked Nic and I up at around 1.30pm. In the car Garry was singing away so I just started looking at things passing by the car window. Like houses, streets, cars, clouds and the swan river. Then Garry suddenly asked me why I wasn't talking. I was like..."nothing to say what..". Then he asked me to sing. =_= I DIDN'T!



We reached UWA at around 2. Or maybe even before that. LOTS of people were there. So everyone got ready and..audition starts!



No, it's not those kind of really cool professional auditions. Mmm. A row of judges sit at the benches. Then Garry, Jon Chia, Charles (I think), Francis, Stanley and two other guys I've forgotten performed at the area where our worship team would worship during services. FRANCIS WILL BE SINGING! GARRY WILL BE PLAYING THE PIANO! Wooo! Hahaha. Jon Chia's playing the guitar and sing along a little here and there. Charles (I think) will be playing the acoustic guitar. Stanley's playing the bass guitar. One of the two other guys is playing the electric guitar and the last guy, drums.



Only the auditioned. And once the audition was over, the hall kinda cleared. Some of the people who performed went off for lunch. The ushers cleared up the hall. The PA people continued setting up everything. The worship team started rehearsing.



Eunice did briefing. I was gonna do door, collecting of offering bags and security. I liked doing door haha. NOT BECAUSE IT'S SIMPLE OK! Because I get to be the first to greet people and welcome them in. =) I get to smile like I've never smiled before!



Nic vacummed the floor. We folded the bulletins. At 3.50pm, we went for EduCell! I haven't been to EduCell for EONS man! At first there were some problems because the rooms weren't open so Debbie had to call the security people to open the door. EduCell only started at around 4pm I think. Sorry people!!!



EduCell was about time management I think. Not too sure. Because we, the ushers, left halfway through to get prepared and stuff. We opened the door at 4.30 ON THE DOT! Haha. It was really fun shaking people's hands and inviting them in. Really! Love the smiling part =D.



Service started. Karen chaired. Sermon was done by a speaker. He's from YA I think. His speach was darn funny man! Haha. We had double offering. The first one goes to the church as usual. The second one goes to the fund for our pastors' trip to ARGENTINA!



After service, we sang a Happy Birthday song for Dorcas =D. Her birthday was actually on Thursday but everyone pretended we forgot and celebrated it on Saturday instead haha. Dorcas also had a bouquet of flowers and a card!



Part of the ZPH "tradition", Dorcas was brought around for the ride of her life! Haha. The rest of us waited at St. Cat's common room. Then Dorcas came in! Someone tied her hair up like a small little girl lol. She really really looked like a small little girl. Even her cake was a Barbie Doll cake haha.



We had Broadway pizzas and KFC. I had one slice of Hawaiin and one slice of vegetarian and the breast meat Bijia didn't want haha. And also a slice of cake. And that was it. I was bloated for the day. Visited Lydia's room. Didn't really like the environment of St. Cats. =\. Wei Xian took a few pictures of me and May haha. Was really fun.



After the celebration, some of us went to Tea Fusion for bubble tea. Everyone was crashing. Bijia was like slacking at the other couch. Eufei, Jamie, June, Letitia and Eunice played cards at different times. I stoned here and there. Some of the Curtin people were downstairs.



We left Tea Fusion at 11++pm. Edwin, Nic and I went TimeZone. Nic played the racing car thing again. Edwin played the wrestling one. Nic also got a small cat. Edwin got the big Donald Duck. I stoned all the way. Lol. Left at around 12.15am. Got home by about 1am.



What's the fun-est part of the day? May was there! =)



signing off~RYNETTA
SLEEPSLEEPSLEEPSLEEPSLEEP.

I'M BLARDY TIRED AR!



Went to bed at around 12.10am last night. Did my usual prayer till around 12.30am. Tossed and turned in bed till around 1.30am. Somehow dozed off. BUT woke up again at around 2.30am. =_=



Was thinking about some things. About SFAS. About...something. About my accommodation problems for next year. About my english assignment in a week's time. ABOUT SO MANY SO MANY SO MANY THINGS. And I had to wake up super early for school today.



I'm so gonna fall asleep on the keyboard anytime soon.



signing off~RYNETTA

Friday 8 September 2006

CELL CELL CELL CELL CELL.

YAY! I had cell last night! There were only like...6 of us. BUT. It was still fun. x)



Skipped lunch yesterday. I didn't have appetite nor the mood to do anything. Skipped ELACS again. Heh. Spent one whole hour playing and clowning around with Jay and Shelina. Both of them kept asking stupid questions la! Like...You know there are 26 alphabets right? Then, why suddenly there're only 24 left? Because E.T. GO HOME. DOTS! Lol.



There were also other very stupid questions lol. I left at around 4.30. Took the 4.40 bus back. Went to Coles. Walked one big round then decided to get some finger foods and the arnott shapes. And a bottle of apple juice. Before I got home, I got myself a small piece of bread. Ate while walking.



Garry came to pick me up at around 6.15pm. He didn't pick up Kenneth. And Faith wasn't in the car. We just went straight to Stan's house. On the way, Garry talked to me about what uni I want to take, what course, transport problems, accommodation and how to get a PR.



When we reached Stan's house, Faith and Stan were already there. We waited a while more and Wei Xian and Sarah came. We did worship first then games. We didn't end up playing Wei Xian's game but instead something similar. Hard to explain. Lazy to explain also. But Wei Xian lost. HA! =X



Garry did words. Francis cooked while Garry did words lo! So tempting can! Mmm. Then refreshments. Everyone seemed satisfied again. Yayness =). Sarah made tuna and ham sandwiches. I LOVE THE TUNA ONES! Then Stanley toasted the waffle. HE BURNT THE FIRST TWO LA! There was even SMOKE. So freakin funny can. Lol. So we had waffle with peanut butter and waffle with ice cream. I had two? AWESOME I tell you. Then my food came. Hehehe. I enjoyed every single bit of refreshments!



We hung around a little more. Watched tv. Garry FINALLY washed the dishes! Lol. He was like "singing" in the kitchen while washing. LOL. What a cell leader. Hahaha. At 8.45, Garry sent Faith and I home. Faith first. Was like dozing off in the car. Hehe.



Got home safely. You know something? I'm loving my cell more and more!



And I think...I'm starting to have feelings for someone...



signing off~RYNETTA

Thursday 7 September 2006

LOVE. WHO LOVES ME?

[12:08] Jesslyn Lim * All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You.: you still got so many ppl to love

[12:10] ' (F) Rynetta..::©♡♥[http://splittingicearena.blogspot.com]♥♡©::..谢德馨: ok that last sentence is seriously making me tear

[12:11] Jesslyn Lim * All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You.: haha silly girl!

[12:12] Jesslyn Lim * All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You.: and you still got alot of ppl who loves you!

[12:12] ' (F) Rynetta..::©♡♥[http://splittingicearena.blogspot.com]♥♡©::..谢德馨: ok thats worse

Stupid Jesslyn Lim Novianty made me cry. Lol.



signing off~RYNETTA
ZLM.

LAST NIGHT WAS ZION LEADER'S MEETING!!!!!!!!!!



It was my second time at ZLM and my second time serving at ZLM. In other words, I also served when I went there for the first time! Coolness right? =D



School was boring though. Learnt budget for accounting. Surprisingly easy but tricky. Mmm. Was supposed to do this essay thingy for ELACS together with Fatin but we both ended up surfing the net. HA!



When I got home, I went jogging. IT WAS SO FREAKING IRRITATING ALRIGHT?! The wind was blowing AGAINST me all the way! It felt as if I was jogging up a hill la can!!!!! I got really really pissed. But I still managed to jog like 2.2++km. Legs got jelly and all after which.



Nic said Lawrence was supposed to pick me up at 6.30 from home. He only came at around 6.50. I was damn worried ok! 'Cos Lawrence's normally very early. Heng he came. Or I'd be jumping up and down in anxiety.



Marcus (with specs) and Nic were in the car too. Lawrence also went to pick Marcus (the nutritionist) up. AND OFF WE GO TO SOUTH PERTH CHURCH OF CHRIST!



Lotsa people were already there when we reached. People like...erm...Cannille, Johnny, En (that guy who's still trying to get me to join PA) and blah blah blah. And it just so happened that both Cannille and I wore the same shade of bright green. And both marcuses wore the same shade of dark green. LOL.



Nic and I got snickers before ZLM started. YUMness.



So when Cannille and I stood at the door inviting people in, everyone was asking if green was the uniform that day. And someone, either Marcus (with specs) or Lawrence, said, "Yeah! Green Dream!" Whatever can lol.



I did headcounts. About 140++ people. Marcus (with specs) chaired. Johnny, Francis and Zhengyi led worship. THEY WERE LIKE SO FUNNY CAN?! Jumping up and down the stage. Look like...3 small boys. Ha!



Cannille still remembers about my Greatgrandma. So so so so sweet of her. =) Thanks for praying for me!



Refreshments was light. Some cakes and biscuits and gummies tha I daren't touch lol. I thought that'd be my dinner so I just kept stuffing biscuits and more biscuits into my mouth. Then when I was full, Yumi invited me into the room for Stanley's surprise birthday party. So cool right? The tiramisu cake was handmade. So were all the other food in the room I think haha. But I didn't eat any. My tummy was already full of biscuits.



Then Garry, Adeline, Nic and I went to Northbridge for dinner with some UWA people. Nic and I felt really bright can? It was so bright it blinded my eyes. Even the sun couldn't compare with the brightness of Nic and I. LOL.



We ate at Dragon China. Or China Dragon. DUNNO LA! With Bijia, Jaime, Dorcas and Stanley. Had lotsa food man! Some spicy chicken, sambal kang kong, sizzling black pepper beef, sizzling toufu and GOLDEN SQUID! I still think Singapore Chinatown's golden squid's better, though. So gonna bring Daddy and Mummy there when they come!



The whole night the whole table were like sabo-ing Garry. Bijia said one or two sentences of praise then started insinuating Garry again lol making it sound as though Adeline made the wrong choice. And I said something quite mean although I added a "juz kiddin" at the back. Hope Garry didn't take it to heart =\.



Dinner was awesome. One person paid like A$10 or so. Had to pay for Nic first. THAT GUY AR. ALWAYS NO MONEY ONE AR!!!!! Lol. Tea Fusion was closed so we went to see if Utopia was open. In the end we didn't want to go lol. Adeline drove Garry's car! She sent Nic and I home with the help of her street directory boyfriend =D.



Nic got home and watched Silent Hill. GROSS CAN!!!!!







BTW, Jesslyn Lim Novianty has showered for more than 30 minutes and she's not back yet. That COW!



signing off~RYNETTA
SLIPPED AWAY.

Feeling all so jaded again.



Maybe the best way...is still to keep my mouth shut. To close myself up. To not let others know how I really feel inside. Maybe I won't even talk to people online about my problems. Maybe this would also be the last time I'm blogging about my problems.



Maybe that way, people won't be worried for me. Maybe that way, I won't say things I ain't supposed to say. Maybe that way, people will think of my as the no-worries-girl.



I miss her. I don't want her to leave me. Although she'd be in a better place if she leaves. Although she won't feel anymore pain if she leaves. But I can't let go. She's more than just a Greatgrandma to me.



She's everything to me.



signing off~RYNETA

Wednesday 6 September 2006

GREETINGS!

In school blogging again. Heh.



Last Sunday, my dream relived. Well, sort of. Wait. WHAT SORT OF?! IT DID RELIVE!!!!! And it felt really good =). I enjoyed every single bit of it. Although my right ankle got really tired and sore at the end of the day. LOL.



School's as boring as ever. I jogged quite long on Monday, though. Four times the length I first started out with about 2-3 weeks ago. YAYness. =D



I need to find out what's the distance. =\



signing off~RYNETTA

Tuesday 5 September 2006

MAMAK NIGHT.

Fourth post today. HA! Okok I NEED to blog about Saturday before ZLM tomorrow or I'll have too many things to blog by then.



Mmm. Friday first la k? Nothing much. Heh. Had open book assignment for accounting and it was kinda like a disaster. Especially the essay part. ARGH. ELACS test was a TOTAL GONER. I left one whole question blank because I didn't have time. So 10 out of 30 marks gone just like that. Pfff.

After school, went home and jogged. Then slacked the whole night through.



I slept at around 12.45am on Saturday morning and woke up at 10.45am on Saturday morning too. LOL. Slept quite long huh. Was actually planning to sleep till about 12 but thank God I couldn't sleep any further because I found out from Nic that Kevin's picking us up at around 12.45pm. So I still had time to take my time =D.

SO Nic knocked on my door at around 1.15pm which signified Kevin's arrival. Kevin fetched Ting, Annsley, Nic and I to church. Only Nic and I weren't serving.

We reached church super early. Like...1.30pm????? I sat down staring at the worship team rehearse, singing along. Junie came along. Crapped a lot lol. Ern/Urn kept asking me to join PA. NO?!?!?!?!?! Lol. Helped the ushers fold the bulletins too. At 3.15, Junie and I left the lecture theatre.

Bumped into lotsa people! Kenneth, Mishi, Dominic, blah blah blah. Went in with Junie and Kenneth. Johnny led worship. Marcus chaired. Francis did tithes and offerings (woooo!!!!!). Pastor Joyce did sermon. Francis talked about how he snatched a piece of roasted pork from his dad and felt guilty. Pastor Joyce preached about Made For More III.

Service ended at 5pm instead of the usual 6pm because of MAMAK NIGHT!!!!! WOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!! Those who were going to Mamak Night stayed in the lecture theatre at the end of the service slacking. THAT included me =D. At 5.45pm, we were outside the lecture theatre saying "let's go let's go!" But the place only managed to cleart at 6.15pm =_=. Some walked to the bus at Trinity College. Some drove to the bus.

Letitia drove Eunice and I to St. Cat's first because Eunice had to take something. Eunice's friend also came along. Then we went up the bus. Including Letitia. Haha. THE BUS TOOK SO MANY DETOURS CAN?! The bus took the FREEWAY when there wasn't a need to. But the second detour was understandable because the bus couldn't get around this narrow round-about.

We were like one of the last people who reached East Vic Park's Vic For Life. Bumped into a bunch of Canning College people at the door haha. I went "Hello!" to all of them but said "What are you doing here?!" jokingly to Ryan. Hahaha. That joker.

Was pretty lost once I got into the baksetball court because apparently there were two queues and I didn't know which queue was for which. There were two queues that looked like they were joint together because the table for plates and cutleries was just right behind the first queue for food. But Wei Xian somehow found the other queue for food so Eufei and I just tagged along. I cut Keni's queue, though, at the table for plates and cutleries haha. Sorry to the people behind Keni. Haha. Oh I also met Keni's housemates.

So we grabbed our two roti pratas, roti prata curry, nasi lemak, nasi lemak chilli, satay, satay curry, ketupat and er...that's all. Ha. We sat down in a circle. We as in...Wei Xian, Eufei, Kenneth, Stanley Bong, Nic and so on AND I. Lol. Nic got teh tarik for us. Thanks! The food was SUPERB I tell you. AWESOME.

Then I walked one round with Kenneth. Bought hum ji beng haha and a cup of pulut hitam. YUMness. Then when I finished my hum ji beng, I left my pulut hitam and went to buy ondeh ondeh with Eunice. When we went back, I thought MY bag got stained with satay sauce. In the end it was Eunice's because Wei Xian thought that pink bag was mine. LOL.

By the time I finished all my food, I was so bloated I could just lie flat on the floor and do nothing. Instead, I walked around the hall with Eufei to look out for cute girls (for Wei Xian LOL) and cute guys (for me HAHA). Then Mamak Idol came along. Sumi got sabo-ed. She then dragged Bijia up the stage with her and sang Oh Sarah Sarah. Bijia only sang the "Oh Sarah Sarah" parts HAHA. Some guy sang tong hua. Garry sang the Malaysian national anthem. LOL. Joey also got sabo-ed but in the end she got too nervous she didn't sing haha.

Results? Garry got second runner-up, Sumi got first runner-up and the tong hua guy got first. Everyone thought Sumi deserved the first position. I thought so too. Boo-ness. Haha. We hung around longer. I went to irritate Keni with his purple shirt and his fatty acids LOL. HIS SHIRT WAS CLEARLY PURPLE WHEN HE INSISTED IT WAS PINK. That colour blind idiot. Lol. Kenneth insisted on me taking picture with him. At around 9, Garry sent me and another of Eunice's friend home.

Overall? EXCELLENT.



signing off~RYNETTA
THE CALL.

This is like...what? My third post? Lol. Anyways.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!!




Yayayayaya, you guys know it already. But heck haha. Called Daddy this morning. Was close to tears. I miss Daddy =).



AND HE ONLY WANTED TO TALK ABOUT MY APPLICATION FOR UNI. THANKS AR!!!!!



But that stupid man said he'll leave a slice of cake tonight, keep it in the fridge, and bring it over to Perth when he comes. HA! Like as if cakes can last for a month!



Dada's as cute as ever! x)



signing off~RYNETTA
STILL DEPRESSED.

Supposed to be researching on my ELACS report. KILL ME. I hate ELACS tests. Always sucking out all the brain juices out of me. And what's WORSE about this is that not only do we have to write a full length 1000 word essay about our chosen topic, WE ALSO HAVE TO GIVE A FREAKING 3 MINUTES LONG PRESENTATION ON IT. WHAT RUBBISH?!



What a way to start Daddy's birthday.



DADDY WENT FOR CRUISE WITHOUT MUMMY CAN?! I'm so gonna scold him later when I call him. Lol. That stupid man! And I told him to treat Mummy like his precious little rose! But I can't totally blame Daddy either because Mummy's gotta work too. She's already taken two weeks off from work just to come to Perth to see me. =)



Called home this morning hoping to be able to wish Daddy happy birthday but Mummy's sleepy voice picked up the phone. It was WEIRD. Because normally at 7.40am, Mummy would've already been to ECP for her exercise. She claimed Singapore's having a thunderstorm now with lotsa lightnings.



Lightnings. *shudder*



I've got this urge to buy a muffin from school later, hide in one small corner, and sing a happy birthday song to Daddy on the phone. But then again, he wouldn't be able to see the muffin. And our school's muffins look terribly fattening.



Daddy should be home by now. Hopefully Mummy didn't tell him I called. But I'm pretty sure she did. Lol.



signing off~RYNETTA
DADDY.

I'm so freaking sure I look like a spastic crying infront of my laptop.



Today's Daddy's birthday.



Daddy's in Singapore.



I'm in Perth.



I'm not there to hug Daddy.



I'm not there to hold Daddy's hands.



I'm not there to kiss Daddy.



I'm not there...



To say, "Happy Birthday Daddy!"



I want Daddy. I only want Daddy...



signing off~RYNETTA

Monday 4 September 2006

I MISS DADDY BIG TIME.

Where will you find love?


Fairy tales, your love will be like an imaginary story, you love to love, you believe you have only one soul mate is waiting for you some where in this world and you are sure you will find them one day, and when you do you will make them the happiest in the whole world.
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What kind of kisser are you?


You are a Passionate Kisser there is some thing about your approach to kissing that is natural, smooth and ultimatly very charming, that is right you know the right moves to lure your mate, some may call you a player, but you know that it is just a cover for what you really feel toward your partner.
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What makes you unique?


Your attitude, that what makes you special, you like to break rules and habits, you are very angry inside, you are not very good at expressing your feelings that makes you tend to be a little violent or just stay away from everybody, you always say that you don't care about what people think of you, but inside you, you feel hurted by what they say, try not to get in the dark mood for too long so you don't stuck, probably you like dark colours.
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How do you connect with Pain? (updated)


You connect with pain emotionally, you don't like someone to lie at you, or cheat on you, cuz your wounds are the deepest between all the other kinds, your family has a big influence on you, whether in a good or a bad way, if your relationship with your parents was good, then you will grow up a happy, understanding person, but if it was bad you will become more introvert and don't trust people easily, every thing you believe in right now is connected some how with your childhood, don't convince yourself that there is no cure for your pain, cuz there is, all you need is to take care of yourself and love it deeply, don't wait for someone else to do so, every thing is in your hands now, so do the right thing.
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Which way will you choose? the hard or the easy way?

You choose the hard way, breaking traditions and habits, high ambitions, believing in your dreams which you work hard for making them come true or at least you wish inside that they become real, you think out of the box which is a good thing by the way, you don't care much about what people say.
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Which way will you choose? the hard or the easy way?

You choose the hard way, breaking traditions and habits, high ambitions, believing in your dreams which you work hard for making them come true or at least you wish inside that they become real, you think out of the box which is a good thing by the way, you don't care much about what people say.
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What kind of Drugs are you? and how that reflect your personality?


You are Cocaine (aka: coke, crack, snow, 151...). You are the second most commonly used drug in the world. You are very witty, talented, perky person if you can just have the right opportunity to show to everybody how unique you are, when you are in a good mood you can reach a very high point of happiness. You are classified as class (A and B) illegal drugs.
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signing off~RYNETTA
I LOVE YOU.

For Daddy, Mummy, Huan Yuet, Christine and Albert:

I love you,
You love me,
We're a happy family.
With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you,
Won't you say you love me too?!



For May, Wei Xian and Stuart:

I love you,
You love me,
We're best friends like friends should be.
With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you,
Won't you say you love me too?!



x)



signing off~RYNETTA

Sunday 3 September 2006

IM BACK!

Shall blog about my weekend ya? Before school starts tomorrow, which will take another 4-5 more days before I come to life again. Lol.



Thursday was cell group. Yepyepyep I know you know. Haha. Mmm. Skipped ELACS, as usual. Spent like one hour in the library's learning centre. In the end? I got terrorized by this caucasian. He claimed I was stalking him! Just because each time I go to the toilet, he'd be going to the toilet too. And where ever I go, I SEE HIM!



The same thing happened that day too. After lunch during applicable maths, I left the classroom halfway to take a break in the toilet. When I got out of the classroom, he also just got out of HIS applicable maths class for a break in the toilet. When I got out of the ladies' toilet, he just got out of the men's toilet. COINCIDENCE OK! I wasnt' stalking you!!!!! Lol.



Then when I skipped my ELACS, I went to the library, as I've said before. Then I saw him so I SIAM. In the end he still found me in the learning centre. So he planted himself beside me and started staring at me. HE MADE ME FEEL SO AWKWARD ALRIGHT!



He was bored. And so was I. So he asked me to entertain him.

"Sing?"

"No!"

"Dance?"

"No!"

"Tell me a story?"

"No!"

So funny la can. We ended up telling each other more about ourselves. He's 28 this year. Half chinese. Did martial arts before. Is a qualified chef now. And wants to do engineering in UWA next year. Oh, he's a free thinker.



So he's going to make creamy pasta for me one day. Yayness! Wahaha. So we had a long chat. With both of us complaining we were bored most of the time. Meili, Jesper (not the UWA one) and Kobe also came along to chat with us. Although most of the time we spoke in chinese, leaving Meili and the caucasian lost. Heh.



He left at around 4.15, though. He had work. So ya. I left at 4.30 for my bus home. Meili and Jesper were outside with their friends. Meili said bye. So did Jesper but in chinese. Then Jesper said something in chinese which I didn't manage to catch then their friends were like immitating him. Lol because they ain't chinese. Damn funny la!



Got off the bus at Coles. Went to get roasted chicken. Saw some church people in Coles again =D. I also got myself a sausage roll before walking home. When I got home, I changed my bag and stuff and left the house at 6.10. Garry came at around 6.15 and OFF WE GO FOR CELL!!!!!



As usual, Garry went to pick Kenneth up. He also picked Wei Xian up. It was potbless. I brought my roasted chicken. Faith brought (cooked) beef. Kenneth brought potato chips and drinks. GARRY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING CAN!!!!!



When we reached Stanley's house, Nic, Shawn/Shaun and Wei Yue were there. They also prepared food. Some vegetable and some chicken. Stanley led worship as usual. Then we had refreshments first! That's a first time! Garry wanted to do words during refreshments too but he finally realised guys can't multi-task (it's scientifically proven ok!) so he decided to do words after refreshments.



Refreshments were AWESOME. Best so far. Words was intellectual like always. We actually had time left to laze around after cell. At 8.45 then we left Stanley's house. At first Nic, Shawn/Shaun and Wei Yue left first. Then Garry went off to pick his guitar up from Dorcus' house. Then Faith and Stanley did the washing up of dishes. Then Garry came back to tune his guitar while the rest of us lazed around. Then Garry sent us home.



I LOVE MY CELL GROUP!



signing off~RYNETTA
rules: bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I have slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone, I just dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausages.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I fucking hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I sing when showering.



signing off~RYNETTA

Saturday 2 September 2006

OOPS.

Haha okok my bad for posting so many quizzes. But don't blame me k! I'm just suddenly very into quizzes. I used to be someone who gets very excited to see sadistic results out of quizzes and now I'm someone who gets very excited to see cheerful results. I'm really really glad I've changed. And really really glad that I'm feeling so much more carefree these days.



What's the sad part? I realised it's because I've been closing myself up these days.



In school I just listen to my iPod Nano during lessons, breaks and so on. After school, I zoom back home. Either to jog or to surf the net (talk to people like Stuart and Wei Xian online).



The GOOD thing is, I've found my trueself. At least, for the moment. I used to be someone who doesn't put a smile on her face where ever she goes. Someone who gets upset pretty easily and stuff. But during this week, I realised that a smile has been taped onto my mouth. It just never seemed to go away. I've become more bubbly, jumping from one spot to another. Ok not literally jumping but...walking like I'm dancing. When I talk to people, my tone's become more cheerful.



No, I no longer confide in people. I no longer sit down to have a good chat with someone. I only crap with people from one point to another. I jump from one place to another to bullshit here and there. Only when I'm online then I start pouring my feelings to Wei Xian and Stuart. They've been my best online buddies. And they know lots about my secret. =)



I feel much better this way. Not to say I'm alone. I've got God. He's my ultimate best friend. And my laptop's my second best friend. 'Cos through my laptop, I confide in many people like Wei Xian and Stuart (as you can see), and Mummy.



I wish to stay this way for the moment. Not to be tied down by things. And I've realised something.



The lesser friends I have, the less trouble stirs.



signing off~RYNETTA