Wednesday 31 March 2004

oh ya...in case you dunno...i am not in taf club at all...you can ask mr gordon goh...bu dong zhuang dong
......kk...today...alot of things happened...in sch...huan yuet and samantha over there suan me...suan then suan lo...like...who cares...you say i act chio act lian and act cute...sori man i never thought i was chio, never wanted to be lian and never thought i was cute...you get ppl to diao me...diao lo...who cares again...you said i'm fat? i never thought i was slim...well at least i'm not the fattest in class...think bout it...i never said alot of ppl jio me...i never said tim jioed me...is other ppl THINK tim jio me, said it out, tim heard it and spread say i tell ppl he jio me...i then dun want him jio me lo...pls lo...n i never stick to tim at all...n i'm not saying he was sticking to me...i joined his class coz i wanted to have fun with daphne evelyn and the fat teacher...dun even think you know them niwaez...you say my leg's worse than a pig's trotters? ugess you haven't seen my cousin's legs...so wad if i wear mini pants? that's my clothes right...not yours...i attempt suicide? i never cut at the correct place of the wrist? have you heard of ppl wanting to get pain before death? and so wad if i wanna smoke? your mouth and lungs or my mouth and lungs? and you say i shoulder xinyi and scolded chee bye? well let me tell you wad happened...i was walking with my best friend and she just walked pass me and she banged into me...whether or not it's on purporse i dunno...and bout tt chee bye part, i was reading my msg and i was NOT scolding xinyi chee bye...you say i suck up to mdm rose? it was mdm rose who wanted me to tell her wad happened lo...i said nothing but she still insists...wad you want me to do? and i never said you and i are pretending to friend samantha...bout you i dunno but i was never pretending to befriend samantha...i was truely trying to befriend her...and it wasn't me who said samantha caused you and fredrick to break up...you said it yourself to tim on the phone...tim put his phone on loud speaker n i heard it myself...no use faking...and i never said samantha backstabbed ME...if you say so coz of wad i wrote in my blog, i can tell you now i was not saying bout samantha...if my dancing caused all the earthquakes in the world, i would have stopped dancing long time ago...but it's not my dancing...you study geog? it's the movement of the platelets...bet you didn't study geog...and i never said it was tim's FAULT...i only said "you happy?"...and i never said "u go tel huan yue tt i say u jio-ing mi ahs??? walaos.. den samantha backstab me.." to tim...i never said he jio me...as i said, i then dun wun him to jio me...he sec 1 onli lo...ee yer...i also never said samantha backstab me...n so wad if i like to scold the word fuck? my mouth and brain is not for you to control...i never forced samantha to be my "mum"...if she really don't want she could have just told me...but did she? no...and i never flirt with ppl...wad for flirt...i'd rather concentrate on my studies...wei da said i've been attempting suicide for 3 years? haha sorry man...i never attempted last year...wad does wei da know bout me? lmao man...and you also said no one will go to my funeral? let's see man...you wish for me to die is it? then i shall NOT die...you said mdm rose dun side me? i never needed her to side me...and i never sucked up to her...she come and ask me one lo...you say i backstab ppl? wad did i do? i never said anyone backstabbed me k...dun put words into my mouth...i never told anyone you guys find gang to whack me...who did i tell tt to? you tell me? again putting words into my mouth...you say being in the same room with me everyday is very suay? then y not you change class? still saying i blamed tim? i never said "it's your fault lo"...i never said tt k...i only told him wad happened todday...you say life aint good for me? life was never good for anyone k...haha call me nerd? i'd rather be a nerd then be ppl who go around making ppl upset...again you said you want me to die? well, i shall NOT die...and will NOT die...for tuition, thx mr ng and adeline for being there for me...;)...you guys are great...i will not let both of you down...i promise...;)......

Tuesday 30 March 2004

......kk...i'm typing with only my right hand now coz my left hand's kinda busy at the moment...kk...this morning...sch...nothing happened again lo...lol...mrs wong was sick...:(...get well soon k? take good care of yourself ya...coz you're a nice teacher ;)...then after history i need not stay back for eng tuitorial coz it's onli for those who failed their eng...they going through their retest...so stanley, wei feng and me went to katong news agency to buy materials for our class deco...then went 7-11 to get some food...then back in sch...i realised i missed tim's call...moon told me tim's angry...like wadeva la...then i called him then he said he saw me with stan and wei feng together at KNA...i was like...um...ok...wadeva...then moon and i went to watch the guys at the new hall having table tennis competition...all those guys not shuai one lo...and dun say i flirt k...coz i onli went for fun...then went back to class and moon and benji and i shared ruffles cheese flavour...then saw wei feng and eunice so close to each other...aiyo...lol...then benji gor for badminton training and moon went home with her mum...so i went for tuition...at mavis...by then was already 4.30 when i left sch...then when i reach mavis it was 5.00...then i started doing my homework with fiona's mum beside me...fiona's mum's a really nice lady k...then halfway through tim called me...i didn't wunna talk to him...dun ask y...it's for me to know and for you guys to wonder...then i told him i wanna do my homework...he didn't let me...so i persuade and persuade and persuade then he finally said bye...so i continue with my work...then physics tuition start...bao ying and i called angie fish angle lie...coz on the extra lessons notification, her name looked like ms angle lie...from now on she's called anlge fish...lol...then lessons were as usual...made fwenz with tt wei jian guy from bedok green...nice fwen...i hope...lol...then tt bitch...sarah-ann...kept suan-ing me and adeline k...so we got so fed up we suan her back also...then we saw her bra is STRIKING ORANGE...so we suan her very loud bout her STRIKING ORANGE BRA...lol...then after tuition, i realised fiona's mum knew bout bitchy valerie ng and me...valerie u good...u GOOD...go ahead and tell the whole world!!! like i scared man! hum ji mehx?! chee bye...then i told fiona's mum it's not like this...i dun need to explain fiona's mum trust me already...like wa lao...it's valerie ng's fault k...not my fault...then now at home...bored stiff...still dun wunna talk to tim...i onli wunna talk to me, myself and i...and stan and any other fwens whom i can trust at the moment...sigh...bad mood......

Monday 29 March 2004

......this morning before flag-raising, nicola walked pass me behind my back and said "fuck you" to me...i turned around, wanting to scold him, but he was gone...so i smsed him and said "you said fuck me? y not just bring it on? hum ji mehx? lmao!"...lol...i was telling ALL my friends...LOL!!!!!...gonna make him real pissed by being happy the whole day infront of him...lol...then e maths tt time, everyone was to do their work...cannot talk...cannot sleep cannot do other things...but i could sleep!!!!! thx to my hard work for the common test tt made me get the top in class...then at mavis...spent time with tim, daphne, evelyn and not really danny...then halfway through our fun, ms valerie ng spoilt it by speaking to daphne and me bout our attitude towards her...then she complain to anita and her stead ok...hum ji mehx?! complain to police i also not scared ar! then e maths class started and the guys and gals were very noisy except for me and adeline coz we were just doing the work ms ng told us to do...we didn't listen to wad ms ng was teaching...then ms ng could not take it anymore and screamed at "us" and stomped out of the room...anita came in and told us ms ng was crying...i told the whole thing to tim through sms...lol...he was saying miss ng is a coward...which i kind agree...then she came in and continued teaching...then came home...then now...rushing through this blog so i can go to my room and start filing and revising and pia-ing for my homework...then call tim...kk...gtg le! buaiz......

Sunday 28 March 2004

......i'm in a bloody bad mood today k...like wa lao...for modern dance, i'm supposed to go for the grade 2 class but it clashes with the elementary ballet, so does grade 2 tap...so i HEARD my mum say mrs skipp told her to tell me to join the grade 3 tap...so i sat down there and waited for the grade 3 tap lesson to start...then mrs skipp said i'm supposed to join the grade 4 modern and the grade 2 tap...i was like: "HUH?! but my mum told me u want me to join the grade 3 tap!"...then she went: "you dun mother here mother there! i tell u join this class means this class!"...like...WAD THE FUCK...my mum told me the wrong information and I got scolded instead of HER?! wad stupid logic is this?! you tell me?! k so i joined the grade 4 modern then i dunno ANYTHING...so i stood there like a COMPLETE FOOL...k...nvm...so after tt i joined the grade 2 tap...n a lil of grade 2 modern...then i went up for elementary ballet...then mrs skipp scolded me for my hair...she said: "you either tie up your hair or dun come for ballet!"...again WAD THE FUCK!!!!! i didn't want my hair SO short...but wad you want me to do? i can't even tie it up wad u want me to do?! must as well i just shave off my hair and leave it bald?!?!?! FUCKED UP K?!?!?! then elementary class i'm ok...by the end of it i was damn tired...bones were gonna crack...then my parents picked me up...so they asked me wad i wanna eat for dinner...so i went: "i thought we are gonna have dinner at ah mah's house?!" then they say it was very late...HELLO?!?!?! 7pm is late?!?!?! you guys are NUTS!!!!! how do u expect me to know wad i want to eat now?! i planned to go to my grandma's house ok?! FUCKING PARENTS I HAVE!!!!! then after tt now i'm at home...my mum called mrs skipp and told her i left a bag of leotards at the studio and forgot to pass it to mrs skipp...like...HUH?! it's just a bunch of old leotard...hello?! wad's there to panic?! fuck la...then now they still talking...talking bout ME...M.E...good...VERY good...go ahead and talk back bout me behind my back...GO AHEAD!!!!! fucking bitches...not tt i dun like mrs skipp now but i've had enough stress...i'm turning the table over now...fucked up k?! so you guys just FUCK OFF!!!!! chee bye......
......this morning...bought coffee for daiyu again...n u noe wad?! juz coz i know daiyu's b'dae and i buy coffee for him every sunday morning, mr fadhil thinks we stead...like...HUH?! like tt means i got millions of stead alrd lo...including gals....eee yer...lol...then break...then when we went through compre tt time...i tell ya...i'm really pissed with mr fadhil...i really dunno how to do question 1(b) but he keept insisting on me answering...i was so damn pissed i went "i dunno means i dunno k...wad do u want me to do?! get the answer sheet and read out the answer to u?! DUNNO MEANS DUNNO LA!!!" then i diao him then everyone looked at me in shock...lol...big ritez?! haha...i bloody pissed with another person also...talk bad bout me to my good friend behind my back...lucky my fwen told me...so i can tell him it's not true...like wtf la...actions have been taken on u...so u becareful...BITCHY BACKSTABBER...act chio bui chio lo......

Saturday 27 March 2004

......i hate tap dance now!!!!!!!!!! I...HATE...TAP...DANCE...NOOOOOW!!!!!!!!!! i told my parents i want to stop tap dance for the time being coz i want to concentrate on my intermediate ballet exam...you know wad they told me?! they said i should take on every challenge and go for both...like wad the fuck...somemore with such a bitchy sucked up teacher called miss wee...wtf...end of this term...which is onli one or two weeks more to go...i'm gonna QUIT...Q.U.I.T...NOT gonna continue at all anymore...tuition was fun la...ofcoz man...mr kelvin ng ma...although i didn't join in the fun but it was fun enough...was laughing like mad...mr ng called himself "whatanassiam"...then alex went "whatanassuare"...haha...they purporsely pronounced it out so other ppl won't understand but unfortunately i understood...lol...mr ng said i change...mature alot...compared to last year...coz today is onli my second lesson with him...wad to do...i m guai kia now...haha...now i'm bloody bored...BORED......

kk...here i continue with wad i am...as in all the quizes...
heartsick
You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girl
who always has a crush and is writing their
name on all your books. You are a hopeless
romantic. Waiting for that prince charming, you
take love seriously, but still play any chance
you get. You can have a lot if boys who are
friends, but waiting for that perfect
boyfriend. Sometimes you are discouraged
because there are no sparks but even if the
smallest thing happens, youre on Cloud 9. You
believe in true love and wait for it. Just dont
be afraid to take a chance. Love is all about
risks.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Night
You are the night fairie. Shy and silent you love
the dark. The secent in the air of night is
better than anything in the world to you.
Please rate my quiz it would keep you up longer
into the night.


What kind of element fey are you? (PRETTY PICS)
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What wings are you?
Colorful Wings


What Kind of Wings are You?
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Silver Dragon
You are a silver dragon. The rarest kind of dragon.
YOu are noble yet avoid humans as much as
possible. You are the guardian of the
defensless and you rule the skies.


Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!)
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DesireLove
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

PLEASE RATE


What Do You Truly Desire? *PICS*
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Timmy
You're Timmy! Nice Hat!


PLEASE RATE. THANX




What 'Fairly off Parents' Character Are You? *PICS*
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good power2
You enter the door .You see the higher being and
listen to what it says to you:
I have already been waiting for you.You ask
yourself why, dont you? Let me explain:
You should know that I am not the highest being I
am just one of the nine servants. And I am
sent to make you think about something but I am
not here to answer your questions. I can not
tell you too much but I will come again. So
listen what I have to say!
I am the higher being of good power. I was sent up
from above and want to tell you that we thank
you and love you. You are representing us on
earth and you are a very dutiful and good
person. You will get what you deserve and that
is a lot. Remember that we are always there for
you and you can always pray to us. Something
good will happen to you in the next time. Sure!
And remember not to judge others they will be
judged
! Thus spoke the higher being of wisdom and now
wake up
If you want the higher beings to come again please
rate this quiz. It will may take some time but
I have to work hard. Messages are also welcome!


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niwaez, u must be wondering where i got all these from...i got all these from samantha's blog! haha...samantha, continue adding more quizes! thx! ;)
schoolgirl
Schoolgirl


What's your sexual appeal?
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pure
Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.


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Gemini
You should be dating a Gemini
21 May - 20 June
This mate is inquisitive, entertaining and
charming, liberal, broad-minded and youthful.
Though Gemini has a tendency to be impatient,
gossipy and sometimes irritable, this twin has
the ability to expresses his or her pent up
emotions during sex!


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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E
You should definately wear red converses. They
reflect your daring attitude. They would also
add a little color (but not too much) to your
laid back style. LOL.


What Color Converse AllStar are You? (With Pics)
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light
You're Element is Light. You are friendly, happy,
social, bubbly, and can brighten up any one's
day. You are very kind and a real people person
because you have several friends (or atleast
should). You're cheery nature makes you lovable
and your stunning looks are sweet and stand
out.


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!


Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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You belong in the world of darkness and are a part of the despair.
You belong in the land of darkness, otherwise known
as one of the worlds in which I dwell. All here
is beauty inspired by tragedy and great sorrow.
Write or go through other creative outlets to
express the anguish you may be feeling, and
never let anyone tell you that you are just
being 'weepy' or full of 'teenage angst'(if
you're a teenager.If not, then they really
should be punished for calling you one. They
probably are trying to insult your
maturity...fools.)and always remain yourself,
dark and amazing. Never change.


Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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Earth Goddess
You are the Goddess of Earth. You are very stable
and dependable since the Goddesses rest apon
you. You are very materialistic. Somtime cold
and distant, but that might be because you need
to get what needs to be done, done. But yet you
are everyone elses strength. You are the most
Stable of the Goddesses, since without you the
other Goddesses would not exist.
Other Earth Goddesses: Ceres, Cerridwyn, Demeter,
Gaia, Persephone, Epona, Kore, Mah, Prithivi,
Rhea, Rhiannon


Which of the Four Elemental Goddesses are you?(With Pics)
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You are a vampire, but one that consists of denile
shame for what you are, you try and live life
normaly, feeding on animals, but living in the
shadows, you regret your gift from ever coming
to you. You are constantly in a state of sorrow
and self pitty, so a tip for you would be is,
don't be ashamed, there are much worse things
out there than being a vampire, and if you use
your gift correctly you could live a normal as
can get, happy life, but if you stay in the
shadows any longer you will become one your
self. Please rate this quiz!



What Kind Of Vampire Would You Be? (Cool answers, AND FOR GILRS UNLESS YOU ARE A CROSSDRESSER)!
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moma wants to use the comp so i continue later

......hey babe!!! guess how long i slept?!?!?! 14 hours!!!!! haha...i slept at around 11.30 and woke up at 1.30...haha...as in 11.30 pm and 1.30 pm...haha...:P...now waiting for time to pass...then 6.30 go tuition...haha...nothing much to say......

Friday 26 March 2004

......today DAMN BORING...like wah lao...nothing happened lo...then after sch go to marine parade lib for duty as a noise buster...me n my fwen yi ting and the manager...MANAGER...chased a bunch of girls and boys out...like so cool man! i feel damn big lo...ppl saw me with that noise buster tag then kept quiet and ran away...HAHA!!!!! i'm so big man!!!!! lol...kk...then went home...then tuition...chem...saw tt fucking bustard...i'm gonna be sick man...lol...then chem was not bad la...understood the lesson...haha...then now at home...stoopid timothy...it's mavis NOT MARVIS!!!!!...lmao...rofl......

Thursday 25 March 2004

......i just hate ppl who have ego tt are damn BIG...they think they are damn good looking and think everyone likes or loves them...ppl like myren, sarah-ann and nicola...tried to be good friends with them yet they think i fell in love with them...wad immature thoughts man!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!...dun say the same thing back on me...coz i never thought i was good looking and i never thought anyone would like or love me...you ppl just suck big time so FUCK OFF!!!!!
......today really nothing much happened...really nothing lo...really bored...onli sms tim in the morning...then sch start...he cnnt sms...now after sch alrd...no tuition day...my onli off day...so thursday will be a booooooooooring thursday...WHEN WILL MONDAY COME?!?!?!?!?!

Wednesday 24 March 2004

......woah biang...today a maths...i slept through the whole lesson coz i knew the chapter alrd...learnt it from the bitch, Miss valerie ng...then i sleep halfway mr kwek wei hong woke me up and told me to do the problem on the board...i do half way n i started to do factorisation to make the question easier...then nicola went "use square root leh...yong nao leh"...i just woke up u see...so i was kinda moody...so i was pissed with wad he say...i wanted to turn around and say "you tell me to use my brains? y dun YOU use YOUR brains instead?! u so clever then you come up and do la! lan jiao!" but obviously i did not coz i'm supposed to act guai in sch...and i solved the question and my cher was kinda shocked coz he didn't expect me to be able to solve it coz i wasn't listening to his lesson...and when i got back to my sit i diao nicola...fuck xia he...think he damn big...then after sch got lib duty...halfway through tim called...so went out of lib and talked to him for very looooooong...then miss chan caught me i fake her it's my dad but ofcoz she didn't believe...but she didn't care much la haha...then when i went back in to the lib, just nice duty end...like...HAHA!!!!!...then my parents fetched me to mavis for a maths tution...reached there, i talked to tim on the phone again...until lesson start then i hang on him...haha...sorry sorry...then i really guai k...i worked damn hard lo...mr ng's a maths lesson are like...more easier to understand...lol...then after the lesson i talked to tim on the phone again...then on my parent's car i hang him again..not exactly hang la...i did told him to put down...lol...then now at home...smsing tim...again...he got distinctiong for his maths...like...wow...congrats man...although bit surprising...haha...JKJK!!!!!

Tuesday 23 March 2004

......whaha today in damn good mood xia...sch was like normal la...nothing muich happened...then after school went BK with wei feng, matthew, jojo, jonathan and alan...lol...i went to put my bag at mavis first...then went back down to BK to find them...then i didn't eat coz i was not hungry...after they eat, jojo, alan and matthew went home...then wei feng and jonathan did their homework...like...sooooo guai...lol...then matthew came back coz the rain was too heavy and he had no umbrella...lol...then he gone again...then halfway through timothy from mavis called me...we had a long chat la...like from around 4 until around 6...ofcoz at around 4 10 wei feng and jonathan went back so i went back to mavis and continue talking to timothy...haha...he so cute...haha...then lesson start...me and adeline over there suaning myren and sarah...bet they are like on fire...HAHAHAHAHA...then halfway through timothy called again...tt time i was using adeline's hp...coz my hp no batt...so i told miss angie lie fish jie jie tt i got important call then went out and talk to timothy...like yay! haha...then went back...then lesson end...now at home...all alone...yay! charging my phone...smsed tim...but he haven't reply...cock......

Monday 22 March 2004

......lol...in sch...haha...i cut my hair like...very big thing like tt...lol...lmao...everyone was like "OMG!!!!! YOU CUT YOUR HAIR!!!!! Y?!?!?!"...lol...joel was the funniest..."YOU CHANGE YOUR HAIR!!!!!" hahahahaha...then i slept in a maths lesson...lol...indices and surds...learnt tt like long time ago...then i woke up with a BIG headache...then my head hurt all the way until last two lesson...assembly...it was so pain tt i slept...then after tt we were supposed to stay back to clean up the class...like...fucking mr peck...i was over there sleeping coz my head really hurts...then nicola and zi han like very not happy then over there say bad bout me...i was like...fuck off la wa lao...then after the whole thing went to long john with yi ting and chin wei...after the lunch i bought comics...two...for $10...then after tt i went mavis tuitoral centre...met timothy...talked to him alot...he was like...hate cheryl alot...haha...then i never go in for tt bitch's class la...lol...a and e maths...both never go in...whaha...spent all my time with timothy...like...ppl told him to jio me lehx...he IS very nice...but...he sec 1 leh...k la...i quite like him...then at 8 he went off...then i at office...stupid danny and daryl over there suaning me...and guess wad?! cheryl broke with timothy! woa...then tim told me something!!! i was like...OMG!!!!!...cannot say yet...he told me not to tell...now at home...waiting for him to reply my msg...have to chiong homework already...buai......

Sunday 21 March 2004

......went to ah mah house...thank goodness tt fucking bitchy germaine not there...then had dinner there...came back...fucking moma say continue clean up my room...fuck her la wa lao...clean up the whole day already k...give me a break...chee bye...this is MY ROOM not your fucking room...fuck off la...pissed with her......
......didn't go online yesterday...coz yesterday morning i went to serangoon area to a temple to pay respects to my late grandpa...as usual my fucking relatives are late...then wow man...over there got catholic JC shuai ge...hehe...me n him over there keep using our eyes to talk...haha...no la...just glance at him once in a while...my grandpa's "house" is N1-32...i cleaned his "home" and wanted to kiss his face but did not coz i had lip gloss on...haha...then we burn this burn that...oh! aunt jew lee twisted her knee...she say is due to beach volleyball...tt fucking germaine...came in her sch cca shirt and skirt...her shirt make her look like a fucking prisoner...she over there zhuo bo...never help at all...try to act big...like pls lo...so wad's if u're the OOOOOOOLDEST...BIIIIIIIIIIIGest in size...i'm still the best in education, sports, and outdoor activities like ballet...look at u...useless PIG...ah mah likes me more than she likes u k...i'm her fav grandchild...maybe she doesn't even like u at all...so FUCK OFF and stop trying to influence ah mah...oh and ah mah i love you :) then we ate breakfast near by...da yiyi bought me a nice pink plastic water bottle...very please...thankew!...then sent ah mah and da yiyi home...then me and my mum went home...we bathe and change and took bus to people's park for me and her to have our damn hair done...my fucking hair is like a fucking disaster...i was like...i want it very short...she cut a millimetre onli...a liiiiiiiittle bit shorter...TADA...bloody short now...like wad the fuck...then we went to suntec for the fucking travel fare...we went to SA, CHAN BROTHERS and CTC and NONE had a group package tour to hawaii...like...fuck la...wad's the use of having a tourism board then...cb...so we changed the idea and wanted to go korea in june and japan in december instead...queue so fucking long...then after the whole damn thing we went esplanade for tt cinderella...ballet perfrmance...by then my fucking shoes were already giving pain...those heels one...woah...the performance was nice though...saw my ballet idol Fu Liang...he dance damn good sia...SHUAI!!!!! but he not the prince in the cinderella...:(...at least he's the price's good friend and he appears alot of time! :)...haha...then after the thing my dad fetch us home...in the car my dad was nagging all bout me trying to follow the fashion...fuck xia...y can't a girl grow up normally with the clothes that suits her NOT the clothes tt she likes...i want to start wearing skirt and mini pants and i bought one of each onli and my dad say i following the fashion...it's not as if i getting ALL the clothes i like rite...like wad's his prob la...i got so fedup i went "YALAYALA!!!!!" then he started driving recklessly...like...oh i'm so scared! when actually i found it fun...haha...shhhhh...then at home he slammed things around...his fucking attitude...i got sooooooooooo fedup i locked myself up in my room and smsed jin wen gor and arthur...like fuck xia...spoil my day...then today...i woke up...i kao bei my parents...i gave them black face and slam everything around...then i ate onli a few spoons of porridge then i dun wunna eat alrd...then they send me go tution...daiyu is back so i bought coffee for him...then coz of my fucking hair everyone was shocked...mr fadhil said it was nice...daiyu was nuetral...and juz coz mr fadhil saw me giving the coffee to daiyu and juz coz i told mr fadhil today is daiyu's b'dae, mr fadhil thought we stead...like...HUH?!...but mr fadhil kinda talked to me today...coz i told him wad my parents...or rather my dad did to me...didn't go and see mr kalai...for once i couldn't be bothered with him...then after tution i got home...moma say want to clean up my WHOLE room with me...i was like...fuck la...i want to use comp...but no choice...so clean up...those clothes i dun wunna wear anymore either throw away or give away...all those magazines and useless worksheets and so on throw away...now having "break"...still got one small stack of things to clear...tonight going to ah mah house and eat dinner...YAY!!!!!...ah mah wo lai le!!!!! whaha...and arthur...give me a break...i'm sorry...we have not met for a very long time...we might have happy times together...you were a nice person...but this can't go on...not when my mood's down and so on...we might meet and talk and have fun one day...but not now...i'm sorry...oh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAIYU!!!!! ;)

Friday 19 March 2004

......today helped mrs skipp again! hehx...then...haha...auntie jo and auntie chris (kimberly's mum) were like...whaha...joking like siao with mrs skipp...whaha...i laugh until tummy pain man...zoe also damn cute man...haha...tania kimberly and i had alot of fun playing with zoe...oh! zoe is kimberly's lil baby sis...she's...P1 i think...sho cuuuuuuuuute!!!!! then after tt my parents and i went toa pa yo have dinner with their fwenz...i over there zhuo boh...they all chatting lo...chatting like siao then left me out...so i sms arthur...sigh...he disapproves me of getting a tattoo...sigh......

Thursday 18 March 2004

......TODAY WAS THE BIG DAY!!!!! i had my ballet exam!!! the examiner was damn nice...she was like...chatting chatting chatting...haha...but i made TWO mistakes...i was like...DAMN!!!!! hope the examiner is impressed with my other works...lol...other than tt...nothing much happened la...i shopped with my moma for my new clothes...hehx...bought one dinner skirt, going out skirt and going out pants...and one shirt...cool rights! haha...now at home...bored...wonder how's arthur today...hope he comes online soon...waiting for him to come online......

Wednesday 17 March 2004

......today...i couldn't wake up haha...then i went to joo chiat cc late...but at least i still helped mrs skipp! then also went parkway wif sheryl tang and cheryl to shop and buy what mrs skipp wants...then after the last group ended their exam, the girls were snatching the wan wan snacks from auntie joe...i mean ah ma joe...haha...JKJK!!!...haha...then u noe wad auntie joe did?! she went to put two of the snacks into her bra! whaha!!!!! then she say take out will be hot hot coz got warm fresh milk...LOL!!!!! everybody overthere laughing like mad man!!! haha...then my practise started at 8.30++...woah...very late leh...from 5.30 all the way until 8.30 i was over there stretching and stretching and stretching...i was so early coz i went straight up to the studio for practise...then my practise ended at 10...ten...TEN...i was damn tired...man...mrs skipp tell me not to help tomorrow so i could rest for my exam...MY EXAM!!!!! TOMORROW!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

Tuesday 16 March 2004

......today i in damn good mood!!!!! yesterday also la...haha...coz i helped mrs skipp with the exams stuffs and all those and she wasn't as tired coz i turned out the one being tired but i'm happy!!!!! coz i made her not as tired! and she was happy! yay! Ice is happy!!!!! then after helping we...as in my group...had our practise...woah...DAMN TIRED...coz levina never come so i had to partner xing yan...and becoz i had to partner xing yan, i had to do everything twice coz my original partner is amanda...so by the end of the class i looked like a flat tyre...lol...but it's a good practise for my stamina la haha...wonder how's arthur...heard he had a new physics tution...he said it was good...well good for him then! lol...now at home...tired man...waiting for arthur to come online...yawnz......

Monday 15 March 2004

WHAHAHAHA!!!!! guess wad i told myren?!?!?! i said : "hey look.. i was NOT referring to u in my blog. it's not as if u're the onli guy in my whole life.. so STOP being so naive and think i love you. go ahead and block me.. coz i know i've did nothing wrong." n he blocked me!!!!! lol!!!!! laugh my ass off man!!!!! wad a gooooooooood boy! i told him to block me he blocked me! good dog good dog!!!!! whahahaha!!!!!

kk...here's more poems i got :

"Everythin changes but beauty remains
Something so tender i can't explain
Can we make this dream last forever
And i'll cherish all the love we share"

"Some say love it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you it's only seed"

"If you're lost without me
Wondering where i might be
I'll be waiting just around
The corner of your eye
Like and angel watching
Meet/need me when you're dreaming
I'll be waiting just around
The corner of your eye"

"I never know what the future brings
But i know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And i hope you are the one i share my life with
I don't want to run away but i can't take it i don't understand
If i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am?
Is there anyway that i can stay in your arms?"

Then here are some quotes :

"If i could reach up and hold a star for everytime you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand"

"The truth shall set you free"

"I will let you down, i will make you hurt"

"Love has no limits"

"We believed it once. Let us believe it again"

"I'm not the type of girl that will let them see her cry"

"Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, too rude, too rowdy and it pricks like a thorn"

"你是我的幸福吗? 为何幸福让人如此犹豫" if this cannot be seen then msg me on msn or e-mail or sms at 96737948 to ask me about it

tt's all! hope you guys enjoyed it! i wunna sleep liao...nitez arthur! ;)
here's another nice one!!! :

take my hand...
take me home...
lead the way...
for i believe i've lost my way...
and i fear i may not find it again...
because i've lost everything...
that ever mattered to me...

hehx...:)
saw this really nice poem:

Looking up in the sky
Brings back mermories
Of you and me happily together
The stars will shine brightly
For you and me
No matter where we are
How far apart we are
My luv for you will never change

nice rites??? ;)
......woah...today damn tiring man...k la...starting was ok...i helped mrs skipp...coz it's ballet exam period this week...so i helped out in sorting out the girls...chasing them up and down...pinning their pins on their hair bun and leotards...n they were really cuuuuuuuuuuuute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lunch was chicken rice...then...BACK TO WORK AND FUN!!!!! but by the end of the day...WOAH...really tired already...coz it's like...the chasing and finding and the playing...phew! really tiring...then after the last batch has gone up for their exam, i took a lil nap in the preparation room...then the exam finished for the day and mr chester came in talking and chatting and talking and chatting and woke me up...i was like...WAD THE HELL...arthur also had a busy day i guess...he had to help his dad with the furniture and stuff...whaha...he was like damn happy sitting at the back of the lorry...lucky the wind did not blow him away...haha...dun tire urself too much k...;)...now at home alrd...watching a tv programme on jellyfish...it's damn beautiful ok...just tt...their stings...OUCH......

Sunday 14 March 2004

......today dai yu neva come for tuition coz he is busy climbing mountain at...dunno where haha...then ballet...lucky today no headache...but still no energy leh...hai...no style...:P...ARTHUR!!!!! YOU PLAY SOCCER IN THE RAIN!!!!! YOU WANT TO DIE AR?!?!?! i damn worried lorhx...lol...better not get sick ar...i serious...coz i care ;)......
WOOHOO!!!!! guess wad! i got my very own digicam!!!!! and a multi-purporse printer too! the printer consists of photocopier, printer direct from digi-cam and scanner!!!!! oh my! i feel like the luckiest girl on earth now! ...uh...maybe not...hehx......

Saturday 13 March 2004

......my head hurt so much tt i actually cried in class...everyone was actually chatting or resting or dancing but i was over there crying...is like...wow...never had such a terrible headache before...and guess wad...i got highest in class for a maths...18/40...still fail la...no one passed in class......
OH MY GAWD!!!!! can you believe it?!?!?! arthur wrote a poem for me!!!!! it goes likw this:

"to a girl so caring,
i want to say: 'you'll be a perfect darlin.'
i knew this
from the very first day i met u"

athur, i'm really really really very touched! thankew! :) ILY
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Friday 12 March 2004

guess wad man lol...i made myren angry...whaha! when jun han said he was hot mr kalai said i should change place with him...aaaaaargh...okok here is the conversation :

jun han : "wa lao..i damn hot man" (i think..can't really remember)
mr kalai : "de xin then u change place with him"
me : "i dun mind changing places with jun han but i won't want to sit behind an idiotic freak. a naive freak."
myren : "WAD DID YOU SAY?!"
me : "oh oops wad did i say?"
mr kalai : "wad happened between you two?! look if you guys want to settle ur problems, settle it outside.dun disturb my class"
kevin (to me) : "you scared myren not?"
me (to kevin) : "scared wad?! hum ji mehx?! want to kill then kill la!"

then after lesson i got glenn to protect me haha...we went down by the back lift...i have to admit tt glenn's a really good friend...thx glenn =)
......today nothing much really happened la...didn't sms tom much today...coz...dunno leh...like...he take quite long to reply one...i smsed more with arthur today...:P...whaha...then lib duty...at marine parade lib...sian ji pua...then at 5 the librarians ask us is it time for us to go then me n my junior say "oh! it's 5! ya time for us to go"...lol...we supposed to leave at 5.30...muahahaha...lol...now at home waiting for dinner...gastric bloody pain...ouch......

Thursday 11 March 2004

......woohoo...i rawk man...i never go in for a maths tution...miss ng saw me outside at the counter i diao her...whaha...wunna fight ar? come la! lmao! then i whole time sms tom...he so early go off liao...wa lao...n tt daryl...lol...he thinks i like tom...LMAO...i onli msg tom as a fwen...lol...tom damn farnie...i say the wind very big very cold he tell me to blow back in revenge haha then i say my mouth not as big as his then he say use my bubble tea blow back...lmao...sho farnie xia he...until now still smsing...lol......
......today i kao pei chun chen haha...eng tt time everyone wanted to do the grammar worksheet then he overthere extra extra say want to continue do reflections homework...everyone tell him to diam diam he still continue shouting...then i was like "everyone want to to grammar worksheet la...u shutup la...juz coz onli u want to do reflections then everyone must do meh...grow up la...spoilt and immature brat"...then he tell me to shutup then he fuck her fuck there then i say "shut the fuck up and go fuck ur mother not me la"...then he scold me chee bye...then i said "ka ni na kao pei..." then i haven't say finish then he scold me for saying kao pei...he shouted so loud teacher heard then HE got scolded....huo gai...lol...I FAILED MY HISTORY...:(:(:(...6/25...wei feng got 7/25...muz beat him next time...lol...then e maths...teacher extended another one hour after sch...but guess wad! i dunnit stay back coz i passed with flying colours n i was the top...the other two who passed onli passed wif passing marks so they have to stay back...so everybody look at me leave with jealous eyes...haha...everywhere flooded...the temp is like...25/24-29 degrees celcius...brrrrrrrrrrrrrr......

Wednesday 10 March 2004

......whaha...today i damn notti man...i from b4 sch, flag raising, lesson time and all the way to after sch, kept smsing in class...infront of cher somemore...cher really cock cock eye...lol...was smsing tom...whaha...he damn farnie...a very nice fwen indeed ;)...then had this lib meeting at marine parade lib...i got phobia of lib alrd ar....eeeeeeeeeeeeee...then now at home...bo dai ji zho...yawnz...i finally made things clear with kevin from mavis bout myren...but whether or not myren wants to believe me is up to him lo...fucking bustard...i go change skin le! buaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......

Tuesday 9 March 2004

......today for the first time i understood wad was going on in physics lesson...i see tt bustard...n tt bitch wif him...i saw wad she did to him n i puked...bleh POOOOOI...reach home...now...listening to do the song i listened to when i broke up wif albert...it's like...a real big tear in my heart...a big tear...sigh...i dun thk anyone would understand......
......i've never felt so heartbroken before...never...maybe becoz i didn't love my ex as much...maybe coz of some other reason...but this is the first time i really felt the pain in there...it's not just one knife...but a million, a zillion or even infinity knives cutting through my heart...it hurts...it truely hurts...u broke my heart not once...not twice...but i dunno how many times...but i knew i didn't mind coz i truely loved you...but now...i dunno...i dun even know if i still love you...maybe yes maybe no...other problems are added to the misery...you said i've changed...have i? if you're in my shoes you'll know y...but no one is able to stand in my shoe...needless to say you...this hurt and injury is emotional not physical...and i'm sure emotional hurt hurts more than physical hurt...physical hurt can be cured...the most left with a small scar to regret...but emotional hurt follows you throughout your whole life...do you actually know how it feels...when i read your blog...you said you are together with her again...do you actually know how it feels to have infinity knives cutting through your heart and being heartbroken? no you dun...not when you are not heartbroken more than twice...you may not understand how it feels...so i've chosen...to leave...for good...i'm gonna leave you and not care bout you anymore...your problems are your problems...my problems are my problems...i've got nothing to do with you anymore and u've got nothing to do with me anymore...i bid my last farewell...farewell......
......wad the fuck...i actually fail eng by one mark...tomorrow must get one mark...sigh...nothing much happen in sch la...after sch went to katong shopping centre wif daddy...whaha...love daddy lotx man...so fun wif him...unlike some bitch teaching a maths and e maths in mavis tutorial centre...ka ni na...after mi n daddy finish our lunch we went to my auntie's shop...or my daddy's sis's shop...or wadeva...didn't manage to find anything clothes there tt i like...all my moma's generation lol...but quite fanciful la i have to admit lol...then come home le...sigh...later have to go for physics...it's not bout the tution...but a fucking bustard i have to see...ccb...adeline you're on my side rites? guai mei...hehx...alot of ppl say i very vulgar nowadays...u come and be in my shoes u tell me how not to be vulgar la...knn......

Monday 8 March 2004

......fucking bustard...whether or not my blog was saying bout u also not ur fucking problem right? so wad if i dun want to tell u wad happened to me today?! ur problem ar?! juz coz i dun want to tell u then u block me on msn and dao me...u good...n i thought u were my fwen...i was WRONG...ccb...dao then dao la...thk i cannot dao mehx...got gang so wad...kill me then kill me lo...i'm more than willing man...wad kind of fucking fwen are you? fucking bustard u better not let me see ur fucking face dao-ing me tomorrow at tution or u better watch it......
......tt bloody bitch...dunno wad the fuck she teaching...then after a maths had alot of fun toking to daphne, cheryl and timothy (cheryl stead)...then adeline like jealous...lan jiao...k lo...jealous then jealous lo...look at wad she did to me...wa lao...then i didn't go in for e maths tution...then when miss ng come out and photostat her notes and worksheet then she gave me one never give adeline...chee bye la...dun like adeline then say ma...do this to her...then i told miss ng i got highest in class for my e maths common test she say she know i dun like her...KA NI NA...know so wad?! like BIG DEAL...everyone knows it lo...you SLOW...S.L.O.W...SLOW...fucking bitch...chee bai...think u big mehx?! u chio?! VOMIT BLOOD!!!!! if you chio then there will not be any ugly ppl in this whole world xia...BIG HEAD SMALL BODY NO BREAST...chao chee bai...fuck your mother la! you better watch wad u say before i tell everything to mr ng, my parents and BIG mr ng...want to compare who big?! come la! who learn ballet who dun?! you got top in ur class b4 not?! how many supporters you have?! then the commotion...try act big protect my sch gers then suan the guys like siao...i tell u, u better watch it or i'll blow ur top...the fault lies neither in my sch gers nor in the guys...IT LIES IN YOU!!!!! so FUCK OFF and PISS OFF and STOP BUGGING ME...chao chee bai kanina kao bei fucking bitch......
......you...yes you...i hate you for making me fall in love with you but in the end make me heartbroken...when you broke up with ur girlfriend i was sad for you but i was also happy coz i knew i will have a chance if i worked hard...but times after times i dun thk u got the hint...we went out together on specific days and had fun...you gave me happiness and laughter...you made me see the other side of life...but now...you've gona back to your girlfriend...you made me heartbroken...i dun wunna see you ever again...i just wunna wish you good luck in your love life...farewell......
......GUESS WAD?!?!?! I GOT HIGHEST IN CLASS FOR MY E MATHS COMMON TEST!!!!! 35/50...it wasn't very good but at least i'm the highest in class lol...then a maths....no faith la...dun thk can pass...suck lo a maths...really feel like dropping a maths...today supposed to celebrate zhen lao shi's b'dae but no cake no nothing so we onli said happy b'dae to her...:(...sian...later have to go for e and a maths tution...see tt bitch...miss valerie ng...kao pei her la chee bye...then also must see adeline...another bitch...fucking chee bai...i dun want go tution alrd la wa lao...tomorrow still have to go physics....i dun mind going for physics but i mind seeing MYREN and ADELINE...lan jiao......

Sunday 7 March 2004

......this morning i bought coffee for daiyu...AGAIN...ok la it's like...WAD'S THE BIG DEAL?!?!?! whaha then tap dance...miss wee ar, if you DUN LIKE ME, SAY IT OUT...stop PICKING ON ME!!!!! think u so sexy izzit?!?!?! sexy so wad?!?!?! ur attitude SUX RIGHT DOWN TO THE CORE!!!!! so FUCK OFF!!!!! then ballet...miss chew ar, no space mean NO SPACE!!!!! stop saying is i dance wrong...chao chee bai...then say wad me and amanda partner until very good...can communicate through our eyes and dancing...so amanda, we shall WORK HARD on the day of our exam and communicate like SIAO through our eyes and dancing! exam...ELEVEN MORE DAYS ONLI!!!!! wunna faint liao ar...then say wad our reveronce (ending small dance) we always do wong then she won't tell us wad we do wrong juz coz she angry wif us...like PLEASE!!!!! if you dun tell us wad we did wrong, how are we gonna do it RIGHT?!?!?! use your BRAINS la...kk...then moma told me not to wear the cross necklace again juz coz she THINKS i offended the buddha god by doing tt...like WAD THE FUCK?!?! do i look like i CARE?! offend then offend la...the most is say SORRY and just continue living life like NORMAL...i'll NEVER be so superstitious man...i PROMISE......

Saturday 6 March 2004

......ballet was kinda...ok la...onli the allegro part...the "allegro" exercise...i did THREE times ok...jump like xiao...miss chew, how you expect me to jump as high as ever?!?!?! so tiring lo...today i wore tt jacket...inside got leotard mahx...so i didn't zip my jacket up very high...whaha...i like my attire...then after ballet i saw a BIG BLIND FUCKING LOSER...he blind xia...didn't see his sis deborah sitting at the piano playing the piano somemore go ALL THE WAY up to the THIRD floor thinking she would be there...i help him by smsing him telling him deborah at first floor he still scold me loser and all tt...look who's talking big man...like OH I'M SO SCARED!!!!! watch it BOY...immature freak? a threat? think wadeva u want...wad immature thoughts you have...nobody's asking you to waste your sms on me...you could have NOT reply...use ur brains man...no wonder you're in tt lousy school...LAUGH MY ASS OUT MAN!!!!!
......*BURP*...oops...fucked up la today...i was sleeping so damn sweetly then my popa come in n wake me up at 11am tell me to bathe then we have to go temple...i was like...WAD THE FUCK?!?!?! AGAIN?!?!?!...then i slack all the way until noon then wake up and bathe and bathe all tt...then go temple...kena burnt by the bloody joss stick like a million times...suck it...then they say wad fucking fan tai sui...cb la...fan ur ass la...u think bringing me to temple is fun izzit? i''m gonna flood the whole house with perfume n make u suffer like hell...then say wad must do this must do tt cannot do this cannot do that must go here must go there cannot go here cannot go there...suck it la...like i'm gonna care...anything happen to me also none of ur business right?!?! fuck off la...buddhism sux...suck it n fuck off......

Friday 5 March 2004

......whaha...today ar...i bully glenn until like siao...keep hitting his hat...haha...sori ar...BOY...lol...kk...then i saw myren and sarah like ok le...gd luck xia...;)...then tution...lol...equation...YAWNZ...it's lik i've learnt it in sch lo...thx mrs leong...love you lotx...miss u too ;)...then i finished the whole notes and worksheet on my own lo...myren if u want to copy ask me ar...lol...dun give jun han tt fat ass...suck it......
......geog test...lol...mdm rose changed the droughts question to relief rain and sea breeze just for me lehx...hehx...others had to do droughts...i hope i will score well coz i know i wrote alot of "useful" crap...lol...I PASS MY SOCIAL STUDIES COMMON TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my GAWD!!!!! although just pass but i very happy le...coz never passed any humanities subject in my whole life b4...except for geog last year...hehx...then today "A"s results come out...wish mr chung and miss lim did well...;)...whaha...tt excursion thingy is to go to suntec exhibition hall 602 and see all the future career and the future educations for us...we went for half an hour onli then we zhao...coz dunno where the hell teacher is...lol...then we went shopping...i bought a cross necklace for 12.90...chio xia...black necklace and white cross...!!!CHIO!!!...then after we zhao HY went Macs wif her sec 4 fwenz, pearl go home by bus and i go home by MRT...mummy fetch me from Kembangan MRT go eat but when my moma park her car alrd she then realise she have no more money left with her must go ATM but no ATM around...so we went home and eat...woah seh...still can't believe i pass my social studies...chinese got 66.5/100...daddy...whaha...haha...gtg tution leh! buai......

Thursday 4 March 2004

this morning i was telling huan yuet, wei feng and rit tt i might be doing...TT THING and getting a tattoo...then they were abit shock...lol...ofcoz mahx...haha...then whole day sit with huan yuet coz samantha never come...it was damn fun sitting with HY but very like....very hard to concentrate in class la...so...whaha...prefer sitting with tina...lol...then after sch my popa come pick me up...we went to pizza hut to eat...woah...over there lotx of guys xia...but only got one shuai...kk got two tables occupied by guys...one oppisite is totally FULL house...then the one beside was only two...onli the two guys one got one shuai one...then after the whole thing...me and popa didn't manage to finish ofcoz so we took away...then at the counter i realised tt one guy from the two guys table beside my table was taking a pic of me using his camera phone...i saw and then i stared at them in shock...then they smiled at me...then i was like...um...k...then i smiled back...lol...i'm still shocked tt my parents are neutral bout me getting a tattoo...fake or real they also neutral...i kena shocked until heart attack lol...:P:X

Wednesday 3 March 2004

suddenly my parents treat me like princess...i wanted to eat at Hans they bring me there...i want magazine my dad bought it for me...i want to use comp they didn't say anything...i want to sleep they never complain...i want to eat at parkway hawker centre they bring me there...i want to watch ballet performance they bought me the ticket...i told them i want to get a fake tattoo above me butt they were neutral bout it...ofcoz...i dun thk this will last so i shall...take advantage??? haha...dun thk so...
...some fucking idiot went to pao to me...AGAIN...chee bye...ka ni na...then chemistry half way got called out by mdm rose...then i kena counselling...fuck la...kao...u thk pao to me very shuang izzit...when i find out who u are...you're gonna get hell from me...i'm gonna screw u up badly...REALLY badly...tt includes u...yes u...chee bye...then counsel counsel counsel...then tt fucking counsellor say want to meet my parents and talk to them..chao chee bye...at least when they were talking to my parents i got to use the comp in the pastoral care room...but that fucking comp no internet...i over there play minesweeper break the score dunno how many million times...then after the whole thing me and my parents hug la...woah kao...my moma was twice the size of papa...then we went for lunch la...i had early release...early for bout...2 hours 10 minutes...no test...geog test prospone to friday...shuang...but i didn't have any lessons today lo...i missed practically ALL lesson...chao chee bye...i'm really gonna screw tt person who pao to me...i'm gonna make u tell me the defination of Hell and Death...see if u dare pao to me again...now sian ji pua lo...nothing to do at home...everyone in sch taking geog test...nono...they still preparing...gd luck peeps...

Tuesday 2 March 2004

I know this is stupid but i have to do it...incase when i'm gone i won't be able to say my last words...

zhiyin, u're my best friend...u've been there for me since sec 1...you know me the best...do not care bout what other ppl think about u...it's not important...what's important is you live life to the fullest with no regrets and don't live life like me...God bless you...

timothy, u rawked my world...u're my best primary school friend...although we did not have much fun when we were together in the same sch tao nan...but i appreciated the times u spent with me when u came back to singapore last december...thanks for celebrating my birthday for me with leon...u'll be the cutest and funniest guy i've ever met =)...God bless you...

myren, u're a really good friend...u knew how to comfort me when i needed it...u're a nice person when u want to be one...stop doing wad u're doing now...don't harm urself and ur body...coz i care...good luck in wadeva you do and good luck in your love life too...

mrs skipp and miss chew, both of you have brought surprises to my life...you two teach very well...you two made me change my point of view on ballet, made me love ballet...i may have disappointed u two for not being able to continue learning or whatsoever but i want you two to know u two have been nice teachers to me...

mdm rose, you're my guardian angel...i love you...you comforted me right when i really needed it...ur hugs were nice and warm and i know u care...u're teaching good too...i love you lotx and will love you till the end of the world...God bless you...

and now to all and the rest of those i did not mention who cared for me...i know i have let you all down and have disappointed you guys...i know you care...but i can't see it...you guys out there stay happy and live life to the fullest...do not live life like me...treasure ur life...God bless all of you...

on the day of my funeral, i want either Zhiyin or Myren to read this out...i really hope they can...God bless...
whaha today a maths...the last question i saw was two marks...then i read the question...i saw "sketch the..." then i said, " wa lao graph again..." then left 2 minutes only...could have done it but i slack...i pushed it aside and slept for 2 minutes...then history...whaha...got confidence...at least i hop i can pass...then after recess we had normal lessons la...nothing much happened...OH YAH!!! i got highest in class for my e maths CLASS test...if i got highest for e maths for CA i can go celebrate alrd...i'll invite everyone along xia...then after tt we whole class bluff Miss Chan Choo tt we going to support our bball sch team player...then only nicola and timothy and dunno who got concent form...huan yuet and samantha bluff cher they also take concent form but i thk they never and then just zhao...pearl i thk she also bluff her tchr...ah haha...i guai one...will never do tt kind of stuffs...YET...lol...then at tution...i studied geog...forgot wad exactly happened...oh! got one guy at istavin tutorial damn shuai....look like Vinesh...then just nice Vinesh come in...woah...nearly fainted...he sho shuai...his mother damn chio...dun dare see his dad alrd...then got another guy...VS one i thk...sec 2 ba...he waiting for another VS guy from istavin...woah...both very shuai...hai...but i nowadays no feelings to shuai guys alrd...onli keep saying he shuai...but never jio...sigh...then...myren...HAI...he do tt thing until he giddy...HUO GAI...then class start...he stinks man...k la...okok...then he took 5...FIVE...F.I.V.E...tic tac...bet his mouth was burning...n tt was just to cover tt smell...lol...kevin was damn worked up with dorcia...and it was coz dorcia went to influence sarah-ann then i thk sarah-ann dun like kevin alrd...THINK ONLY...no offence...then after tution myren call me notti ger...sigh...no...is backstabber not notti girl...update urself, dude...lol...mdm rose, i love you =)

Monday 1 March 2004

e maths sure lose 3 marks immediately lorhx...i dunno how to do one question...sigh...then social studies...dun thk will get gd marks either...but hope at least can pass...i promise not to fail any CA or SA this year...hope my promise will not be broken...sigh...so many ppl dao my sms today...sigh...went melinda house, wore her clothes then went marine parade lib study history...suddenly so nerdy...i also dunno why...saw jess, su tzu, yi hui, michelle, michelle ex-stead...then chiaw sang and javin came...and kenneth of 2ep '03 and jun qing and chun chen...then we all study together...united xia haha...sigh...went to tution but didn't go in...studied outside at the counter...then daddy send me home...now...sigh...myren, thx for wad u said...=)...eden, u suck...thk u so shuai...dao me...thk i cannot dao u mehx...bleh POOOOI!!!!! mdm rose, my guardian angel, like i said, i will love you forever =)...I STUDY HISTORY LIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!