Monday 26 June 2006

another weekend gone

I've been really really tired for the past week man. I don't mean to blog only once a week. My internet connection at home isn't very good. So I've got no chance but to blog in school. Man I haven't been having any mood to go online. Mummy wasn't online last night either. I think she wants me to study so she's not talking to me online. Shall call her tonight.



Nothing much happened last Monday to Wednesday. Thursday was special. During applic maths, Shu Ling and I were nagging at Ma Ning, asking him to study. And since I was preparing to skip my last class, ELACS, I thought maybe I could go to his house and help him study. At first Ma Ning and I went to search for his english novel in the bookshop and library because he had a test on it. We couldn't find any and ended up borrowing it from his friend. We then went to his house afterwards.



At his house, I started reading his novel, he studied for his maths. I only managed to finish reading 3 chapters when he came in to check the bus time table and realise that I have to catch the 7.32 bus. In other words, I only had about 2 hours left to read the book. Mind you, I'm not a terribly fast reader and I needed to make sure I can translate to him the whole novel. So he told me to give up and teach him maths. He actually finished his 2005 paper. Up till now I haven't even touched mine. Wait should be got touch already la since I had to read through the questions to teach him. Ha!



He cooked dinner. There weren't any meat. He cooked lettuce, pak choy and potato with tomato. The potato dish was the best. But I ate lettuce the most. He gave me a lot of rice can!!! The way he cooked was like daddy haha but just that...his food is better than daddy's. =P Sorry daddy!



He didn't have the time to wash the dishes so he sent me off first. He and his friend took but 72 with me to Curtin and saw me take 34 and left. They couldn't take 34 with me because they'd miss their bus back. So I had to go home alone. It wasn't so bad, though, because on the way back there was this another asian guy walking home also. Luckily my house wasn't further than his. Phew.







Friday, after school, Nic, Ryan, Dominic and I took bus and train down to city. Nic and Dominic played Maximum Tune at Time Zone first. Then Nic and Ryan played dota in Tea Fusion. Then Dominic played CS with them. Then Derek came. Then Da Yong, Shelina and Jay came. Oh and Shelina's friend too. After Shelina and Da Yong got their drinks, Da Yong, Jay, Shelina and I walked Shelina's friend to city centre because she wanted to meet her friend. She smart lo! Made sure we won't be able to meet her friend. But Shelina found out who the guy was and told me haha. Then we went back Northbridge.



When we went back, the whole gang had already went to Pot Black because Nic had to sell some things. Then we went City Garden for dinner. After ordering, Nic asked me to call Edwin and ask if he's going to timezone. That Nic ar...made sure Edwin wouldn't join us for dinner. So mean can? I told Edwin that Nic and I will meet him at timezone after dinner. Dinner was nice, though. Sambal kang kong was spicy enough, beef was nice, squid was nice and so was everything. After dinner? Go timezone meet Edwin!



On the way to timezone, I bumped into Ma Ning. He was waiting for his friend. Then in timezone the guys played. I stoned out. I was so worned out I could just sleep standing up. Edwin caught one small winnie the pooh for me. Then Ma Ning and his friend came into timezone to play. When we left, Ma Ning and his friend hadn't leave. Lol. Where next? Oriel!



Oriel's in Subiaco. Service was terrible. We still got our food and drinks. Thankfully. At the end of it, Edwin sent Nic, May and I home. Wasn't that bad a day after all. Just...tired.







Saturday, service, usher. Yes, I ushered again. Felt happy ushering again actually. We had Holy Communion. Learnt new things! Service didn't have sermon. It was thanks giving. It made me think of lots and lots of things. After service, my cell went to city for dinner than movies. We watched "Click". Go watch it. It's super intellectual and nice. Worth A$11.50. Saturday was really like a turning point to me. Made me realise lotsa things. Also, made me realise the power and grace of God.







Sunday, study whole day at home. Bor-ring.



signing off~RYNETTA

Monday 19 June 2006

weeeee-kend!

Right I just discovered today that I haven't been blogging for a very very long time. It's not my fault hey! I've been really really busy. REALLY.



Friday after school Junie and Peggy came to my house to help pack my bag. Within about 2 hours EVERYTHING is packed. I'm really amazed. 3 pairs of hands with 3 brains are better than one pathetic pair of hands with one pathetic brain. After packing, we took the 5.34 bus to the city. Bumped into Ma Ning and his friend whom he calls Fei Zai. So mean can? Lol



In the bus, Junie and Peggy asked Ma Ning if he could go home with me at night because it'd be so dark and unsafe. He agreed without much hesitation. Peggy was also trying to talk to this girl about maths and its applications. I seriously seriously think she scared that poor little 12 year old girl. To think of it, I was also once a 12 year old girl having difficulties deciding on which secondary school to go.



The bus was caught in a traffic jam in the city so Peggy, Junie and I ended up alighting at St. George's Terrace. We went to Taka to eat. Of course, we popped by a few shops that were on sale. In fact, MOST of the shops were on sale. Accounting comes in handy now! Australia's financial year ends on the 30th June hence the sales! Woohoo I haven't learnt nothing for the past 5 months or so. Oh ya I went to draw money at a BankWest atm too. It was kinda cool using my bank card to open the sliding glass door. Security ma.



There were LOTS of people at Taka. Our food took AGES to be ready. Our food were still good, though. We shared our meat. I couldn't finish my rice. Ha! When we were done, we planned to walk back to the city centre to do more shopping. The Gucci shop Peggy wanted to go to was closed. Too bad, Peggy! =D Our plan was destroyed when Ma Ning called me to ask if I want to go home yet. I had no choice but to say "anything". Met him outside Myers with his friend and his plastic bag containing 6 bottles of beers.



At the bus stop, Shu Ling replied Ma Ning's call (Ma Ning couldn't reach me because I didn't answer my phone a few times hehe) and Ma Ning was bluffing Shu Ling by saying he and I went on a date at Taka and he packed some food for her. That idiot! Lol. We took bus 72 back. It terminates at Curtin bus stop. Ma Ning, his friend and I ended up walking all the way back to Wilson area. In the bus, I teased him a lot. It was really really fun teasing him. He asked if I wanted to watch soccer with him in his house. I'd be more than happy to do so!!! And so, we walked to his house. His friend stays with him now, by the way.



MA NING'S ROOM IS BLOODY NEAT. Bed, table with only his text book, computer and some stationeries, his two bags and basketball on the floor and his cabinet. I've NEVER seen a guy's room so neat before, I tell you, I'm serious! The match was interesting as a whole. 6-0. WOOHOO. Ma Ning was damn happy. He drank 4 bottles of beer, I drank 2. To me...it's not enough. Bleh. He had another friend, from college, over. DAMN tall guy. Each time he walks pass the living room, there's WIND. Goodness.



Ma Ning walked me home at 11. He lent me his jacket because it was really really cold outside. The record was -0.7 degrees. Weeeee. Ma Ning told me to keep his jacket first and return him another time. Hehehehehe. I had a really really great Friday.







Saturday morning was the move house day. It took TWO cars to move all of my things over. All thanks to my toys. One side of me is telling me to give some toys away but another side of me is telling me to keep them due to the hard work and money I've spent. Oh wells, we'll see. It took me about 3 hours to unpack everything. Not bad la huh. If you did your maths, by right I should take about 3 times the amount of time taken to pack the stuff but I only took one hour extra.



I also had ushering in the afternoon. I was really really really tired that day. After all the assignments and packing up and moving and unpacking and stressing out, it really wasn't easy. I was really tired when I was serving but the tiredness only came down on me when I was listening to the sermon. Luckily I had to leave halfway to do refreshments. Eunice helped me fill up my bulletin because my pen had no ink. Thanks, Eunice. =)



Dinner was at this pizza place near Nedlands' Nando's. Joshua and I just didn't have enough of teasing each other. Edwin treated us to dinner again. =_= Edwin ar we know you're already working but you can't treat us till THAT extent! But thanks anyways haha. After dinner, some of the boys went off to play soccer at freezing temperatures. Weird people. Edwin sent me home. To my new home!







Sunday, Edwin picked me up at my house at around 11 to send me to the city to meet my aunt and uncle. When I saw my aunt and uncle at the lobby, history flooded my mind. How we used to meet up on Sundays at my grandma's house, how my aunt used to tution me for my PSLE english, how my parents...blahblahblah. I don't know if it was just me or what but...they looked older too. Just within 5 months plus. Wow. Isn't it amazing how gravity can deform us? Alright no more physics. Haven't touched it since O's!



When I saw the bag of things that my aunt brought for me, I was in S-H-O-C-K. It was a big plastic bag and it was HEAVY. There were three bottles of shuttlecocks, as promised, facial products, stationeries, a recipe book, and a lot a lot of other stuffs! We walked down to Northbridge because I wanted to bring them to Singapore Chinatown Restaurant for lunch. My CLEVER brain forgot Singapore Chinatown Restaurant is a DINNER restauarant. We ended up eating at Saigon. They enjoyed it. Thankfully.



We walked back to the city to do SHOPPING. We went Woolworths. Bought lotsa food stuff like biscuits, snacks, and a bottle of jam for Daddy. Then we went David Jones. Bought coffee powders and tea and cookies and chocolate. I got coffee powder and tea leaves for Mummy. We spent the whole afternoon in those two places. Easily about 2-3 hours. It's been so long since I did such thorough shopping.



The things were really heavy so we ended up putting the things down in the hotel first and then come out for coffee. We had coffee at JavaJoe. I had some hazelnut thingy. Not too bad although it felt kinda strong. We sat at JavaJoe for close to an hour plus then headed down to Singapore Chinatown Restaurant for dinner. My-phone-had-no-network! ARGH!



Dinner was salted egg squid, sizzling beef and pak choy with oyster sauce. Aunt Siew Khim and Uncle Allan really enjoyed it. Seeing them so satisfied made my heart feel at ease. I was really stressing out on how to entertain them. I'm glad they think I'm a good host. We couldn't finish dinner, though. We were really struggling. Ended up da-bao-ing the salted egg squid. I treat them for dinner again (yes, I treated them to lunch too). As long as it keeps them happy. =)



Edwin sent me home. I still managed to sleep after that cup of coffee. Thank goodness I don't get affected my coffee. Hallelujah.







School was fine today. Took bus with Yuki, Vikki, Lin Rong and Nic. I'm also glad Shelina and I are ok now. Came home with the girls. Dinner was superb. Alrighty I'm off to study! Buhbye!



signing off~RYNETTA

Friday 16 June 2006

I was reading Wei Xian's blog and I happened to chance upon this quiz and I realised how much I missed quizilla.



Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.


You are the drawing.
Take this http://www.blogger.com/ More Quizzes Grab Code



signing off~RYNETTA

latitoo~

Alright I've got lots to blog about.











Ok I lied. Nothing much happened. But I'm pretty upset over something. MY FINGERS ARE BLOODY FROZEN BY THE WAY I CAN'T TYPE FAST. Ok back to the topic, I'm pretty upset over something. I just realised last night that the place Myren's going to stay in, Mandurah, is dooooown sooooouth of Perth. It's about one and a half hour CAR ride from my place! I thought I could meet him like Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday! Oh crap. When I told Myren about that he seemed pretty upset about it too. Oh crap. Now all that I only ask for is to meet him at least ONCE before he goes back next Saturday. And I made a mistake. Myren's arriving tomorrow morning, not today. Heee.



English essay yesterday was...ok I guess. Kua wrote FOUR BLOODY PAGES. I don't know how the hell he managed to do that man, seriously. I wrote about 1 and a half pages. I wasn't struggling with my contents but more of how to connect from one point to another. I still pulled through. But when I saw other people's papers, I realised that my paragraphs were reeeeeally short. But I had lotsa paragraphs lol. All I ask for is a PASS please. I just failed my last english test; comprehension. Like what I said to Wei Xian, I ALWAYS FAIL COMPREHENSION. Argh. Pisses me off big time.



My aunt arrived yesterday and called me at the wrong time; dinner time. I had to call her back after dinner. The plan goes as such: I arrive at my aunty's hotel at around 11 plus, we walk around the city, I treat them to lunch, and they'll treat me to coffee. The big problem is...I'm not sure if the shops are really open on Sundays although they assured me the shops are open. We'll see, I guess, I've got back up plans anyways.



I was on a video call with my mum on msn again last night. My dad this something stupid again. He ate his bread in front of the webcam. Really reminds me of the days where I'd snatch his bread. I'd either chase him around the house for it or snatch it when he's not aware. We were like two puppies yet to grow up. Daddy was also watching world cup. He insisted that he's a lot slimmer and his butt is gone. Ha! Sorry, Dad, I'm slimmer than you are! And less saggy =P. Ok, no, I don't mean I'm slim and sexy. I'm just...not fat. Let's leave it to that.



I can feel my phone calling out to me in agony. Yesterday, Hafiz I think, turned off the vibration for my phone. When I turned it back on this morning, the vibration wasn't as strong. Oh no. I've got to really do a thorough check up on my phone.



OH YA. PEGGY'S COMING TO MY HOUSE TODAY. WOOHOO!!!!! Meeting her at Curtin bus stop at around 3.15pm! Can't wait!



signing off~RYNETTA

Thursday 15 June 2006

bu-sy

Had a little chat with Myren last night and I realised that his flight is TONIGHT 12am. Goodness. Time flies. We also had a little confession time. As much as I hate confessions, I quite like it when it's two sided. It's sooo gonna be a busy week for me!



Today - Aunt and uncle arriving at 2.40pm, English essay at 3.15
Tomorrow - Myren arriving at 5++am, Accounting assignment at 1.15
Saturday - Moving house in the morning, ushering in church in the afternoon
Sunday - Meeting my aunt and uncle for the whole day
Monday to Friday - Meet Myren as often as possible!!!!!



Oh man. Busy busy busy!



signing off~RYNETTA

Wednesday 14 June 2006

Daddy...Mummy...

By right I shouldn't be blogging now. I should be doing my research with all my heart. But heck I still want to blog.



I was talking to Peggy last night. It made me realise we have a lot in common. And she assured me about something. "Without your permission, it wouldn't have been right." We were talking about Shelina telling Jay my problems. You see, it's not about how I confided in Jay last time. It's about the magnitude of my problems. This problem is a lot bigger which was why I only chose to confide in a few. OH WELLS it just proves how some people cannot be trusted.



The people who really really lifted my spirits last night was Daddy and Mummy. Mummy came online last night and all of a sudden invited me to view her webcam. However, the person infront of the computer was Uncle James =_=. He was there to fix up the webcam and microphone for Mummy. When Uncle James went off, Mummy gave my webcam to my aunt so that when she comes over (TOMORROW!) I can have it.



Mummy came online again when she got back. Daddy was watching world cup. Same old Daddy, with his belly and cup of milo at 10pm. Same old Mummy desperate to talk to me. Listening to my parents' voices just made my heart melt instantly. It made me want to just dash to the airport and board the next flight back to Singapore. I miss my parents the most. The people who could really really cheer me up whether or not I'm down. The people whom I trust the most, after God.



MUMMY! WAIT FOR ME! I'M GONNA TALK TO YOU ON WEBCAM SOON! Not fair...now you're more advanced than I am...



signing off~RYNETTA

Tuesday 13 June 2006

This is it. It's final. From now on I'm not going to tell my problems to ANYONE. I'm most probably going to only confide to my friends in Singapore. Even if it means to develope depression.



This has gone too far. Even people who were supposed to help me betrayed me. Nobody's going to blame me ever again for crying or not telling them my problems. Nobody deserves to be told my problems anymore.



signing off~RYNETTA

assignments

I don't know what I' m doing so early in school. I should be studying but I still haven't gathered the mood to do so. I've got two assignments this week. One english one accountings. BOTH essay. Just my luck.



I'm gonna message someone soon and ask him/her about his/her conscience.



signing off~RYNETTA

Monday 12 June 2006

quiz...bullcrap

I just did a quiz in ELACS class. It was kinda fun. But that doesn't totally mean my mood has been lifted. It's the final round now. Min and Helena in the Kangaroos team while Khoa and Daisy in the Wombat team. I was in the same team as Kenta just now. The only times we answered correctly were when there were spelling questions or when Kenta or I heard the answer from someone. It wasn't say very stressful. In fact, not at all. Just something that kept my mind of certain things for only a small while.



I visited Nic's homestay last thursday. Met up with Mr and Mrs Lee. Jean drove Nic and I there. Nic's room's definitely more messy than mine. But...in a different sense I guess. Mr Lee kinda lectured me. No, not in an angry way. More of like an intellectual one. What he said made a lot of sense. And he sounded more like Daddy, as compared to Uncle Sen. I'm not being biased here, not at all, but he really sounded a lot like Daddy. Then something happened to Jean. One of the girls she took care of had problems with her school fees and had to be sent back home. After the whole meeting, Jean sent me home. Thanks, Jean. =)



Friday after school I went to the city with May, Petrus, Dominic and Nic. At first we went Myers. I got my facial products, looked around at some clothes and shoes with May, while the boys went up to the last level to check out iPod prices. Then we went to Tea Fusion. I played Dota with the boys while May went grocery shopping. Then Edwin, Nic, May and I went to Utopia for dinner. Nic and I drank too much water and the tom yam soup was too spicy lol. Nic wasted some tom yam soup also. But over all was good.

We then went to time zone THEN Inaloo's time zone. Edwin kept playing the powerticket game while Nic played Maximum Tune while I tried getting the soft toy key chain. I got the whole series (five of 'em) while May got one, Nic got three I think and Edwin got one which he later on gave away. Nic used his powertickets (won by jackpot with credits to Edwin) to exchange for two ice age box (with jelly beans in them), one pencil for may, one fart balloon and one waterbottle. I took one ice age box. We only left the place at around 11 plus.



Saturday was service. Not very good. I mean the service was good but I wasn't very good after the service. That stupid Kevin passed sarcastic remarks just to make me laugh lol. Max was funny too. So was Bi Jia. Lol she so poor thing la kena bullied by Nic and Max. Then Nic bullied me. I tried catching him but obviously failed. Stanley was laughing at me for chasing a marathon runner. THANKS AR STANLEY. Lol.

Then Edwin sent Nic and I to Stanley's place for world cup. We bought alcohol. I had one heineken, Nic had Vodka cruiser...and I forgot what Edwin got. In the end we went to Johnny's house to watch because nobody was watching at Stanley's place except for Edwin, Nic and I. Oh oh oh! When we went back to Stanley's house from the alcohol shop, Nic drove. When he drove, Edwin's car stalled FOUR times including the last one when he finished parking the car. DAMN funny I tell you I think I laughed my dinner away.

At Johnny's house, it was all boys. Johhny, Tim, Jack, Boon Wai, Ray and a few others I don't know. When Jack asked for my name, I said Rynetta (duh) and he thought I'm from Indonesia. Same reaction as Johnny. I wanted to scream at him "I GOT THE SAME SURNAME AS YOU LEH" but instead I went "no la! Singapore!" That night was a good one anyways. Drank one heineken, one of Stanley's beer and one of Nic's Vodka Cruiser. Sweet!



Sunday, Nic and I had nothing to do at our own homes. He called me just to ask me if I'm going to do anything that day. I said no and he asked me to ask around. I messaged Da Yong and he was studying. Dominic just finished service and was going down city. So what do we do? GO DOWN CITY! Nic and I both took the same bus 34 down. Nic got shot by ang mohs when he was waiting for my bus. Paintball, apparently. He's got an open wound at his left elbow and a bruise at his left...er waist? Ya somewhere there.

Nic had motion sickness at the end of the trip but that idiot chose not to vomit. Act cool only. Haha. We met Dominic and Angela at Tea Cafe. Then I bought watermelon smoothie with oreo and rainbow jelly at Tea Fusion. The guy working there was seriously in need of help. He had to call his friend to help him althought she wasn't on working hours. Poor things. Lol. Then Angela bought her eggs at an oriental supermarket then we walked her to Wellington bus station.

Nic and Dominic then went to pot black. No, not to play pool. Play maximum tune. =_= They play that EVERYWHERE. Then they went to time zoen to play the same thing. I topped up $70 in my card just to get a mickey mouse. Of course, there're still credits left. Then Dominic left. Nic and I were debating whether or not to eat out. We went to the city in search for money changer because Nic had no money left, only Singapore notes. Smart la can. In the end we went back to northbridge to eat. I lend him money. As usual.

We ate at Singapore Chinatown because Dragon China wasn't open. Salted egg squid and beef with spring onion. The squids were as usual; perfect. The beef were...not really nice. Just passable. At the end of it, Nic took 33 at St. George's Terrace while I walked to Esplanade bus port to take 176 which only came at 7.20 when it was only 6.30 when I reached there. One thing I hate about transperth buses. The bus doesnt come after every 5 minutes like in Singapore. Haha but what can I do? Perth ain't as small as Singapore.



Today wasn't a bad day after all. Credits to Myren and Albert. I wanna thank Junie, Faith, Peggy, Bi Jia, Ru Wei, Kevin and Max for what they did on saturday too haha. Oh ya, JAZPER. I'll NEVER shower in cold water. Lol.



signing off~RYNETTA

Sunday 11 June 2006

TrusT

I know it's pretty late now (or pretty early in actual fact for today) but I still find a need to blog NOW.



What happened for the past week hadn't been very good. I may have said there's a conclusion to it but really there isn't. Not even till now. The problem may have been caused by anyone. Me or her. But the expansion of the problem is definitely caused by the abusing of trust among friends.



While I thought I had some really close and trustful friends, I was proven wrong, the hard way. The only reason why I only told some of my close friends my problems was because I trusted them and I only planned to confront Annsley when THE TIME IS RIGHT. The biggest problem was, ONE friend leaked my problem.



Can you just imagine? Put yourself in a scenerio where you're really really crying till your lungs were gonna burst (if you find no link, just try to imagine). You're surrounded by your friends and you only chose some to talk to. And one of the "some" failed you.



Whatever it is, I've got something for YOU to do. If you happen to be the one who leaked my problems, or the one who added more juice and spice to it and passed it on, READ. I've really got something for you to do. Let's say the person who told you about my problems was friend A (that should not be me). Go ask friend A who told him/her about my problems. If friend A said I was the one who told him/her the problem, ask him/her if it's REALLY true. If friend A said so-and-so (let's call him friend B) told him/her, ask him/her to ask friend B who was the one who said it. So on and so forth until you get the ACTUAL information.



It really pisses me off when the trust is being abused. True, reality is cruel. The world out there is cruel. But can you really imagine? Your inner most feelings being leaked out? Spoiling all your plans? What have you learnt from ZPH or 40 days community? To trust is to love. I chose to love these few particular people more and yet they abused the love (trust). What have you learnt? Gossiping is a sin. What have you been DOING? Gossiping. What's your purpose in attending cell? What's your purpose in attending church services?



I've been thinking about this whole problem every minute every second. Even when I was watching world cup (yes I just got home from Johnny's house after watching world cup with a bunch of boys). It WAS my fault for this problem. And, repeating, it was one of my closest friend's fault for blowing up this problem.



"The trust has been abused, badly. Don't every try." This had been on my nick for a few days. He/she's gotta get my point. I've forgiven him/her, I understand his/her actions. But has he/she repented?



Lord Father I pray that You help us all in a way that each of us will learn from each of our mistakes. Be it abusing trust, be it acting selfishly or be it not learning how to confront. Lord Father may You forgive our sins and help us up from our fall. Lord Father it hasn't been a good week for some of us. Our exams are coming. Lord Father I pray that You bless us in a way that all of us can still cope with our lives no matter how bad our lives can be. We're listening, Lord Father, we're listening. May You speak to us in any way You like. Use us, Lord Father, in whatever way You want to. In Jesus' most precious name we pray, amen.



signing off~RYNETTA

Tuesday 6 June 2006

I'm developing a soar throat. ARGH. It first started on Friday night. After dinner and everything, Nic asked Edwin to stop by The Bottle Shop to buy alcoholic drinks. Edwin got me a Heineken. After Edwin dropped Nic, he parked his car outside my house and talked with me about my problems and his while I drank beer. When I got home, my throat felt like it was burning.



On Saturday night, after church service at Nando's, I drank Heineken too. My throat felt more burning. On Sunday night, I ate two Ferrero Rocher (however you spell that), a small piece of Heaven chocolate and two toblerone pyramids. On Monday morning, I woke up with a terribly soar throat. I thought I'd be better today but my throat proved my wrong. It's feeling worse.



Yesterday, I was super dumb. When I looked at the bus time-table, I looked at the weekdays time-table instead of the Sundays and public holidays time-table. Apparently, I saw the wrong timing of the bus so I ended up walking to Curtin bus stop. It only took me a suprising 20 minutes. I was only late for 10 minutes. Ok 10 minutes is a lot. We took bus 72 to the city. At city, we had bubble tea before Nic and Dominic went to timezone. Dominic had green apple ice blended, Nic had banana berry smoothie with oreo and rainbow jelly and I had taro smoothie with oreo and rainbow jelly. Mine was the best! Weeeee!



At timezone, the boys did the usual. Maximum Tune. The whole time I just looked at them playing. I sat on the initial D's seat, then Maximum Tune's seat then back to initial D's seat. At 2.25, we left for the 2.30 bus at Wellington bus station. RUN AR!!!!! That stupid Nic run so fast. Dominic sprint, stop, sprint, stop. Me? Run, walkwalkwalkwalkwalk, run, walkwalkwalkwalkwalk, jog, walkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalk. I still had time to use the toilet at the bus station. Don't know why Nic run so fast for. Lol.



The bus came 5 minutes late. We took 102 down to UWA. Why? Badminton! When we reached, Michelle and Jon haven't reached. Nic setted up the net for court 4 and the three of us started playing. Nic and I against Dominic alone. Michelle, Jon and...erm another cell member came. Heeeee sorry la I forgot his name! Should be start with A one...Andrew? Haha he played with Dominic while I played with Nic. There was a moment where Michelle played with Jon. Then she went to play bball with Jon. Nic kept training me until I could kept SOME of his stupid corner balls. Not easy ok! Tiring!



At 4, we were supposed to leave but no one chased us away. Badminton court 4 seemed free. Nic and I played against Dominic and Jon. And for the first time I heard Jon laugh. When it was left with Jon and I, he complained that I kept making him run. Wow. Sound! From his mouth! Okok stop crapping. Then I played with Michelle. Each time Michelle couldn't receive my ball, I felt damn bad. Heh..



At around 4.20, we left the place. Michelle went to broadway to buy food for dinner. She bought pork ribs at the butcher's and some stuff from Dewson. When we were at Michelle's house, she cooked Bak Kut Teh! I miss Mummy's Bak Kut Teh. She also heated up some left over curry for us to dip bread in. The dinner was simple yet splendid. Michelle even had some smoked medium done slamon. It was really really nice. Wahhh I want to stay with Michelle! Haha.



At around 5.40, Edwin came in just nice for dinner. He only ate some bread dipped in curry. I also played with Michelle's hermit crab. When I move in to Nic's homestay, I'm so gonna buy hermit crabs and at least two fighting fishes. So cool! At 6.30, Edwin sent Nic and I to Riverton for Passion Training. I was so looking forward to it!



When we reached, I, at first, sat down with Nic, Kevin, Angelina and Junie. Then Kevin and Nic had to give up their seats for girls. Then Stanley, doing the projections, took one chair away. Zhen Yi (I think) led worship. Indeed, he's very good in his guitar. We had a game, human bingo. I was one step away from getting one whole line of signatures la. I saw Asher's friends there too. Wonder why Asher wasn't there. We then moved into our cell groups and did prayers. Then worship and we were dismissed!



After we were dismissed, Nic, Edwin and I rushed off to Fremantle for timezone. At timezone, I topped up 20 bucks in Nic's card. In the end we got NOTHING. Nic played the "roller coaster ride" and tried the winnie the pooh machine a few times. He also tried the Skill Tester and the big big toy one. In the end he won nothing. Waste my money. Lol. Then we went to Hungry Jack. I bought soft serve cone. Nic bought whooper meal. Edwin bought some...burger meal. Then we sat by the road eating. Nic started feeding the birds with bits of fries. He waited for cars to pass by then he threw the bits of fries out. One bird's wings got hit but it still managed to fly off. Sadistic sia, Nic. Then Nic threw a few pieces near us and when one bird finally had the guts to come up and eat, he scare that bird away. Wa lao eh I pity the birds sia lol.



When both of them were done with their food, we went home! I've finally remembered the way to Nic's homestay. Woohoo!



signing off~RYNETTA

Sunday 4 June 2006

Big Thanks

I realised that...I need to give thanks to lots of people who've been there for me for the past few critical days. True, it hasn't been a pleasant smooth week for me but I'm glad it's concluded well. If not for these following people I'm going to thank, my following week would be a more dreadful one.



Firstly, a HUUUUUGE thank you to Nic. He was the biggest help of all. He may not be the closest, or the first, but he's the reason why my problem has been solved. It all happened on Thursday at 3 where I couldn't take it anymore and I broke down. That idiot purporsely skipped class just to talk to me. And you know what? He was supposed to take a TEST la. Thanks, Nic, really. I was also supposed to go for my english class but there was no point of me going in red eyed (or rather, red headed) and not concentrate.

Shelina, Da Yong and Derek were there. I told Nic the whole big problem. At first I thought my problem wasn't big but Nic told me "if the problem is enough to make you cry, it is not a small problem at all." For the rest of the day, I kept thinking about that very sentence over and over again. I realised, after a super long while, that Nic made sense. Nic told me to talk to my parents and my homestay parents and tell him what's my plan as soon as possible. We were in the city then, with Shelina and Edwin, having Young Joe's.

That very night, I made a call back to Singapore to my parents. It was Mummy who picked up the call. I told her the whole problem. She was reluctant on letting me move. I'm not suprised myself. If I had a kid I would also tell my kid to learn how to tolerate. In the end Mummy told me she'll talk to Daddy and tell me the answer the next day.

The next day, I went to school early just to use the internet in school. Daddy suddenly called me. We started debating and ended up quarrelling. I cried, as expected. Many people who walked pass saw. People like Rifai and Fatin. Daddy finally gave in and asked me to talk to my homestay parents before making my decision.

At around 10, I went to the canteen. I didn't have much to do so I started doing questions from my accountings text. When it was break, everyone started pouring in. Nic and I went to the ISO to talk to Jean. He helped me talk a lot. He even talked to his homestay parents for me. There was supposed to be this boy moving into Nic's house but Nic tried to make it sound like if I don't move into his homestay I'd die. It was quite funny but really really really appreciated. When we left Jean's office, it was just nice time for our lessons. After lessons was city then combined cell blah blah blah.

You see, Nic has been a great help to me as a friend, college mate, cell member, church friend. If not for him, I might still be locking myself up in my room crying. Thanks, Nic. =)



Secondly, SHELINA! The girl who always made me laugh/smile whenever I was down. She'd come up to me and force all the information out of my mouth and do or say stupid things to make me smile or even laugh. She made sure I'm alright before she walks off. Not say WALK OFF but continue her stuff. Thanks, lots. =)



Thirdly, the month before June. May! Yes, you, May. For Thursday, Friday and Saturday, she's stuck by me for everything. She listened to me, consoled me, gave me encouragement, accompanied me, and hugged me. Her hugs are always so precious to me. It's more than just a routine. It's an obligation. Each time I see her, I just have the urge to hug her. Her smile, too, is very very...heart melting. Thanks, May, for everything, including the prayers and the encouragement you gave on the first day I ushered. =D



Fourthly, DA YOOOOONG!!!!! The guy who gave me numerous hugs yesterday and called me last night to counsell me. I shared with him my past and vice versa. Thank you, Da Yong, for not walking pass me. Thanks for stopping by and helping me. Your help is greatly appreciated. GREATLY. =P



Today has been a great day. Went to meet Jay and Shelina in the city. We walked around and decided to eat in HK BBQ. Dominic, Nic, Da Yong and Derek joined us soon after. After lunch Jay and Shelina went off to collect things then went home. The rest of us went to time zone. Nic and Dominic played Maximum Tune. I managed to catch one small cat. Da Yong and Derek, after some time, said they'll go home and sleep. Two big piggies. Haha.



Halfway through, I fell asleep on the Initial D chair. Then Nic caught a few cats for me. Then we went to Tea Fusion. Then met Faith. Walked around to find a gift for Jon Chia. Then went woolworths to get ingredients for the cake Faith's going to make. Then Dominic and Faith take train home while Nic and I took 34 home. At the bus stop that stupid Nic kept shooting me with words. "TRAINING". Haha but it was fun la. Lifted my spirits a little. Nono, a lot. On the bus both of us crashed. Nic slept a little longer than me. We listened to Hillsongs on my MP3. He showed me exactly where his bus stop was so that in future when I'm his housemate I know where to stop haha. Then I got home.



Waiting for more info on tomorrow's plans. Maybe playing gunbound. Nic ar tell me faster ar or else I'm going off to play gunbound already ar...



signing off~RYNETTA

Friday 2 June 2006

Sick of Life

I don't know what I've done in my past life to deserve all these shit. Yes, I shouldn't be believing in reincarnation but who knows maybe this is the so called hell. What have I been doing for the past 13-14 years? Since 3, I have been bullied in school EVERY YEAR. Every year I give in. I give in each time people are unhappy with me. But each time I raise my voice to tell them my unhappiness, they say I'm being unreasonable.



Yes, I've been having good times during the past 13-14 years but can the good times cover up the sufferings I've gone through? Maybe it's time some of you know something. I'm not your happy-go-lucky cheerful friend. I'm someone who once attempted suicide. I'm someone who appears to be strong but in actual fact is struggling on the inside for someone to reach into me. I keep trying to make my friends happy in every way. Give in when they think I'm in the wrong just so that we will not end up quarrelling. Cheer people up when they're down. Avoid people when they're about to be angry. What about me? ME?! Has anybody ever thought about MY feelings?



But then again, who cares? It's been close to 14 years. In fact, more than 14 years. Maybe I can still go on this way for another 14 years. Or maybe till the end of my life. Or maybe when I cannot take it I just leave, for good, to another world. I don't know what I'm talking about but I've had enough and that's it. I either go on alone happily or make sure my friends don't make me feel down again.



If you, as a friend, still don't get my message, get out of my life. I'm sick of giving in all the time.



signing off~RYNETTA