......yeh...now at home...headache much better...but still got a lil headache...aaaaargh...must be tt myren larhx...give me such big headache...yikes...dun tok bout him...tok bout him i wanna PUKE...kk...then...after sch me and my moma went to collect my whole set of diposable contacts...then ate fish noodle...then go NTUC...bought wall's ice-cream...and egg and stuff...then wanted to buy things in pasar malam but nothing to buy...then go home...then eat ice-cream...woah it's damn nice worx...really...very very very nice...wad to do...one small tub $7.50...woah...kk...then headache got so bad i went to sleep...then 7++pm woke up ate dinner...then now sitting infront of the comp...woah...my nose running like siao...lucky no cough if not means flu...yikes dun want...kk...i go lerhx...a maths test sure fail...kk...buai......

haha this morning wake up immediately use the radio on my phone...hehx...then go sch...blahx...i got 66 for my chinese test...then e maths test...kinda easy actually...to me only larhx...heard lotsa ppl dunno how to do the test...haha...then the whole time jacksen sing in class...then recess horx...zhi yin never come find me...never find me never mind still never wait for me want to go down with min ru...lucky ijuz nice walk pass them...min ru pull me down...then zhi yin never follow...aiyoh...who want to go down with you larhx...wad type of fwen are you...my lao po no.2 better lorhx...you laopo no.1 so wad...one day you're not gonna be tt liao lorhx...kk...then now having geog lesson in comp lab 2...the keyboard so sucky...so hard to type one...lol...kk...now having a terrible headache...pain xia...nobody got panadol...pain...kk...gtg...buai......

lol man! i guessed albert read my blog...he thinks i've got something to tok to him about...who wants to tok to him? hi also never say...y should i even bother to TALK to him...i've got much more better fwenx to tok to...fwenx like stanley and my lao po...pls la...look at you...k ppl, you guys may think i'm going overboard today but some ppl juz get on my nerves...ppl like albert and myren

......yehx...juz came back from tuition...juz now daddy fetch me go tuition...then i went popular to buy pressie for mummy...i bought a pillow with a bear and a heart and "i love you always" on it...$15.90...then wanted to get a card but it cost $4.80...short of 70 cents...not enuff money...yet...so...got the pillow only...i'll get the card WITH the cake next week i guess...then tuition...met dorcia and sarah-ann outside the office...huggzed sarah-ann lao po...then we had so much fun at the 6th floor staircase...coz myren was at the 7th floor staircase so we went down...then we over there suan him...then woah...tell miss lie u sick want to go home huh? then wad u doing at macs? coward then say larhx aiyo...suo tou wu gui...tsk tsk tsk...then we...as in sarah-ann lao po n i...went down to macs toilet...we wanted to go suan myren...guess wad? he ran away!!!!! suo tou wu gui larhx...calling you shit is a disgrace to shit...you are a BIG disgrace to your family man...best you quit mavis...no one wants to see you...even miss lie dun like u arhx...adeline also arhx...bet jaryl also coz he never sit with u tt time...ee yer...who like u...not only me say u got attitude prob arhx...EVERYONE says so including sarah-ann lao po...lol...then lao po n i had so much fun...we went to "solve" equations...like F=MA is fuck=my ass...haha...=X...then Potential Energy = mass x gravity x height is pre-mature ejaculation = me getting horny...lol man...lao po so farnie...haha...had so much fun...then she tired liao lol...she no transport home coz she had a BIG quarrel with her mum...so she got a lift from dorcia...i cannot coz her house is SO out of my way...haha...kk...then before leaving each other lao po give me another hugx...woah...so long never hugx ppl lerhx...love you lao po...k buai......

......yeh...today...hmm...in sch...PE play captains ball...wanted to run 2.4...but nvm larhx...play captains lorhx...but actually very fun lehx...me and doris kept changing places...sometimes she captain sometimes me...lol...then chinese...then e maths...then recess...wa lao...zhiyin horx...everytime i have to go find her one lorhx...today i late a bit she never wait...always i go find you, you wait for me for once will die izzit?! kao...kk...heck...then eng...went lib...on the way saw albert...hai...then go in lib...then albert suddenly came in to photocopy his art...then he gave his fwen his things i thk then he go out...hai...never say hi...hai...aiya y should i bother bout all these...i've said i'm gonna give up on him...i've said it's over...he left me...so y should i bother? all i know is he lost someone...nvm...aiya then...huan yuet went home so our group only got samantha, alan, kelvin and me...huan yuet get well soon k...=)...then physics...test...lose 6 marks immediately coz me dunno how to do...=(...so the most i can get is 19/25...sigh...then chem...then after sch...should have e maths remedial one...i pon hehx...go BK for lunch wif mummy...the mozerella melt is sooooo nice...the cheese..mmm...then the cheese nugget...woah...mmmmmm...then now at home...bloated...still with stress so later i'm gonna have a BIG plate of watermelon...yayie......

......last night did not use the comp coz the internet connection got prob...k...then tuition horx...before tuition me and sarah-ann went macs to study...haha...we joke so much tt we didn't manage to study much...then after i wrote down the main points for chem we went up mavis...then we go staircase there...then haha...we had so much much much much much fun...lol...kk...then tuition start...we wanted to concentrate but we kept joking here n there until we can't concentrate...we laugh so much that we could not get anything into our head...lol...haha...then we tickling dorcia...the first time she really SCREAMED very loud...then slowly after a few times she started squiking instead...then we never tickle her for a very long time alrd then tickle her again then she SCREAMED again...haha...kk...then i went off early...coz got to go for eng extra lesson at tampinese branch...woah so far...k...then over there...mr fadhil said christopher said something bout me...haha...nvm...then me and michelle had so much fun...not RP michele but mavis michelle...then parents came to fetch me...i guess i was having stress again coz my moma bought bread for me and it was almost as big as a...small size pizza...it was damn big k...but i gobbled it down in less than 5 minutes...stress...can't be helped...hai...kk...then i kept sms-ing mr fadhil and tom after i reached home...haha...kk...then today morning continued sms-ing tom...halfway through the chain broke...aiya...not fun anymore...haha...chem test...not tt bad larhx...duno how to do the last question which consists of FOUR marks...die...the most i can get now is 16/20...SIGH...k...then tina lost her wallet again...sigh...tina...errrrr...lol...then after sch go lib...duty as usual...then at 3 me n yi ting went down to slack n buy food...we were already slacking but we slacked even more larhx hehx...then come back up, joyce, geraldine n jane came at 3.30...how early...lol...me n geraldine infrared here n there...wah seh...my phone gonna burst...better delete those unwanted pics...kk...then go home...which is now...at home...gonna bathe soon...then dinner then tuition...believe it or not this blog was done halfly in the lib during eng lesson and halfly at home...lol...haha...mr fadhil haven't give me christopher's e-mail...damnit...kk...i gtg lerhx...update tonight...buai......

......haha today...me n joel had so much fun snatching foods...lol...then after sch...as in lunch break joel dunno go where...n joel owes me one dollar...yuan du fu shu...hehx...then mrs wong never come...again...sigh...then we over there play like siao...taking pics of each other...hao bu rong yi then took a pic of joshua...2 actually...lol...kk...haha...so fun...lol...haha...wei feng and eunice never break...gdgd...haha...k...then after tt i pon tutorial...i want to go home study...then actually got music project must do then i didn't know...then tina called me...but moma coming lerhx...hai...sorry larhx...i tomorrow bu chang k? then yi ting went to touch my ****s...aaaaargh!!!!! i got molested!!!!! hehx...then i snapped her *** stripe...xP...had so much fun...then come home le...aiya...i want to study my chem lerhx...muz pia like siao already...coz exams coming lerhx! kampateh!

......hehx...tuition...wa lao...danny over there...nvm...r.e.l.a.x...y bother bout ppl like him...lol man...kk...then after tt vannessa and yi li over there comforting me...thx man...but i'm ok larhx...serious...then melissa, cheryl, adeline and i discussed the whole thing...yepx...so everything is ok now...i guess...=)...but bout danny and daryl...can't be bothered with them lorhx...i think they bit overboard larhx...but nvm...r.e.l.a.x...yepx...k...then we...as in me, melissa, cheryl and adeline...also talked to ms ng...ms ng also quite ke lian larhx...but ...yehx...hope everything would be ok now...n sarah-ann i told you already rites...so yahx...we are fwenx! =)

......yesterday night i scolded myren...whaha...who ask him to have tt kinda selfish attitude...he always on off on off towards his fwenx one lorhx...me and sarah-ann bui ta han him alrd lorhx...then scolded him alrd i talked to srah-ann on the phone again...haha...talked until 11.30pm...haha...both of us had so much fun...we were so crappy...hehx...today in sch...nothing much again...lol man...haha...mrs wong didn't come...she kena course...hai...our social studies and history how...sigh...kk...then blahx...mrs yeo got pissed off again...hehx...then assebly...bout lib things...sian siao...haha then doris and yiting went mad...then i kena pulled in...haha...had so much fun...lol...sigh...never see him for 5 days lerhx...where is he...i miss you...where are you......

......whaha this morning i got daiyu to buy coffee himself...he always earlier than me then want me to help him buy coffee...make me late only...idiot...then break time me, pei yao, dai yu and terence (ee yer) go down for break...the queue at BK so long...so went up quite late haha...then me n pei yao had so much fun smsing...lol...next week me gonna play wif his hair...heyhey...haha...k then after tuition went toilet then lost pei yao then he sms me ask me where i go lol...kk...i crazy liao...heard albert got gf already...wth...good la...wa lao...heck bout him la...he this kinda guy...on off type one...flirt like siao...lol man...ee yer...sounds like some guy...some guy namely...wo de ren...if you translate he wo de into eng...ofcoz he's not mine...who wants him...lol man...rights sarah-ann? hehx...luz night on the phone with sarah-ann...had soooooooooo much fun...toking bout her love life my love life bout tuition bout tt myren...lol man...both of us went crazy...haha...kk...i'm still crazy...k...haha...kk...um...haha...bye la...after ballet then write again...haha...k...haha...bye......

......blahx...today...tuition...haha...sat alone...so boring xia...edward samuel joel and steven sat infront...dunno y...act angelic...lol...k...nothing much lahx...mr ng gave us a cedar paper...bloody difficult ok...k...then after tuition went to my aunt's shop...optician shop lahx...got my the other pair of contacts...so darn cool...but not shan guang...so quite blur...but nvm larhx...cool can alrd...hehx...then go eat...i wasn't hungry so i share wif my parents...then go pasar malam...wa lao...pasar malam clothes so cheap my mother dun allow me to buy...pls lo...hello...you always go giodano all tt cheapskate thing...no quality somemore...kao...then say wad go korea buy...always say wad must save money...wad shit larhx...i tell you arhx, if you dun allow me to buy those clothes in korea i'll chop you neh off...i dun care ex or not coz is you say go there buy one...idiot...k...then bought cotton candy...bit childish larhx but long time never eat tt alrd and it brings back happy memories too...hehx...then bought a ring...nice one...$5...quite cheap to some of you but very ex to my dad...lol...k...then go home...aiya...sarah-ann juz called me...quite fun toking to her actually...althoh most of her conversations are complains bout her 8-year old brother and myren...but...heck coz other contents are farnie...she's farnie larhx...we have quite alot in common actually...lol...then she going home now...she was at parkway...so yepx...waiting for her call when she gets home...at PASIR RIS...wow man...k bye for now......

......yesterday didn't write blog...haha...yesterday in the morning i smsed adeline say she went overboard and everything...told her i dun regard her as a fwen anymore...coz she doesn't treat me like a fwen should...then she ask me if i were a les...then i said "sorry man...i'm not a les...disappointed notx? haha...even if i were a les i also dun want to les with you...nobody would want to les with you lorhx...and oh, i think daryl is PURE BLIND...BYE"...yeh man...hehx...then...in sch arhx...nothing much i guess...mr kwek didn't come...mrs yeo took over one period...then miss heng...then during e maths mrs yeo was pissed off by us...haha...then wei da kena punish by her stand outside...mrs yeo was hoping mr yue will walk pass but he didn't...lol...then chem remedial...everyone was using hp...k la not everyone but most of us...haha...i sat with stanley joshua and say chong...had so much fun...then went for history remedial...sat with zhi yin and min ru...quite ok la...haha...chiaw sang and fredrick and jonathan were so farnie...i bang seh stanley...hehx...then after tt waited for parents to send me home...it was already 5 i think...then go home...dinner...bathe...go for tuition...very few ppl...only had jun han, myren, jia hui, dorcia, me and dunno wad tt guy's name...me and dorcia and tt no name guy had so much fun...he happened to know eden also...he doesn't like eden either...ahaha...then myren, junhan and i had to do a diff paper coz we are learning moles...all three of us dunno how to do everything...lol...then myren owe me something xia...aiya dun kachiaw him alrd la...thk he found another ger...hehx...good luck my fwen...then go home...bluff my moma i study...but actually got study a bit of chinese then went straight to bed at 10.45...earliest so far...then after tt...today...moma woke me up at 9.05 to get me to eat my breakfast...woah seh...first time she so polite...she knock, called my name, then come in...woah...kk...then i had odneh odneh for breakfast...so long neva eat odneh odneh alrd...sho nice...then i went back to sleep...1.30 my moma came again ask me whether i want noodles for lunch...i said dun want...but i think my papa got cook a lil extra...then 2 o'clock my papa woke me up again then i went down for lunch...haha...snatch here and there...then i ate the fruit i plucked from my very own tree...tasted so darn sweet...just nice larhx...then now...yepx...woah...wake up at 2...bit late yehx...i still can't believe the fact that i might be going to england for further studies after my sec 4...sigh...only if i can get good grades...then the staffs from the sch there will fly over and interview me...ee yer...scary...then if can then go lorhx...if cannot then...try australia...bo bian...actually i prefer aust larhx...but since england...my parents found the sch alrd...then somemore got one auntie and her family stay there...so can larhx...sigh...i'm gonna miss all my fwenx if i can actualy get there...sigh...aiya...having flu now...so xin ku...sigh......

......now kena ankle protection...still bai ka...sigh...just now tuition horx...adeline went overboard again...so i left her...i find her a very bad influence...she goes around insulting ppl...then that time i insult sarah-ann horx...is she got me to do it one lorhx...she threaten me one lorhx...even florence say friends won't do that...then i left her today...she went to stick with bao ying and florence...florence bo bian coz she same sch as adeline...then bao ying arhx...think she also kena influenced alrd coz she even insulted teacher...sigh...bao ying arhx...hope you will realise it soon...then i left adeline horx...she insult me...i ignore her and went with dorcia and sarah-ann she insult all three of us...i told dorcia and sarah-ann to ignore her...coz...wad for have a grudge on ppl like her? as i said, learn to live life happily...so yepx...after tuition go home...told my parents i left adeline...haha...they said they respect my actions...lol...hehx......

......bai ka today wore slippers to sch...had chinese oral...quite ok la...but got 2-3 words i dunno...aiya heck la...i dun like chinese oral anyway...sch nothing again lorhx...after oral my parents came to pick me up...saw 2 LY's jeffery...he damn wierd xia...i dun even know him then never talked to him before then he go smile at my parents and gave way to them...ee yer...nvm...then now at home...waiting for time to pass until 8...then got physics extra lessons...as in...tuition...not sch...k...aiya leg pain la......

......today in sch arhx...nothing much again lorhx...bought quite a few pens and fullscap and flexi rule...hehx...after sch go lib slack again lorhx...then after duty go home...blah blah blah...tuition...woah sehx...haha...no space in the middle so i had to sit at the back behind clarence...then steven, joel, edward and samuel came in...they talked non-stop...i laugh and laugh and laugh but i managed to finish the test mr ng gave...i finished quite fast larhx...dunno y today my brain started to work...yesterday do chinese compo my brain not working at all...wrote lotsa crap in it...then edward and samuel very noisy...but very funny also larhx lol...they also kept diao xiao-ing me...haha...then edward suan me haha then i pinch him...haha edward say i pinch got skill one...lol...stanley also say my pinches very pain...hehx...then after tuition went to chinese sinseh...coz my ankle sprained since sunday night but didn't go until today...then kena bandage...dunno y always rite leg dio one...haha then stanley say i better get walking stick...then i reply him later walking stick break...hahx...now at home damn sian...bai ka cannot walk much...sigh......

......hmm...nothing much happened again lorhx...during eng tuitorial we talked bout mass media and cencorship...then halfway sarah-ann called me to apologize...then...i ofcourse never pick up her call la...i sms her...then she apologize then i also apologize too...yepx...then go take my new pair of specs and contacts...the other pair of contacts not ready yetx...then go home...dinner...tuition...today i think adeline gone too far lorhx...she over there keep suaning ppl...including me and bao ying lorhx...then i over there diam diam...can't be bothered with her...mainly talked to steven only...then go toilet...then adeline asked me wad happened to me...how can i tell her lorhx...lol...then aiya...give her a lift home...coz her parents' car kena accident...then now at home...blahx...dunno lahx...i'll let adeline be...but i really think she today gone too far...sigh...wadevax...k...i go do homework lerhx...buai......

......this afternoon wanted to use comp one...but my eyes were so irritating n i was so tired i had to go and take a nap...then in sch...min ru in the morning before recess tt time dunno y suddenly so sad...i guess is becoz of "that" la...but dun wanna say...cheer up la k min ru...i'll be by ur side...smile...:)...then nothing much lo...assembly, chung cheng's brainiest class...stanley did the whole presentation thingy...wow man...he's so darn cool...pro man...there were slight mistakes here and there but it's ok...come on stanley...it's ok...build up the courage...juz learn to ignore...it's just a small matter...after a while it'll be alright...as a fwen it hurts to see u like this...come on...k...then after the whole thing which is after sch, me and my moma go shopping...bought the aloe vera gel...i went to activate the GPRS...i bought ice-cream...then went to get some chinese guide books and assessments...and history ten year series...red spot one la...then go home...then take nap la...like wad i said...then go for tuition...wa lao...daryl suan me...haha...nvm la...i learnt to ignore him...but he's joking one la...can tell...then go popular buy coloured papers for my phone...then go in for lessons...blah blah blah...after tuition...here i am at home...oh! i heard adeline and her mum met with an acident in the morning...car kiss car...yikes...careful...adeline's ok...but her mum's hand's hurt i think...tqke care auntie...k buai......

......today tuition ar...buy coffee for daiyu AND mr fadhil...make me feel like a coffee lady...lol...then blah blah blah...i got home...parents say want to go trade in daddy's 3310...they want me to go...i say i dun want go...then my moma juz coz of tt got so worked up...aiya wadeva la...so they went...then moma called back and asked 3200 better or 3100 better...i checked the net then called her back and told her 3200 better coz got cam and 3100 the button is rubber very hard to press...so they got the 3200...maybe i want to use tt one...it's cheaper than my this samsung one i know but i prefer tt one coz got cam...then my samsung one think give my moma...then daddy use my moma's 2100...yepx...haha...even if i think i wanna give my papa the 3200 he also dun wan coz got cam...he hates cam...as in...really hate...haha...dunno y...lol...then ballet...before elementary started i joined the intermediate pointe work...woah seh...hard hard hard...then i continue with my elementary class...then after my elementary class i joined the pre-elementary class...build my stamina la...but it's kinda boring...coz i know all the steps then...ahaha...nvm...then i also helped abit la...teach them...show them...demonstrate...with mavis la ofcoz...hehx...then by the end of it my foot is really pain k...more than 4 hours of dancing lehx...woah...i'm going crazy...i stopped tap and mordern already...no interest...and no time...k...then now at home...muahahaha...finding trouble...buai......

......just now swimming...i put lotsa sun tan lotion...coz the sun is really out...and shining...woah man...swam quiet alot...didn't get a very dark tan but at least there was a tan...then go home...had lunch...blah blah blah...then go for tuition...dunno y clarence not there...heard those sec 4 peepx also got longer hours of tuition...maybe tt's y he never continue...if not i think he will pengx...lol...nothing much le...sigh...i still love you...but y dun you ever know?...sigh......

......wtf...my mother...wa lao...early in the morning...i didn't put my uniform in my laundry...k...i know...tt's my fault...but she whole day over there screaming and nagging...my dad tell her to stop she never stops...k...so i shouted back "so you think i spoil your plan? you think i spoil you day? you think i'll spoil your monday? then y dun you teach me to iron? whole day want ppl help you yet dun see you helping ppl...you want me to help you yet i dun see you teaching me how to...now SHUTUP!!!!!"...then she stare at me...i gave her tt WHAT look...pls lo...wtf...then i'm supposed to accompany her to the chinese doctor to have a massage for her leg b4 i go swimming...then dunno y, today she bathe super fast...go down...she say "she always takes her time...i got temper one ok...she think she wad...dun care la i go alone"...wa lao...she dun want me to go with her then say la...i take my time? all the time since the day i was born she was always the slowest in EVERYTHING...then she thinks she's the only person in this whole wide world with temper...i also got temper k...my papa also got temper k...wtf...then she whole day say she slimmed down...for how many years already she kept saying tt...you guys wanna know her weight and size??? her weighs -->71 KG<-- and her waist is -->37<--...tt haven't changed since loooooooooong loooooooooong time ago...pls lo...wa lao...then say wad she loves me...ask me if i love her...ofcoz i say yes la if not wad...you think you are adorable mehx...thk ppl love you so much mehx...wa lao...even papa bui ta han you already lo...you one ppl to love you then show tt you are lovable...but look at you...pls man...wa lao...have you heard of "shang liang bu zhen xia liang wai"? whaha...lol man...i better get influenced by my dad instead...then heard of "yi ya huan ya"? whaha...think you better prepare for the worse man...then you say wad? you were from dunman? you look down on chung cheng ar? if you really so clever then y didn't you go raffles girls? chairman of dance club so wad? if you dance so good then y never join ballet? y never go teach? y never go be a proffessional dancer? whole day go slimming centre go spa facial wadeva shit...pls lo...you hopeless already la...wa lao...i see you i wanna puke already still have to live with you under the same roof for dunno how long...woah...high blood pressure and diabetes ar? dun copy daddy's words la...daddy say maybe true la...but you? pls lo...dun act la...sure won't win to go into mediacorp one lohx...pls lo...wa lao...you want daddy to hate me izzit? or you want me to hate daddy izzit? no way man...me and him will be together as loving as ever to make you more jealous man...dun say already le la...later you cry ar...scared you cry mehx...cry cry la...you wanna say bad bout me then SAY IT OUT...y say behind my back to daddy? i can hear it lo...you cuckoo or wad...lmao...go refresh yourself la...eh...wait...refresh also no use...she no hope already wad..."bu ke jiu yao"...aiya buai le la...see her sian diao already......

......heyhey...just came back from dinner at my big aunt's house...wa seh...so nice man hakka food...then i drank one big cup of white wine...so darn sweet...then one can of heinekin beer...not bad...dunno if drunk notx...haha...dun thk so la...so...yepx...tomorrow going to swim under the big hot sun...1st of may going to malaysia jungle stay worx...xP...gonna make myself real tan man...hehx...kk...i go talk to my friends le...buai......

woah seh...go to sch...see everybody's face and hand and leg red red one...except for me...xP...coz i never go for the sports day...go eye check up mahx...hehx...tt one is called unhealthy sun burn...tomorrow going to the pool at katong...katong swimming complex la...so maybe i can get a good tan tomorrow coz last week there was no sun...you know wad?!?!?! i went to the saturday night fever last night! it was damn cool k! the performers were damn cool! their act, singing and most importantly DANCING was SO DARN COOL!!!!! their voice...they way they act...the neatness when they danced...man...wow...and it was a LIVE BAND there...can you imagine the sound effect? is it SO sharp and neat and loud and clear and COOL!!!!! wow man...as if i'm in a disco!!!!! then after the whole thingy they told us to stand up to dance...but no one stood up...except for a bunch of ladies...my 2 ballet teachers mrs skipp and miss chew, auntie joe (cheryl's mum) and auntie chris (kim's mum, mrs chong)...we being the children were so darn embarrassed lol...but my parents didn't go though...they're not born to be wild...unlike me and my friends and my ballet teachers and those wild moms...lol...then slowly everyone stood up...but ofcoz only we this batch danced...even the performers saw us and laughed and smiled at us...lol man...so darn cool...oh...and kim's brother is cute too...as in baby cute...although i heard he is sec 1 this year...lol...then after the whole thing...everyone went to the taxi stand to wait for their mate to come...miss chew waited for her fiancee jackson...mrs skipp waited for her hubby...kim and her bro and mum waited for mr chong their dad or hubby or wadeva...and auntie joe went back already...wow man...tt was fun...loved it...then go home sleep...kk today in sch...haha everybody's skin...kk...dun say le...=X...then after sch i pon lib CIP...told my moma i dun wanna go...so she fetched me home...i guess she knows i dun like lib anymore...if not she won't be fetching me home...lol...kk...now at home...tonight going to my big aunt's house to have hakka dinner...kewl! bet it will taste nice...tonight no tuition...hmm...kk...tt's all...tomorrow going to suntan myself into a nice tan man...yepx so bye......

......i can't stand my mother lohx...she keeps going into my room without permission...at least KNOCK before you go in right? or if i'm not inside TELL me you're going in...wa lao...then you go in already scold here scold there say wad if i dun tidy up my room she'll take action on me...you say so many million times i dun see you doing anything lohx...my room you say messy? you wanna compare with other ppl's rooms? wa lao...wanna take action take la...dun forget wad you did to me before lohx...you touch one strend of my hair of any part daddy and i can easily sue you in court lohx...wa lao...come la......

......yay man...all my friends...either in stadium (for cchms, dunman, temasek, nass)...or in sch (every other schs) in classrooms listening to the deafening shouts of the teacher...while i'm here...at home...having peace studying...hehx...those at the stadium, have a nice suntan! xP...kk...but not to be so happy so early...i've got to go make new contacts later...i find it very irritating...aaaaargh nvm...i go study liao buai......

......sigh...today...in sch...very down...then stanley comforted me...until i cry...lol...then recess time javin comforted me...aniways, thx...kk...then...aiya...nothing much lohx...oh! sarah went to piss xie lao shi today...lol...she was doing her own work...then teacher tell her to keep...then dunno y they started quarreling...then sarah quarrel in eng then xie lao shi told her not to then she say "too bad i want to say in eng"...lol...then sarah moved back...then xie lao shi kept telling her to move to the front...until xie lao shi shouted then sarah say she dun wanna sit infront she wanna stand outside...then when on her way out xie lao shi grabbed her hand...sarah went "FANG SHOU!!!!!"...then chun chen woke up coz of that...lol...he thought energy was singing...lol...then sarah slammed the window then daringly took out her phone and use...woah seh...then zhen lao shi talk to her...blah blah blah...then after sch zhi yin and i went to 2HM find yi qing...then albert walked out of his class...hi also never say...hai...then zhi yin and i go back to her class...as in zhi yin's class...i felt so depressed that i cried again...then min ru, hui yin and zhi yin kept comforting me...sigh...then...go back class...xie lao shi not there...so i can't be bothered to go and find her for retest...my chinese test only got 3/100 lol...kk...then went to eat with zhi yin and hui yin...in canteen only la...then eat finish 2.45...then go for duty...like normal...slack...then fell alseep...talking bout sleep...during flag raising...i standing also nearly slept...then chinese reading, i slept lo...wierd...dunno y today so sleepy...standing also can sleep lol...kk...back to the subject...then in lib...saw xie lao shi...woke up then saw lohx...then i went to hide...lol...then at 4 she still staying there...i quickly get my back then run....oh and also told my friend help me sign out...lol...so shuang...then...go home...blah blah blah...a maths tuition...kept talking to clarence and madison...clarence's a really nice guy...as in fwen la...ppl who know me well, tt's the way i socialise...and...i dunno y i socialise mostly with guy...but clarence is really a nice and understanding guy...not like...most of the guys...sigh...kk...then...go home...parents quarrel...aiya dunno la...dunch wanna say le...buai......

......y must you do this to me...everytime you talk to me my heart melts...you kept hinting me...making me misunderstood...the more i talk to you the happier i get, the happier mood i am in...but the truth came out...you were just acting...pretending...you know it hurts me? it hurts me so deeply it tears...my heart tears...it is still tearing...not stop...ripping into pieces...every night i recall the good times we had together...everynight i cried...but does anyone know? do you know? no...no one knows...you do not know...i keep it in myself...i kept the burdern to myself...it feels so heavy...so heavy i've fell...fell so badly i've hurt myself...both emotionally and physically...do you know how it feels? does anyone know how it feels? no...no one knows...you do not know...i know it has been a very long time...you can get over it but i can't...i just can't...it's been months but i just can't get over it...ppl laugh at me for being so silly to continue loving a guy that does not love me nor appreciate it...but can i help it? no...i can't control my heart, can't control my brain, can i? it's just so pain that i can't stand it anymore...i have to cry it out...but who do i cry to? i've got no one to cry to...only myself...myself...me myself and i...you think it's funny...i tell you...it's not...i cry for you...i grieve for you...but do you not? i bet not...my tears are just uncontrollable...so uncontrollable it just flows non stop...i can't hold it...not anymore...you might not know who you are...or maybe you do...you might not even bother to come here to read this...so y should i bother? but my heart tells me i still love you...but i just can't stand it anymore...my heart has been ripped into pieces...pieces that can't be ripped anymore...you made me give up on love...you made me irritated...you made me so fustrated...but do you know? no...someone help me...can someone lend me a shoulder to cry on? i dun think so...can anyone lend me their ears? i dun think so...i think i shall just let my heart continue ripping until i've dropped dead...till then...then will you realise how deep my love was for you......

this post is to all the people coming to the bbq party at my house in the june hols...

date--> 25friday / 26saturday / 27sunday of june (pls vote and tell me! thx!)
time--> anytime you want in the evening....around 4pm - 5.30pm like tt start
venue--> my house! if you guys dunno where then meet me at kembangan MRT
at around 5 pm...i'll bring you guys to my home!
what to bring--> yourself!
what to wear--> just wear casual clothes...if you staying over night, pyjamas
please!!!!!

tt's practically all for now...the above is not really confirmed but i'll update the information like...once in a while so no worries! ;)

lol...today kena scolding by xie lao shi...not only me la...but mainly is me jojo and zi han i think...coz three of us run away from her...not together la...but...as in really RUN from her...lol...joo hong even say wad i train running is to train running away from teachers...hahahaha...very farnie...-.-"...kk...then first time i go eng tuitorial...bout wad technology shit...kk...the A.I. movie damn nice worx...i wanna go buy...daddy! money! haha...then after tuitorial go back class kena do test...chinese test...lol...theni pass up blank paper...coz i dunno any shit...not really blank la...i wrote shit inside but sure all wrong...go get wad shit egg come back...woah...i today very shitty...lol...then my contacts very irritating lohx...pain like shit...lucky thursday gonna make new pair...talking bout thursday, i dun need go sports day! whaha...my daddy let me dun go...lol...he gonna tell my auntie write excuse letter for me...coz i go her shop check up eye wad...true wad...lol...then tuition...me and adeline and sarah-ann ok le...but i talk to her more la...adeline dunno y like...bit quietz...no lahx...she got talk...think coz i pao qi her...but adeline yesterday pao qi me also lohx...wa lao...dun care her la...the truth shall set you free...so one day the truth will be known...then after tuition myren told me apologize to sarah-ann but i thought sarah-ann wanted to apologize to me first????? nvm...haha...then i saw fiona and tom come up...wa lao tom saw me still dao me...then i say "wa lao tom you dao me..."...then he turn back then he laugh then say hi then say sorry...lame shitter...kk...then go home la...now at home...like d-uh...then cannot g running coz both moma and papa go out...so...hai...every tuesday cannot run...holy shit...kk...then moma told me today papa nearly fell down when alighting from the bus...pa...muz take carex...i cannot take it if anything really happens to you (*****!!!!!!!!!!CHOI!!!!!!!!!!*****)...but if anything really happens to you (*****!!!!!!!!!!CHOI!!!!!!!!!!*****), i'm willing to do anything for you to make you happier or healthier...that includes donating my heart to you...serious k...dun laugh...kk...me now beli sad lehx...pa...take carex...

timing--> today never run
weight--> 53.5 (*****!!!!!!!!!!......sigh......!!!!!!!!!!*****)

......today...in sch...think nothing much la...bit of headache...then after sch go home...went running...too hot...cannot run fast...so in the end just run fun fun onli...then bathe then tell mi daddy send me go mavis...then wa lao...timothy tell me go there so early then in the end he only talked to me a bit then dao me...kk...nvm...then my tuition start...i did the homework already...then adeline sped through the homework...then we go out rest...then go back...do another paper...then we finish together very early...then go out rest again...then go back again listen teacher go through...me and mis ng...k la...dun wanna have any more disputes with her...then me and albert ok le...friends again...hehx...then...after tuition go home...then on the way home i only ask when make new contacts then my parents say wad i rushing them then say wad today should go...wad fucking shit lohx...:X...i only ask when right...kk...then now...i use comp awhile only then my moma say i very proud never study...dun come and talk all these fucking shit with me lahx...when i study you never say anything...when i never study you say i proud...knn...kk...:X...zip...wa lao...moma want to use comp...bloody...nvm...aiya bye bye la...wa lao......

woah...OUCH PAIN!!!!! haha no lahx...not me...is all those kidney failure patients and those performers today...woah siao ehx...they every year...perform more and more dangerous performance...PAIN!!!!! kk...just now me run...timing...16:35:47...improved a little only...woah...i bo xim right today arhx...wa lao...i see sharon au performe i pain xia...wa lao...she xiao ehx....kk...then...the badminton match...is netherlands vs china girls single...netherlands win...woah...i wanted china to win...kk tt one nvm...then after tt china vs korea boys double...i wanted china to win...coz china damn strong k...really strong lo...they smack strong and the react fast...but korea react fast...then dunno how...korea won...SHARON AU!!!!! OUCH!!!!!! aaah.....dun tok le la...i hope sharon au is okiex...kk...buai......

timing--> 16:35:47
weight--> 43.5kg (*****!!!!!!!!!!sigh!!!!!!!!!!*****)

......today i very guai worx...haha...wait wait...today tuition i didn't buy coffee for daiyu...can't be bothered already la...he always come earlier than me yet he dun wanna buy himselz...idiot...nvm...then horx...i think he likes gracecia!!!!! haha...then nothing much la...break time only drank milo...dunno y not hungry...then help michelle write the music notes for her...lol...then after eng tuition got tt bitch's e maths extra lesson...then wee yong and xin hua keep budging in...then stoopid xin hua...juz coz i say bye bye to wee yong when he close door xin hua say i like him...then wee yong stoopid stoopid go believe...this shows how immature guys are...even at 16...lol...so if i say bye bye to my best fwen zhi yin means we lesbian ar??? use your brain la xin hua...dun come and talk all this fucking shit...oh no...first one today...slap my mouth...kk...then after tt go home le...i very guai worx!!!!! i do my homework lehx...haha...tt's wad mi mummy say...stoopid la she...she never see me do homework b4 mehx...oh yah horx...she never...coz i do homework at night one then she never see...lolx...then now slacking la...stoopid mama's fish over there jumping...trying to get out of the tank...y not i give tt fish a hand and throw him out of the window??? hehx...no la...later mama cry...lol...mr tortuise...still alive!!!!! wierd...but the shell so soft...woah...heart pain arhx...then moma arhx, if i see you in my room later you die for me to see...lolx...now watching badminton match on chanel 22...juz now korea vs china...double...china lousy lohx...no wonder korea win...if korea get good opponent i think they lose lohx...coz both side also lousy...haha...then now china vs...taiwan i think...single...aiya i want china to win la...not coz i sympathise them but coz now this china player bloody strong...world no. 1 lehx...kewlx...kk...i go watch le...tonight then update on any other news...oh ya!!!!! tonight arsenal vs newcastle 11pm!!!!! i hope arsenal lose xia...lolx...kk...i go watch badminton game liaox...buai......

MANCHESTER UNITED WON!!!!!!!!!! YAY MAN!!!!! GIVE ME FIVE!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!! haha...i crazy liao...kk here's the score: birmingham 1 manchester united 2...whaha...ben! too bad!!!!! :P

today...hmm...afternoon went to pizza hut for lunch with my papa and moma...we ordered a meal for TWO yet we can't even finish it...lol...then too full...didn't eat dinner...then tuition...then go running...my timing improved sssssssssssssslllllllllllliiiiiiiiiigggggggghhhhhhttttlly...hehx...17:24:00...must improve somemore...sigh...hope got enough time for 2.4...bout that competition...dun thk i can make it le...:(...all thx to my parents...dun let me run one day only i deprove so much le...idiots...nvm...aiya...niwaez, sarah-ann know her wrong doings le...hehx...as long as she's willing to change, i'm willing to accept her as a friend! serious...promise!...so tuesday me gonna apologize to her too for suaning her all ther time...bout adeline...i will try to tok to her la k? but if she cannot accept you...sigh...at least you got me! if she's gonna hate me just coz she thinks you never change and dun like me to be with you, i'm not gonna be-friend such a not understanding girl lohx...friends should be understanding...so...yepx...i understand you...coz you wanna change...coz you know wad you did wrong...thx to myren for talking to her...so yepx! hope you and myren can be together forever!!! ;)

timing--> 17:24:00
weight--> 54 kg (*****!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHH!!!!!!!!!!*****)

still, i have no trust. i still can't trust anybody. is it because of that? because of what happened to me? i myself do not know. if me myself don't even know, what rights have you to tell me the answer? can you imagine the hurt? the hurt in me that seems to never heal? it's been a week. but i'm still myself. still the sad and trust lost self. i may look happier in the outside. you may think i'm over about it and back to my normal self but no. i'm not. this is not the first day you know me. outside i'm happy. but inside i was never. since young. never. all problems have been haunting me. i might be over. but the side effects are showing. everything has it's side effects. everyone faces it. i'm of no exception. the reason i'm always happy on the outside is because i do not want to spoil anyone's day. unless it's to the extreme. i will then break down. infront of you, him, her, they, everybody. can you feel the pain? can you feel the pain in me? no. you can't. just like i can't be in anyone's shoes, no one can be in my shoes. no one will understand. even if you think you do, you do not understand till the roots. no one will. not even my parents nor my close friends. to those whom've consoled, comforted and cheered me up, i thank you. i feel a great sense of gratitude to you guys. but still, the pain is there. ppl say it takes time to heal. maybe not for me. even if it heals, the scar will still be there.

aiya......y the hell m i talking all these shit again...today very hot...buai......

......AAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHH!!!!!!!!!! i've learnt my lesson...that is never to run on the same day as you swam...i just came back from running...i could not run k...my leg felt real terrible...bet it was due to the swimming...my timing was 18:20:56...sigh...deproved...wad to do...tomorrow must really run already...XP...

timing --> 18:20:56
weight --> 53.5 (*****!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHH!!!!!!!!!!*****)

......sho shuang...juz came back from swimming...i swam quite alot...really...in one hour...dunno how many million laps non stop...but one hour only...i see the sky...like gonna rain like tt...no chance i got up and went to change...change come out the sky not so cloudy anymore...i was like...wad the hell...kk...before swimming, when i just woke up, i was expecting a pizza...coz yesterday i already set lo...i told my daddy i want a pizza already and he agreed k...then my fucking moma say want to go eat dian xin...like...wtf...oh shit...2 times already...cannot cannot...kk...continue...then i over there pull a black face with her...i had a quarrel with them...but in the end still have to go eat dian xin la...wad to do...bitches will kill you if you dun do wad they want you to do wad...so wadeva...then wa lao...reach there (TOA PA YOH) still have to queue...you say i angry notx? if never go all the way there i will be eating my pizza already...instead of standing in a line waiting for one pathetic table...pissed with my mum lo...and my dad for not listening to my 'good' advice...so the whole time i pull black face and just eat eat eat...never talk at all...that's called cold war...then they know i angry...good...then they angry with me also...then eat finish i was like "i'm gonna swim later...if you dun bring me there i'll swim non stop n not go home...i'll just swim until i drop...then i go park run until i drop...then i sleep in the park...they laughed...they LAUGHED...so i said "i'm serious k...you dun believe then leave it...i'll do it for you to see..." then i called for dessert then i left...then i think they quickly asked for bill then chased after me...my papa pulled my hands back...then he send me and my moma home and told my moma bring me go swimming...then go swimming...now back...you may think i childish but i'm pissed with my parents lo...this is not the first time k...they go on like that i'll pull black face with them forever...kk...wanna go running already...buai......

got some quizes done again!!!!!


You are...definitely not over him.


Are you over your ex? Your answer with anime pics!
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You are a SERIOUS person. Yeah yeah, fun is fun,
but there's also work to do ryt? You're not
childish at all and you hate being joking
around. Then why are you doing a quiz! LOL ^_~


Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!) NEW outcome!!
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You're the cheerful smile,the one that's truly
happy with almost everything you do and would
never cahnge your life.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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You're normal. Normal?! NORMAL?! Oh SCREW YOU!You
KNEW you were normal when you came here, you
FREAK. GET OUT! GET OUT! *throws you at a bus*


How Depressed are You?
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Shalmaeser Nekura- You're pretty civil to everyone.
You're Kati's brother, calm and level-headed.
Or that's what everyone thinks about you.
Internally you're confused, but outside you
have a commanding prescence that demands
respect.


Which of Kati's Friends On Gaia Are You?
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Parking in a Driveway.You like to just stand around
and listen to music.Or headbang.Or jump
around.Or work out in the garage..or take food
from the pantry of the house you're hanging
at.Disturbing the peace is what you'd be
charged with if the neighbors were jerks,but
thankfully, they like your music so they put up
with you.


What Kat3 Past-Time Are You?
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your asshole.


What swear word are you?
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You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!


What kind of kiss are you?
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You are the Figher Femme


Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!

Please rate ^^


What kind of dark person are you?
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Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
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What type of eyes do you have?
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'Complete Psycho' PLEASE VOTE!!!


What Type of Lunatic are You?
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You are totally in love.You try to hide it but you
cant.You are nice and pritty in your own way
and you are a bit of a daydreamer.Have fun and
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Are you in love?
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You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
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Which kind of candy are you?
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blah...i'll stop here for now...actually got alot more...but too tired le...see the time...maybe quite early la...but i also dunno y...just now went out to have a stroll with my parents...sho boring xia...running more fun lo...but parents scared i appendixture then dun allow me to run...sigh...now bloody bored...dunno y me watching meteor garden 2...wierd...watched it before...but nvm la...since watching now so continue watch lo...got the vcd lehx...hehx...wierd horx...after this thing end le i wanna sleep le...then tomorrow early in the morning go running while my moma go tai ji and my papa...dunno him la...haha...me go watch meteor graden 2 le! buai......

......today lotsa peepx say i crazy...they say i run too much...lol...no lo...you see me papa's friend's daughter...she also run everyday wadx...but dunno how far she run...hmm...then recess tt timez i told zhi yin i wanna go swimming on saturday but parents cannot swim...then she say she wannna go wif me!!!!! yayx!!! but at nights...aiyo...you really no time or scared the sun??? haha...ka la...jk la...then nothing much happened lo...me and doris keep changing places...change already change back...and continue...lol...ppl say we crazie...haha...coz doris want to help tina for a maths and everything...so i sit with chin wei...lol...then physics lesson...me sleep...hehx...then matthew sabo me...ask me answer mr gan's question...at least i know the answer lehx...lol...kk...then nothing much happened...then come home le...blah...dunno la...later at night must run...yayx...and for that roy, i must time myself...you see la...you sho mah fan...haha...jkjk......

yawnz...hmm...today...in sch...also nothing much happened la...i got group for music project le...hmm...must work hards for this also...then in sch got slight headache...muz be luz nites run too much...then lib duty...i did a lil shelfing...then continued slacking...coz my headache...was getting kinda worse...i climb up and down the stairs really damn difficult...then after duty mi moma sent me home...i wanted to use comp but moma say go bathe then have dinner then go for tuition...during tuition...i wasn't concentrating much...coz i knew tt chapter already...then i made a new fwen!!!!! his name is clarence...he sec 4 de...but he join sec 3 class coz he thinks his maths no goods...warhx...sho hardworking...and mr ng ar...sorry arx...today bit noisy in ur cluz...coz i know the chapter alrd wad...sorry la...i will still work hard for ya...kiex? sorry la...then i heard sarah-ann go find KC gang worx...sho scared xia...lol...you find gang i find parents and friends and adeline find her sch fwenz...2 against 1 lehx...you say who win...lmao xia...shoooooooooo scared!!!!! aaaaargh!!!!! childish...gang gang la...stoopid xia...no wonder your bf dun like you and wanna play you only...lol man...aiya...dun talk bout her already la...spoils my mood xia...horx...lol...then got home...changed...went for running again...this time i ran 2.24 km non stop lehx...never rest worx...heez...sho happy...great improvement...today run two rounds...tomorrow must run three rounds...then four then five then blah blah blah until i become a good runner...then go take part in the joo chiat competition...i not running for the competition la...i was just trying to keep fit...then ppl say i also should train for 2.4...then i say okiex...then i saw the banner...siglap and joo chiat cc having competition...every month...so when i think i good enough i will go join...yayx...got price take also...hope is money...then give my parents to save in the family income...so my parents can continue enjoying their activities like karaoke, tai ji, line dance bla bla bla...hehx...now must study hard...

......heyhey!!! muahahahaha...just now physics tuition me and adeline suan sarah-ann alot...haha...then halfway through tuition myren and jarryl went toilet...then we continue suaning sarah-ann...until she bui ta han say she go tiolet...then she take the key for very long...then the admin azlin even came in and asked for the key...whaha...thk her shit cannot come out...:X...kk...then once she's out the whole class suaned her lo...not only me and adeline against her k...lol...then dorcia said she close to her is ACT one...she then dun like tt kinda "friend"...if she's ever fit to be one...lol...then myren ar, whether or not you angry also i dun care...coz you were the one who ask me to suan MORE...and i also wanna suan her wadx...so...yepx...aiya...gang? you think gang can settle the whole thing mehx? if can then y just now never find gang to find me and adeline? lol man...kill us also no use...we can come haunt you or wadeva shit...the hatred will still be there wad...use your brain and think la...oops...maybe you dun haf brain...whaha...then went home...wanted to use comp...then moma and papa say they wanna go stroll at the park...sorta a exercise for old peepx...so i say i wanna go along...they shock xia...haha...then i jogged lehx!!! I JOGGED!!!!! yayiez!!!!! i ran for 2.2 km NON STOP and walked for 1.1 km...ok la...no continuous...i ran for 1.1 km NON STOP then eat snake for a while...then continue running for 1.1 km NON STOP...then walk another 1.1 km then met my parents...then halfway we met dogs...mi moma sho scared she grabbed mi hand...then mi papa act as bodyguard walk infront...sho farnie xia...lol...then go homez...then mi realised that mi muscle cram and stomache cram...waaaaa...sho pain...cannot squat toilet bowl alrdi...sit on toilet bowl oso got probx...hehx...go up the stairs must use crawlz one...go down the stairs must jump wif straightz legx one...hehx...this shows how weak i am...:P...so must run every night to make myself fit...only monday and friday and sunday cannort...coz tuition on monday and friday nights and ballet on sunday nights...doesn't mean other days no tuition worx...is in evening or afternoon...so at night can run...hehx...must be fit le!!! hehx...then can train for 2.4 too...wua...yi ju liang de lehx...kewlz...so must be realli fit le!!!!! hehx...

......today i kena counselling again...dammit...like...wa lao...k la...at least get to pon chinese...dunnit to listen to tt xie lao shi talk cock...then blah blah blah...nothing much la today...dunno y i feel a lil down...maybe coz of something...something...something tt i dun wanna say...coz...i wouldn't wanna hurt myself even more...i shall just let everything pass by me like nothing happened...although i'm hurt, i have to pretend i m not...but by saying it out here, i might read it again one day and tt will make me hurt even more...so...i shall just let go...i shall let the butterfly free...let it breathe and fly freely...the burden shall only be with me...and not with any other innocent friends of mine...sigh...and to arthur, sorry for ignoring you for so long...i didn't mean it...i just wanted to be alone...although i was not...but...i still can't make it...i think...you are still too good for me...and to my friend...if you know who you are, i'm not close to her anymore...i can't help you...i always wanted to help you...coz i know you're my friend and i really do wanna help you...but now...i'm not close to her anymore...so it's abit difficult for me to help you...the least i can help now is to give you the support...give you the luck...i will be behind your back seeing you advancing step by step closer to her...so...good luck...now...sigh...dunno la...i've got another friend, he just broke up with his girlfriend of 4 years ++...hope he's ok...cheer up my friend...i'm not sad for the whole day...just tt...i dunno la...when i'm happy i'm truely happy...but now...i really dunno......

......hmm...just now tuition...lucky tt guy not there...dun wanna meet him...anita wasn't there...sigh...hope she and her baby's okie...then tuition start...me and adeline over there keep saying cheryl and ms ng's bad words...haha...then ms ng say wad she dun like ppl who fake friendship...trying to say me then say la...i never faked before lo...who wanna fwen you...think before you say...and fwenz out there, you may think i acting big again...but i really can't stand this teacher...nvm...dun talk bout these kinda things...life should be happy...then after tuition saw mr anthony ng outside doing science experiment for his p6 science class...he damn farnie...haha...then went down the lift with adeline, small alex and their mom...then now at home...yawnz...dunno la...life goes on...so...wadeva buai......

today morning...talked things with mdm rose...although things are clear already i still dun trust her...i can't trust anyone, not even myself or my close friends, how you expect me to trust mdm rose? the only ppl i can relate to now is mr soon and my parents...then had lessons...me and huan yuet and samantha and yi ting okie le...yay...christine also start talking to me again...karen a little...but...sigh...dunno la...then after sch mi moma sent hui ying home...hmm...now at home...waiting for 7.30 to come...although i dun really want to go mavis for today...y must monday come so fast?!?!?! i hate mondays now...i'm sorry but i just can't get over the hurt you gave me...you made me lose the trust in everybody...you made me hurt terribly...how can you expect me to get over this big thing and forgive you? your friends might have forgave you coz they didn't feel the hurt as much as i do...sorry but i just can't forgive you...impossible...ok...aiya y talk those things again...should make life happy...wad's done is done...wad's past is past...so...yapx...in the mean time...again, i wanna thank jin wen gorrrrrr and mr kelvin ng...mr soon, mummy, zhi yin and eunice for giving me the support to be brave and make me wanna continue my journey full of obstacles...kk...i know i've said it for millions and millions of times...but i really wanna show my gratitude towards you guys...esp jin wen gorrrrr...coz he really did try to cheer me up and indeed i cheered up...thx man gor...:)

......blah blah blah...bought coffee for daiyu...blah blah blah...nothing happened during tuition for today...after tuition, i went to my grandma's house...when i reached there, they were burning those hell notes and houses for my grandpa...sigh...grandpa, may you rest in peace...i didn't have the time to really remember his looks before he left...i only had a few chances to look at him before he left...when he left...i was merely 1 year old...ah gong, wo hao xiang ni...ni zai na li...wo ai ni...kk...then i had lunch at my grandma's house, slept for awhile...my grandma and daddy say i sleep like a pig...oh...my grandma's my mum's mum...then i changed into my ballet costume there and left for tap dancing and modern and ballet...i did not join the grade 4 modern...wad's the point when i just stand there with no one helping me...i learn nothing...so y waste my time? then i joined the grade 2 tap...blah blah blah...then ballet...pei yu joined ballet with us!!!!! yay!!! but debbie vomited halfway through lesson...poor girl...hope she's okie...worried for her xia...didn't talk much today...dunno y...didn't have the mood i guess...was in a quite bad and sad mood...then i did my reflections of the week...i felt really betrayed...the trust just ain't there anymore...aiya y am i talking all these shit...it's over...in the mean time...still trying to get over the lost in trust and everything...wad's the homework???

......woah...mr peck...the vp...his chinese...:O...k la...his chinese is damn good k...his speech...damn fluent lo...although not perfect like a chinese dj or news reporter but it's million times better than mr yue's chinese lo...mr peck over there making this speech...bout "O"s results...bout the performance and wadeva...mr yue just stood there in one corner...like...wad the hell...then the parents teacher meeting...my moma and i talk to mr gan...can't be bothered to write down wad he said...but mr gan was very nice la...to say the truth...then after tt had laksa...hehx...so nice...yumx...haha...then went for tuition...i went to get a drink at starbucks with madison...then got a hair band for ballet...then tuition started...mr ng comforted me and all...i told him i solved the problem already...with my mum and discipline master Mr Soon...he said "wow..tt's my hero...i mean heroine...must cheer up k? got any problems can find me again also...or any other teachers...we are more than willing to help you..."...so i said yapz...then i smsed him "things are not always as it appears to be although i AM feeling better now"...then he said "oh come on..." and gave me a smile...mr ng, i really wanna thank you for being by my side all the time when i feel down...you're a really great and caring teacher and fwen...not only mr ng la...jin wen gor, mr fadhil, mr kalai, zhi yin, adeline and many many more...you guys are the one tt made me have the feeling tt life ain't tt bad after all...then madison told me tt anita was talking bout me to those sec 4 guys...i guess is daryl tom and danny...madison say anita say wad i got gang or wadeva shit...like...wa lao...i where got lo...my friends got gang not me wad...y say i got gang...then i told madison tt these few days got lots of happenings...those happenings have taught me not to trust anyone at all...like anita...i tell her one thing she tian you jia cu say another thing to other ppl...and alot of other ppl...i'm not gonna trust anyone anymore...maybe zhiyin or my parents...but...not totally trustable...i hope you guys will understand...then madison say wad sarah-ann ask her friend's gang come find baoying adeline and me...pls lo...baoying is innocent k...and so wad if adeline and i insulted you? you also insulted us k...wad can your friend's gang do to us? make us frightened until we must listen to you? pls lo...you were the one who caused your own boyfriend not to come for physics tuition and hate you lo...kk...dun wanna waste my time on tt infiniti timer...go around flirting with other guys still tell her boyfriend...wad a flirt...then after tuition...went to eat out...then my moma and daddy say diao means fuck in hakka and cantonese...aiya...wadeva la...then now at home...just realised i hurt my left foot...cannot walk properly without pain...but hai...wad to do...still must walk wad...if not how to "travel" from place to place? haha...kk...sian already...got latest news then update again...buaiz......

......this morning my dad woke me up...woke up with a terrible headache...whole body aching...then the air-con repair men came...i did my homework downstairs...then my dad tell me to look at how they service the air-con...something which i've seen for millions of times every year...so i said i wanna do my homework instead...he scolded me...i was like...k...wadeva...then mum came back...i had my breakfast...now nothing to do so i came online...sian...later have to go to sch for tt dunno wad talk...mr soon already said i dun have to go if i dun want to...my mum insists on pulling me...sigh...tt talk is practically a waste of my time...bout "O"s...i know quite well already coz every year i've got fwenz graduating in sec 4 and they always teach me on this and that bout "O"s and wad jc or poly or wadeva shit...then they also talking bout the esplanade performance...like...huh...this topic parents listen can already wad...we students listen to it all the time whenever mr yue or any teacher give speach on it...bored man...i really dun wunna go to tt parents meeting session lo...but since mr gan said i should go to help him with more "information" on those guys (eg. wei da)...so...i go la...yawnz...now my moma tell me stop using blog...say wad in case i wrote any of my secrets in there or wadeva shit...i will not lo...i only write wad happened where when why...since i know this thing is opened to the public y should i be writing my secrets inside? i'm not so dumb la...pls...hai...i dun wunna go to sch......

......kk...i'm writing this for Huan Yuet and Samantha...and maybe to some others that i might have offended in some ways...i wanna apologize to wad i did to you guys, wad i did to make you guys upset...about Mr Soon, i already told him that it's ok between me, Huan Yuet and Samantha...i told him and reminded him alot of time...he told me he will talk to both of you nicely...i do not know wad happened coz by then i'm already at home...maybe he punished both of you or wadeva but i really wunna apologize to both of you coz i did not tell him to punish you...i only wanted Mr Soon to talk to both of you...that's all...i sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart......

......today...as in tonight...i mean...aiya just now la...tuition...me and myren ok le...like normal...fwenz...:)...hope in the future no more misunderstandings between me and him...then...like usual class goes on and on and on...glenn never bring his paper...then just nice he sit beside me (like always...)...then Mr Kalai tell me to share paper with him...then share here share there cannot finish the work...see la! have to do hmwk!!! haha...jkjk...then after tuition, myren call me kidnapper again...haha...think everything's back to normal again...thank goodness myren understands me...thx myren :)......

......yay...another day off from sch...my mum and i had a talk with mr soon...he said he will try and solve my problem...he also gave me advices on wad i suggested to him...something which i cannot say...now...or yet...wow man...he surely can go and be a counseller...Mr Soon is a grandpa already!!!!! he grandson is...14 months...if i remembered it correctly...man...Mr Soon is really a nice man...yeh so...got another day off...hope i can cope with my studies by the time i get back to sch next monday......

......kk...whether or not this is true, i shall not pursue this matter...at some point i might be in the wrong...so i'm sorry...but about mr soon, now it's a little too late...but i'll explain clearly......

......sigh...trying to get tim to stop me from talking to mr soon? isn't it like too late...mr soon already know bout it...so it's still no use...you say i fake never go to sch? i got MC lo...go ahead and hate me...if you want me to die, i won't die...if you don't want me to die and want me to suffer, i'll be strong for you to see...i might be weak at some times but i have my strong side too......

......juSt tAlkEd tO my Mum...LovE ya LotX maN...toMorRow Mr sOon TolD me To gO fiNd hIm aNd tAlk To hIm...yAy...hE's gIviNg mE a cHanCe tO taLk...fInaLly...AftEr tHreE yeArs...GonNa sMs mY goR noW...my Mum TolD me To sLeeP...goOd iDea...So...bUai......

......blah blah blah...i dun wanna waste anymore of my time talking bout those things tt happened...wad for? life should be happy...yeh man happy...didn't go sch today...one BIG main reason is coz seeing those guys in sch will only make my eyes rot badly...so i'm staying at home to get my eyes prepared for tomorrow...another reason is i'm sorting out my problems...with who i'm not gonna tell...third reason is i faked my parents i've got a headache and flu this morning...headache might not be real but the flu is for real...went to the doctor's...got my medicine and MC...cool man...kk i need to talk to my parents...mum i mean......