Where Are You

Where were you when I needed you so badly? Where are you now that I want you the most? Where's the stuff toy you promised to buy me? Where're the shoes you promised to bring? When will you show me how to bowl? Why must you leave all of a sudden?

You brought me out to so many places when I was young. You brought me out for lunch at Leisure Park. I walked pass a closed gift shop and was jumping at the huge soft toy at the window. You smiled and carry me and said "The shop is closed! I'll get it for you another time ok?" You brought me to the bowling alley and I jumped up and down begging for you to show me a game or two of bowling. You said "I didn't bring my bowling shoes! I'll show you the next time when I bring them ok?" You promised so many promises. And all of a sudden you're gone.

Just when I was about to forget you totally, the policemen came one morning, telling Daddy you've passed on. The whole day in school I couldn't study. I couldn't listen to anyone. I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't get you out of my mind. I couldn't get your promises out of my mind. I was only 14. I had to deal with that impact. It just blew me off my feet. I couldn't handle the impact. There you lay in the coffin. Half the size you used to be. No longer carrying the smile you once carried. No longer looking fit. No longer looking fit enough to carry me in your arms. You looked so frail. White hair and all. Tears went out of control. I just didn't know what to do all of a sudden. Lost for words, lost for everything. Everywhere was darkness. Nothing to guide me on anymore.

Hated bowling alleys, loved huge soft toys. Loved huge soft toys because I thought it was a gift from you from up above. Hated bowling alleys because you're not there to teach me. Hated Leisure Park because it reminded me of the way you carried me in your arms. Leisure Park's gone now. Torn down. Memories of us are gone. Here I am now in Australia, missing you. Reminiscing on the days we enjoyed. The temple your ashes lay in. I miss you so much. So fucking much. Where are you?

Nobody understands. Nobody.

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na la la la na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you

signing off~RYNETTA