i really dunno how to start my entry today...should i start with "omg everything looks blur coz..."...or should i start with "why can't my parents just understand me for once?" or should i start with "mr kalai gave me a friendly lecture today..."? hai...i feel so messed up for today...well...let me juz start from this morning in sch...started off with english...we did the captur a ghost compre...then miss chan showed us part of "the others"...i dunno why but...i dun find it scary at all...maybe i expected a better one? i dunno...then...cme...the teacher damn farnie...then...a maths...quiz...my answers same as yiting and chun chen...is tt a good sign or bad? i dunno but a good one i hope...then...recess...ate hor fun...then...chinese...same things...then...chem...finally roughly understood the lesson...history...copy a whole load of history of china...made my eyes so tired...then...go home...sleep...dinner...tuition...went popular to buy cd and pens first...i bought busted's album...second one and bought pens la...then...i ran up the stairs...firstly to avoid daryl and secondly coz i'm running late...then i ran up i saw my dad...he was looking for me...as i was late i juz said "i went popular to buy pens" then i ran into the classroom...then...i sms-ed my dad and explain to him...then...mr kalai gave me a friendly lecture...he says i get influenced easily...and i should spend more time studying...i explained to him bout my parents thinking i never studied...coz when i studied they treat it as if i'm not...when i dun they started nagging...then...he say...i should learn to please them...you think i never tried meh...i tried for 15 whole years...then...nvm...lesson...after lesson go home...my parents juz dun understand me anyway so wad's the point?...hai...i was saying everything looks blur coz i'm wearing my coloured contacts and coloured contacts no astigmatism...then...yeh...but still ok la...wtf my dad nagging again...wtf lorh...WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS JUZ FUCKING HELL UNDERSTAND ME FOR ONCE?!?!?! is it better to have pens out of ink and unable to write a single shit note or homework or is it better to go late to class and at least be able to get the notes and homework done?! wtf nvm...then...hai...now at home lorh...juz gotten rid of my dad...hai...i'm like in such a mess...relationship...trust between parents...wtf is wrong with my life?! wtf did i do in my past lives to make God do all these to me?! wtf wtf wtf i dunno why but i'm full of wtf today...hai...i still hate my life...thx for the msg, stanley but...as you can see...yeh...then...hai...here 'm gonna show some lyrics..."i don't want you back" from eamon (it's full of vulgars so hope you guys dun mind) and "my happy ending" by avril...these two juz shows how i feel for now..."i don't want you back" from eamon is a song to tell JC how much i hate him for now...and "my happy ending" is to tell albert how i feel...and i actually still do love him...seriously do...alot...hai......

I Don't Want You Back - Eamon

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
You burnt bitch, i heard the story
You played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
You're just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Your question, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its over, but i do admit i'm sad
It hurts real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah


My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh, oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
oh oh, oh oh, oh...