aaargh...i dunno why but when it comes to sunday i always have bad mood...tt's why i hate sundays...coz of mr fadhil and coz of ballet...wth...kk...there was supposed to be another entry last night but my comp juz suddenly shut down and i didn't save the bloody thing so everything is gone...RIGHTS...well...i went for tuition like wad i said...then...i understood the first half of the lesson but i had not a single idea wad mr ng was trying to teach on the second half of the lesson...mr ng help me...mr ng also gave me a friendly lecture like mr kalai did and he asked me why i went for physics so late...and only until then did i realise how much mr ng, mr kalai and miss angie lie care bout me...like...omg...i'm so sorry...and i'm sincere...i swear i am...then...hai...he kept encouraging me not to care bout daryl...kept encouraging me to study hard...kept encouraging me to be strong...i was so close to tears i tell you...but ok la...then...madison and i kept passing notes...but it's like...we are only side by side so does it still count? i hope so...then...we talked bout how cute and sweet daniel was, how shy and cute joel was and how sucky and bitchy tt selinah was...n i spell her name as selinahhhhh coz i hate her...k fine both of us do...then...i mean joel seriously is damn shy quiet and cute lorh...he laughs without a sound according to madison...lol...then...daniel,...he's so so gentlemanly...he's so polite...so forgiving...so understanding and stuff...i swear i've never met any guy as sweet as he is...like...one in a million! i can even say he's more gentlemanly then daniel...although daniel burped once in class...but tt was farnie lol...and the daniel i'm saying is the one in mavis tutorial centre taking a maths tuition and is from tanjong katong secondary school and NOT in tt lousy montfort sec...i'm not critisizing tt sch...k fine sorry but there is one guy in there that is really lousy...and he's daniel wongm deborah's good damn brother...kk...then..blah blah blah...dinner...go home...here i am...damn i managed to emphasize on everything yesterday but i forgot wad i wrote! holy cow...kk...then...this morning...i woke up on time larh but i took my time while i was bathing coz i dun see the point of going to tuition early...coz i dun like mr fadhil not to beat around the bush...kk...then...aaargh...daiyu and i passed notes bout how gay terence is...n terence was like sitting so darn close to daiyu lorh...i'm so sorry for daiyu man lol...and...i like daiyu's hat...so punk...haha...punk...reminds me of leon...haven't seen him online for quite some time...he kept going "with my hairstyle you must say PUNK'D in a PUNK'D way...if not punk'd punk'd punk'd, pubk'd wad?" lol...he was so farnie...and cool...miss him...kk...then...where was i? oh...and...haha...fadhil was kinda pissed coz we passed notes but after a while we got sick of it and didn't write notes anymore...then...compre i was quite slow and fadhil told me off...and (FINALLY) i managed to talk back at fadhil...i was like "so? at least i do right?" um...kk here it goes:

fadhil: hey look do it quick why are you so slow?
de xin: so? at least i do rite?
fadhil: tt's not the point you're not concentrating
de xin: who says so? what rights have you to say tt? do you know me better than i
myself do?!
fadhil: kk juz do your work alright?
de xin: wadeva la

haha! to you all it's no big deal but fadhil is one kinda guy tt you will find difficulty in talking back on him coz when he makes you angry he'll know it and he'll kinda make you not angry but this time no man...haha...kk...then...break...cheese fries...then...i msg daiyu (b4 tt i was telling daiyu fadhil can't do anything to me bout being slow)...here it goes:

de xin: sian seriously wad can he do to me lorh...do i look wierd today with my tt
coloured contacts?
daiyu: at least repect mah (somethinglike tt can't remember)
de xin: he don't deserve MY respect...the word respect is made not to be abused ya
noe
daiyu: tt i have no comments (something like tt can't remember)

yah and oh yah i was wearing coloured contacts...i'm gonna wear it to ballet too...see wad they're gonna say...they as in my ballet friends, mrs skipp and miss chew...then...go back...blah blah blah...then...come home...blah blah blah...i also told my mum i wanna quit ballet after grade 8...she said my wish...my wish then...can i quite NOW?! no cannot...tt'll be a waste...rights? yeh...so my ambition as a ballerina obviously do not exist anymore...so my ambition as an air stewardess still exists...or maybe police...coz i find it real cool being a police and it's like...doing a good job for the citizens but i dun thk it'll be possible...my mum is like nagging like a crappy shit now...say wad if i dun eat lunch i'll have no energy to dance...not coz i no energy larh wa lao is coz i no interest...still say you understand me BULLSHIT...kk...sian larh wa lao...damn pissed today lorh...dunno y also...oh ok...i was also trying to say last night tt i feel real guilty and i wanna "dedicate" the song guilty by blue to my tuition teachers...ofcoz the lyrics in there dun telly but at least they know i'm guilty...rights?


Guilty - Blue

[VS 1 - (DUNCAN)]

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[VS2 - (SIMON)]

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - [LEE])
I never wanted to live a lie

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do [Duncan]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind [All]
Gulity [Lee]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
I'm prepared to testify [Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside [Lee]
If loving you with all my hearts a crime [All]
I'm Guilty [Duncan]