i said i was gonna post entries on tuesday, wednesday and thursday right? here it is

Tuesday Night

today...physics tuition...tt's why i didn't attend the history remedial...man i think i missed a whole lot! damn...nvm...well...i wore that OP spaghetti stripes top and that black mini skirt...exactly the same as sarah-ann...but she had a sweater on and i was like, "DAMN! i should have done the same!" alex, being in a single sex sch, st pats sec = SPS = small penis society, was like "de xin can you like put something over that attire?!" i wish i could but i've got nothing to put on! rights...then alex kept asking miss angie lie stupid questions...miss angie lie was getting a little agitated, we learned about heat capacity...kinda like...ok lahx...at least i understand...yehx...then daryl saw me and sarah-ann...he was doing this action that shows "ego big and thick skinned"...how did i know? there was i point of time where the Mavis office was daryl's and my second home...as in not together but it just happened that both of us treat it as our second home (seperatly) coz of family prob...we were never even friends b4 (THANK GOD)...yeh so i kinda like know what some of his actions and codes mean...how silly to let ppl in the office know wad his actions and codes meant...well anyway yeh so wad? that's what you THINK...i ego big and thick skinned so wad? what has it got to do with you? the more you think of us that way the more i'll wear the way YOU THINK is ego big and thick skinned...i'm not even an aquintence of yours what rights have you to care bout wad i wear? your ego damn big also lorhx...you go around commenting on other ppl who don't even know your fuckingly insignificant existance...you think you damn shuai meh...mrs ng only said tt for the sake that you would stay in the office and provide everyone with cold jokes due to the hot climate out there...you get it? i dun think your pea brain do...HECK...it'll be VERY GREATLY APPRECIATED if you could mind your own fucking business for once man! man why did God let this kinda person exist in this world at all?! Gosh...kk then go home...didn't wanna run coz during PE i ran around the lake twice with sherry...the thing is, when i was in sec 1 & 2, after running just one round around the lake i'm close to collapsing...yeh my stamina was tt bad! but now i can run two rounds and still feel fresh as ever, able to continue much more...yeh wadeva...yeh then lazy to go online so i just went straight to sleep...

Wednesday

early in the morning daddy go china...=(...i miss him...hai...sch...nothing much ba...then...after sch...lib duty...slack again lorh haha...didn't order pizza coz no money and no appetite...then halfway we tell auntie molly we go toilet but we go canteen buy water and slack...i buy kikapoo and treat geraldine water also...so yeh...then go back...read books and chat and drink and eat...haha we librarians get to eat in the lib coz...i also dunno why...but only can eat at the counter...=P...so yeh...after duty go home lorh...nothing much...

Thursday

today...nothing much also...sch...then...after sch...PFT...2.4...damn! guess wad i failed...coz chin wei said she fail...so aiya...tuesday rerun lorh...since i run better in mornings...then go home...slp...dinner...tv...slp...=P pig...

kk back to today...today woke up RAIN...wth...so cannot swim lorh...then i was kinda agitated larh coz it always rains on saturday mornings when i wanna go swimming...wth lorh...so i was like...wtf i dun believe you can rain the whole day! i'm going swimming in the afternoon! then at around 11.30 uncle james came my house to disinfect this lagging state of art...lagging comp larh haha...then i watch tv...he took up to...3 1/2 hours? wow man and he only charge moma 30 bucks...wow man...i expected 100 over bucks lorh...duo1 kui1 shi4 regular customer...hor...he disinfects moma's old work place's comps also mah...sinsin food industry...yeh...now TAN family has nothing to do with tt company anymore coz it's taken over by heinz and a bunch of crap workers...wth...hai...yeh then uncle james go off...IT'S STOPPED RAINING!!!!! but 3.00pm lerh...WTF...yeh then moma got headache...hai...moma...pls take care of yourself coz i may be able to take care of you but i ain't as good as daddy! man...hai...yeh...then tuition...sarah-ann in RI...then madison and i sat right at the back wondering where joel will sit...madison said he'll sit beside us (as in the row beside) i said he'll sit at the back (there was on more row at the back)...then...he sat beside me...the row beside...FINE!!!!! aaargh haha...kk...then...JOEL JUST WON'T TALK!!!!! i was like...here it goes

dexin: hello

joel: (waves hand)

dexin: talk leh

joel: (smiles and shooked head)

dexin: open your mouth leh

joel: (closes his mouth, smiles and shooked his head)

dexin: want some gum?

joel: (smiled and shooked his head)

dexin: take mentos then

joel: (laugh without a sound, smiled, tooked the mentos *chomp* and

returned the mentos box to me)

dexin: man i give up lol

you see! the dark horse won't talk! even to his friend! aaargh...wednesday muz jiayou again!!!!! then after tuition met moma at yoshinoya...ate dinner...went bossini and got some shirt...i got a black shirt with a "ballet" on it...i dun like ballet anymore i know but the design damn sweet...then i got a red shirt...my parents got the same...so it's my turn! wee! family shirt! yay! we plan to wear it on national day and go shopping...haven't tell daddy larh...wait till he return...hai...i miss daddy...gonna sms him...then...moma bought some shirts too...wanted to get a man's shirt...but the design damn not nice...next time go giordano get family shirt then buy man's shirt there...then...we got lotions for contact lenses...i got this new metal bottle! it's small, compact, sweet and COOL! man i love it...then...go home...use comp...here i am...hope moma gets a good rest...thenn tomorrow morning...AAARGH TUITION AGAIN!!! BALLET AGAIN!!!!! damn...man...aaargh...rights i'm going crazy again...ming ming said hi to me yesterday...after having silent disputes for a year plus...he finally talks to me again...ming ming's my neighbour...he damn shuai now worx...with a damn chio stead somemore...you have me blessings man! wish you luck again! =)...then...oh yah i dun think i should call him ming ming anymore...should call him wah man...nono adrian's easier...yeh...sian larh...byeee

yeh i didn't go online for so long coz lazy lah...haha n busy training for 2.4 and sleeping early so yeh...didn't blog either...lets start from today...well...sch...nothing much actually...recess ate kampong flare...today was actually the very first time i saw zhiyin so panicy and freaked out...she was so worried bout the tickets and stuff...gosh...you've got to learn to relax girl...yeh...then after recess my body started to ache...BADLY...it's not the muscles but my chest and my back just hurt so badly! i juz dunno why either! man...rights...then smsed stanley the whole day today...he couldn't receive the msg where i was trying to tell him my chest and back was aching so badly...heck la...then he smsed me to try and get me to support him tomorrow at ngee ann poly...sorry dude i've got to swim...yeh...then after school...moma fetch me home...then i slack abit...played hp games...then it's like...yeh...at 3.45 i went to bathe...then at 4.30 moma fetch me to dental...obviously i was late coz my dental was supposed to be at 4.30 but i LEFT HOME at 4.30...but once i got there the dentist juz let me into room 2 i think...yeh...then they start polishing...yah right polish...with a screw-driver-like thingy...wth...alright...well...then they say i got cavity tooth...wth...second one! the first one was when i was around...p5? that was like...a milk tooth...i was like...THANK GOD IT WAS A MILK TOOTH!!!!! but tt milk tooth decayed quite badly...the veins isit? something like tt...it was infected too...thank God it finally dropped out...then...aiyah lucky this one not infected yet...still can cover...dunno why doctor vincent do it so well...not pain at all...yeh...then...after the whole thing go home...ran bout 1km...too tired to run 2km...then...go home eat...bathe...tuition...moma hurt her knee...why is it always that moma gets hurt when daddy's not at home?!?!?! daddy come back from china!!!!! AAARGH...then i told moma i dun wanna go tuition i wanna accompany her go to the chinese sinseh...but she said "NO! you said your chemistry dieing so go tuition"...hai...when daddy's not around i thought i'm supposed to take care of moma! nvm larh...go tuition lorh...then...haha chem...mr kalai...forgot to kajiao him today...forgot to call him uncle...but nvm larh...today too tired to joke around with the class...i wonder if yiru and the other guy still coming back for chem tuition...heck larh...then go home...now watching bachelor...BOB CHOSE ESTELLA!!!!! damn! i wanted bob to choose kelly joe remember? but...i think...he chose estella coz...she's more...more of the house wife type? more of the...future family type...yeh...oh n i smsed stanley wierd questions...hehx...lol...guess he's freaked out...BUT IT WAS OUT OF CURIOUSITY!!!!! dun thk too much la k? hhaa kk...i damn sian now...waiting for a call......i'll type bout tuesday, wednesday and thursday tomorrow...if i actually do feel like typing it here...yeh...

sian...today sch nothing much...miss chan was on MC(i think) and apparently everyone is very happy...i'm...neutral? yeh...then...a maths nicola kena scolded by mr kwek...for not paying attention in class...then tutorial...mr soon...he didn't really CONDUCT the tutorial...he showed us a play on the talk by a minister for dunno wad topic...then...he chat...then attendance taking...then supposed to stay back for hist remedial but i didn't coz i got physics tuition...then...yeh...which is later...i'm kinda early now so i get to use a lil of the comp...then...i'm wearing the top and skirt sarah-ann n i bought together...the spaghetti stripes top is kinda like...BIG...i told you sarah-ann to get an S!!!!! now yours is big too ey? haha nvm...still wear la...coz damn nice...very cool...yeh...then...aiya gtg le la...update tonight

rights i didn't blog last night...well...yesterday sunday...morning tuition...got two new students...they damn BIG in size worx...then they also think they very BIG...notorius hai cha bu duo...then they very irritating la...then the whole class (other than kenny coz he's their friends) find them very irritating...so we plan to kick them out of class like the way we did to christopher...but bit impossible la looking at their size...later our legs kena cast arh...kk i'm sacarstic...well...we just plan to make them sit in the middle...daiyu, steven, szepeng and tt malay girl (forgot her name sorry! i'm not be racist) sit infront...then justin and the other guy sit at the side...heck bout kenny...then michelle and i and xiang feng sit at the back...then...YEH! michelle and xiang feng goes quite early...so hope they can cope seats for me...=)...then...go shopping with moma...got EIGHT chicken soup for the soul books...got teenage 2/3...2 books of for the soul 2nd book one for germaine...then...got mother and daughter book...father book...teenage tough stuff...and couple book...tt's a total of eight...with every two books purchased $5 discount...my moma damn happy (expected)...and they gave us eight mugs...eight books eight mugs...moma n i had a difficult time carrying it...then i wanted to buy adidas sports bra...but juz coz the "stripes" were black then moma say no...wth lorh...i can't be a guai gia in your eyes forever wad...then...we went up and down...then went john little...went back to where i got my bra...then it's like...i got a black one...it's a sports bra too...tt's for the top...yeh...the one i bought with sarah-ann...then...i, with all the eight books, walk to joo chiat cc for ballet...did grade 7 coz no one, other than amanda came at first...then slowly xin yan and debra came...four of us...by the end of grade 7 amanda and xin yan went off...then...me and debra...debra wanted to burn somemore fats off but i was dman tired (thx to the books)...so...yeh...saw miss chew's wedding photo...as in the very day of the wedding...not the album thingy...yeh...then go home...then...dinner...sleep...today...sch...nothing much...photo taking at 12.40...then assembly...on life sciences...kinda sian but the future quite good if you study life sciences...but...i dunno if i can cope...or whether they have it in australia or london...yeh...then...after sch daddy fetch me...got 15 bucks from dad...promised to return...then went parkway...met arthur outside pasta mania...then we went in for lunch...he gave me a treat! like omg...i gave ten bucks to the guy at the cashier and arthur was like...give it back to her! and he paid for me...i was like...no!...but hai...he still managed to treat me...like tt time in KFC...oh man...then we ate...we had quite a chat...then he's like...man he's grown! so tall too! like wow...then...he gave me a book...guess wad...it's chicken soup for the soup book one! then after tt i can read the second book...then buy the third book....wow man thx! but i really hope i can return it to you coz it's yours...=)...then...go home...had quite a long talk with sarah-ann on the phone...so sian...then i read finish the Boy Meets Girl by Meg Cabot...nice book...now i can lend karen and read my chicken soup for the soul...yay! then i slept...from 4.30-7.15...cool yeh...then dinner...dun think i'll be running coz it's kinda like dark now...plus i think i'm kinda a lil sick with flu...man i hope i won't be sick on the day of 2.4...i wanna do my best on tt very day! oh man...tired...right and here i am...watching tv with dad too...haha i gave the father book to daddy and he said...i dun want chicken soup! i want duck soup!...i was like...go cook it for yourself, dude....lol...here i am...i'm going off soon...nothing much to do...oh man i need to do the geog work book and study for tomorrow's chinese test! i'm dead meat......

man...today...tuition...hmm...met sarah-ann outside macs at 5...then we went parkway...we both got an OP top...both same colour same design same sign...wow...then tuition...damn sian...so we plan 6.30 leave...so 6.30 we told mr ng tt we have to support madison at an IT competition...ticket 10 bucks at 7...woh he believe! haha...then we siam to parkway...bought a skirt from ice lemon tee...same colour same design and same size again! wee! yeh man! we planning to wear the same thing on tuesday to physics tuition and scare everyone there...yeh babe! hi5!...sarah you rawk ma world...k great i'm going mad again...

hai...juz read miss chan's blog...n realised how much problems she's actually facing...you guys can hate her can dislike her can loathe her but i'm still her friend...i still care for her...i hope  you guys won't hat, dislike, and loathe me juz coz of her...hai...well...this morning...woke up...breakfast...change...swimming...swam 10 laps as usual...which is 20 x the length...yeh...i was like the only female there...so sad...then come back...i want to watch peach girl but guess wad?!?!?!?!?! they change the time slot again!!!!! wtf two weeks ago it was 12.30...then...last week was 1.30...then this week was 12...WTF...rights chill...kk...NVM...from next sat onwards i'm gonna read the newspaper every sat morning to check the time...aaargh...so damn pissed...rights...oh man someone make me sick...i dun wanna go for ballet tomorrow...damn...my right toes hurt a lil...and right ankle also still abit sprain...BUT MY MOMA WON'T BELIEVE!!!!! aaaaargh...oh well...oooh! i can tell my moma i got lotsa tests next week! chinese...e maths...still got wad????? aaaaargh....or copy crystal's style...alot of homework! but i told my moma i finish my homework alrd...tuition homework!!!!! she won't allow...oh daaamn...heck larh

well...today...sch...nothing much again...recess zhiyin wanted to get a PE shirt but didn't manage to...good luck dear...haha...then...she bought graph papers...and i saw those chicken soup for the soul books...23.25...i calculated it's supposed to be only 22.02...tax i guess...dunno...i read yiting's book you see...it's a real good book to let you view life as a good thing...something like tt...then...the guys shaved their hair using mrs michelle wong's shaver...lol...nicola shave half only...then...aaargh...wad else...after sch...go home...watch snow angel...watch finish alrd i went to train...train come home bathe...bathe alrd dinner...dinner alrd tuition...haha i called mr kalai uncle today...HEY UNCLE! lol...nice friend/teacher i have here...lol...then go home...watch the bachelor...here i am...i hope Bob choose kelly...yeh...then...here i am...nothing to do...i'm damn sleepy but...dun feel like sleeping...God i think i better sleep...ARTHUR REPLY MY MSG!!!!! rights kk...wadeva...i made a record today...i think i yawned the most for today...i have never yawned and sneezed so much in a day! omg...hope arthur doesn't see this if not he'll scold me...=P...and arthur's supposed to be my "son"...hha crappy rubbish...byeeeee......

hai...cried quite badly in sch today...during recess...kk...lets start from morning...sch...nohting much...then recess...yeh...i was telling zhiyin my inner feelings...i surely can't say it here...coz...too...private you get it? but i cried quite badly la...but not counted bad coz the worst i cried was reeeeeal bad...yeh...then...min ru came along...i duno y but min ru seems to be like a sister figure to me...so caring...thx min ru...or shall i call you jie? =)...sch again...then...home...vcd...didn't run today...coz...i'll train only on days i have tuition...then bathe alrd can go tuition...so convenient...yeh...then...watch whole day...smsed arthur again...he's in tuition now...yeh...sian...so bored...today's a boring day...and sad too

tt damn hotmail server is busy and i can't read my one and only mail...and it's like...wad if my junk mail's cleared b4 i get to check them??? oh well...nvm...well...today...reading in class and no flag raising coz it was raining...but it was damn cold...forgot bout my sweater...wad luck...kk...then...career guidance thingy...then...eng...reading again...then...wad arhx...chem...dun understand again...hai...thk my chem back to zero again...i kinda think that the NIE miss wan is so much diff from the present miss wan...hai...then recess...ate the glutinious rice moma gave me to bring to sch...nice xia...felt the sence of family love...yeh...then after tt a maths...tchr gave back the test paper...ofcoz i was happy with my marks but you know...i can't be proud...i have to continue work hard...then corrections...found out my mistake...aaargh careless...rights...if not i could have got 31/30...yeh coz of the bonus question...hai...fate i guess...then...doris, yiting and tina kept asking me for help...i felt...happy? coz...it's like...i feel happy helping my friends...haven't felt this way for so long...hope when i need help they could help me too =)...well then...chinese then physics...aiya dunno the sequence...but i dunno y i find mr gan a very fatherly figure...he seems to be like a very loving father to me...aaargh dunno larh...dunno why these days i think so much...but...mr gan really look SHUTUP DEXIN kk...shutup...oh and after sch duty...suddenly so many new comers xia...as in so many ppl change cca to lib...let me juz tell you guys tt you guys have chose the WRONG cca!!!!! you chose hell! oh my wad m i talking...i'm going kinda mad...shit...well...then yiting, joyce, geraldine and i slack damn badly...all juniors...yeh...then...they let me try their fruit cake muffins...nice xia...then...we next week gonna order pizza to sch...slack! yeh! man something's real wrong with me...rights then go home...wanted to sleep coz (dunno why) i was damn tired but i wanted to start training for me 2.4 again...so daddy say i should go train then go bathe so i can be fresh for tuition...so yeh i ran...man i didn't know my stamina so bad...it has deterorated!!! omg something's really really wrong with me! rights...then i go home bathe...then...tuition...then...haha...sarah-ann, maddie and i had so much fun!!!!! it's like...madison kept dropping her pencil box (lol) and sarah-ann kept biting madison's pencil (lol) and sarah-ann n i kept tickling madison (LOL!)...haha...then...joel managed to do the damn difficult question...DARK HORSE!!!! shutup de xin juz shutup...kk...yeh dark horse coz mr ng called him tt lol...and mr ng was damn happy with my marks...hey mr ng thx so much for your encouragement and guidance =)...then go home and tt's about it! aaargh...i'm going mad

i juz realised i have not found true hapiness...i found true love in me and my parents...i found true care and concern between me n my friends and my teachers but i have no found true hapiness...yes stanley, you can say we have to find our true hapiness ourselve but you think i've not tried? i'd tried so hard but the problem is God was unfair...did you realised that most people around us managed to find true love, care, concern and hapiness so easily yet for us we had to try so hard? i'm sure you know how it feels like...so does arthur...well...kk...fine ya ya ya i didn't blog yesterday coz i was like...busy watching the snow angel vcd...so touching xia...but no tears came out...surprising to me too...well...yesterday was racial harmony...i wore my tt black costume...lessons were as usual...then...we took pictures...i only appeared in one or two or a few coz i was asleep n apparently i wasn't awake to know they went to take picture and i thought they were in the toilet having fun...lol...well...i thought assembly was gonna be a long and boring one but i juz dunno why it seemed to end so quickly...well...after sch i went back with moma...then i went to watch the vcd tai you lent me...snow angel tt is...damn touching k...i watched 7 discs? fast eh...then...i go tired and went to sleep...by then it was around 10? went to bathe and stuff larh...then by the time i sleep it was around 11.00...early to some of you but...you know...i'm trying to sleep earlier so i will have enough sleep and i won't start falling asleep in class although i know tt would be kinda impossible so yeh...then woke up at 6 this morning...actually no...i woke up at 5 then i thought weekend then i continue sleeping...silly me...rights...then...today sch as usual lorh...blah...then...nothing much larh...well...i got 29/30 for a maths...highest in class i think...juz wanna thank mr kwek and mr ng...=)...then...aaargh...must tell mr ng the good news...well...then...wad else...go home lorh...then...watch snow angel larh...then...not enough time to watch finish the 3 last vcds then have to go tuition...ofcoz i bathe larh coz got PE mah...oh PE got 2.4...failed by abit...coz last week didn't really climb the stairs so yeh...i was thinking if i didn't bathe i could finish the vcd but i have to bathe coz i stinked really badly...then tiution...physics...surrounded by jokers like glen and si xuan or something like tt...then sarah-ann add in the fun...the whole class was damn fun...lol...then...i kept messaging arthur...gonna have a date with him on next thursday...to you guys not counted date larh...OK FINE i'm juz having a lunch with him happy?! haha kk...well...yeh...i still feel so sad for neglecting his feelings tt time...hai i'm so so sorry...rights...well...then arthur also said he could train running with me if he had the time...and arthur, if you need my help i'm more than willing to help so don't forget to scream "I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!!" rights i'm going crazy...well my comp went bonkers juz now...settled it in quite awhile and here i am...li tong was laughing at my nick...the...
 
St. Pats.Sec = SPS = Small Penis Society
 
i'm actually gonna take back my words...it's not really my words la but anyway i'm gonna do tt coz...it's not fair to arthur and the other fellow ex-classmate of mine kenneth la huh...so yeh...and OMG...i really need to get a pressie for germaine real soon...hope i could give her a surprise or something so yeh =)

the season's here! the season where the birds gather around my garden in my house...the season where dragonflies fly in and out of my house...it looks juz like heaven...but tt's only in the garden...lol...sian...yesterday met sarah-ann and maddie at parkway at 3.30...maddie and sarah-ann bought new covers for their phone, 2100...the covers for 3200 are like 8 bucks and i've got only like...5 bucks? so we walked around...then...we walk lorhx...we bought strawberry chocolates...they are chocolate coated strawberries...sweet...the small ones are 6 for $5...the bigs one are...3 for $5? tt's so ex lorh...but we got the small ones...yeh...then we walked from up to down down to up...i tell you we had lotsa fun...then...we went to OP...sarah-ann bought like...3 shirts? how i wish i get my allowence per month...so i can get ALOT of money at one go...then spend it like crazy...coz i dun really spend money in sch wad...hai...dunno larh...then...yeh...wad else? we went for tuition...mr ng pronounced sarah-ann's name as sarry-ann...lol...farnie...but tt bitchy adeline was there with a bunch of ugly freaks...she juz dunno how to choose the guys to miz around with lorh...i mean it's not neccesary to miz around wif cool punk dudes...but...i mean...not only adeline's guy friend are not good looking, their attitude and character ain't good either! she juz dunno how to find true good friend la huh...thank God for giving me such good friends like...stanley, maddie, sarah-ann, zhi yin and so on...really...kk...then...i passed my letter to joel...ofcoz sarah-ann passed it for me...and you could see the jealousy in adeline's eyes...woh man...lol...kk...then its like...wad else?...um...we learnt trigo identification...luckily i understood but its like...the formulaes...i dun wanna memorize leh...so many leh...EIGHT formulaes lorh..plus infront got so much more...wad the hell...kk...then...after tuition maddie, sarah-ann and i went down by the stairs...then we go home...then it's like...yeh...blah blah blah...sian diao...haha! St. Pats Sec = SPS = Small Penis Society! woh...by sarah-ann and her dear friend whom i find her cool...yeh babe...right...well...today...tuition lorh...keep talking to mr fadhil and dai yu bout gays (terence)...yeh...haha had so much fun...mood not as bad larh...but later got ballet leh! wth...dun wanna go lorh...rights...wad's wif me and this singlish slang again...cannot cannot...i mean..."that can't do"...muz train b4 i go off for aust or london after sec 4...yeh babe...i dun wanna go for ballet! i wanna quit! k fine after grade 8 alright? then i'll concentrate on my studies...VERY HARD...as in concentrate very hard and work very hard...yeh...rites...well...i've got nothing else to say so...TATA! dunno wad's wrong with me today...abit crazy......

heya...i'm getting sick...aaargh...kk let's start from last night...i went for chem tuition...my dad wanted to see me go up (coz he doesn't want me to go for tuition late again)...so i climbed the stairs then daddy no chance climb with me...ofcoz after much "training" i was faster than him...and by the time we reached 7th floor my dad was like...haha...he was panting like mad...lol...then tuition we go through tt work sheet...i was like...mr kalai, can you do something else? i'm about to doze off...ofcoz he said no but...aiya nvm larh...sian...then go home i watch th bachelor...yesterday's episode was "the women tell all"...so cool...well...then after tt went to sleep lorh...by tt time already 11.15...i know i was on a sleeping early spree but...aiya nvm larh...friday night only should be can larh...well...then...this morning woke up at 9...then...ate breakfast...roti prata...hate it...then...i got changed and went to swim...dunno why but everytime i go swimming all i see are guys and there are like no females? dunno y like so little females are sportty these days...wadeva...well...i swam 10 laps...which is 20 x the length of the pool...which, in germaine's swimming dictionary, also means 20 laps...lol...then there was this guy...he swim freestyle damn fast k...the speed i took to swim half a lap is the speed he took to swim one lap! like wth! twice my speed! my god i need to buck up le...so long never swim...like one months plus close to two months lorh...gosh i really need to buck up again...sian ji pua...then lunch i ate fish noodle...so nice...then here i am...hai...my nose...aaargh...i hope it'll be ok by the time i meet sarah-ann and madison at parkway...yeh...sian......

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omg i've actually destroyed the evanescence cd case...it's like...so fast...aaargh...how careless i m...wad i did? it juz dropped off from my dressing table...aaargh...kk...then it's like...i bought avril's album today...so happy...wanna play it now but my dad's listening to the oldies singing on tv and it's so sucky and boooring...rights...well...blogger have (somehow) improved itself at the create new post section...it has now icons for you to choose the format uplaod image erase blah blah blah...rights...then...well...today...started off with english...miss chan didn't come coz of a course...everyone was (obviously) very happy...actually i'm quite happy too la coz...can slack and study for a maths...kk wad crap...slack and study...wadeva...well...then...first period came in this relief tchr...quite chubby...(dunno y)reminds me of albert...aaargh...kk...then...second period mr gan relief...thk God he lets us study...then CME...tt farnie teacher came late...so it's like...mr quek scolded us for being noisy...not surprising larh coz he scolds every student he finds a small fault in...wadeva...then...a maths...the test...i'm not very sure but should be ok i hope...but the bonus questions are like damn difficult so it defeats the purporse...kk...then...recess...i eat my two garlic bread...i know...everyday garlic bread...i ain't sian bout it larhx...coz...dunno leh...haha...then...chinese...i kena "sha sha" again...but never bite haha...heng zai...rights...then...chem...tt chubby teacher come in again...i was like...aaargh...y him?! brings back unwanted memories...rights then we wanted to decorate the back board...then...we went down to buy some construction paper...i bought a pen...and i saw tt avril aldum...then...go back class decorate...then...after the first period tt chubby teacher (finally) went off...then second period no teacher...then...history...history room...lesson quite...ok larh...then after sch i pack my bag and went to get the avril cd...next i'm gonna get huang yi da and cyndi's album from sch...then the others like linkin park, D12 etc from cd rama coz the "cd rama" in my sch dun haf much...then...sian...moma fetch me...we went to the joo chiat complex...to get malay costume...i got a black coloured penjaya pants suit...quite cool...the ones tt are very very nice and i like is like either very expensice or out of stock...so got this one...not tt bad...i hope...haha...kk...then here i am...relaxing...trying to relax with my coke with lime...yeh...kk...i'm so bored...i like the busted with the meaning pang seh...wohoo

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rights i didn't go online last night coz i had a BIG fight with my parents...as in really big and really fight...well...i got home...and they started nagging at me...mainly coz they caught me going to popular buying cd and going to tuition late...and they say i'm playing truant...wad rubbish? do you need the exact definition of playing truant? it means seen leaving home for sch/tuition/wadeva and didn't even go to tt place...but hello...at least i'm going for tuition...late is so much better than never ok...well...i felt so depressed after tt coz my parents don't trust me, don't understand and follows me where ever i go and i have no fucking privacy! i pass notes to madison and vice versa again...she was trying very hard to like console me...so did mr ng...coz he knew wad happened...coz my dad complained to mr ng and mr ng (according to wad mr ng said) was trying to tell him i'm still studying and hardworking and stuff coz i asked him question bout stuffs i dun understand but mr ng? do you think they believe you? no lorh...so next time juz dun waste your breathe...let me deal with them...kk...then...tuition i feel damn depressed lorhx...i couldn't concentrate...then...i obviously dun understand the whole lesson bout trigo...the hardest chapter i've encountered...after functions tt is...hai...i hate to draw graphs...which is something i'm having in sch for both e and a maths...like wth...kk...then i got home they started nagging...i was like..."shut the fuck up"...well i'm not sure if they heard it or wad but they were still naggin...then i just went straight up my room and slam the damn bloody door...they got me down (with threatens) and i went down not coz i'm scared but coz i'm irritated by their fucking screamings...then my dad started scolding...we screamed at each other here and there...he started hitting my head...i, ofcoz, fight back...i punch him (not at the face but everywhere) and kicked him...surprising eh? i'm dark on the inside...then...i started shouting "SINCE IN YOUR EYES I DUN STUDY I DUN REVISE I DUN DO MY HOMEWORK I'M LAZY I'M A SLACKER I'M STUBBORN I'M STUPID I'M DUMB AND EVERYTHING WHY DID YOU EVEN BRING ME UP?! WHY DUN JUST HIT ME TO DEATH?! JUZ GET THE CHOPPER IN THE KITCHEN AND KILL ME LARH!" then my father diam...and he suddenly said "i dun wanna kill you" in this "serious and glum" tone...then i went to the kitchen took the chopper and place it into my dad's hand and shouted "KILL ME LARH! IF YOU GOT THE FUCKING GUTS COME KILL ME! USE THE CHOPPER AND KILL ME!"...my dad juz drop the chopper and said nothing...then i went on "IF YOU DUN HAVE THE GUTS TO KILL ME THEN JUZ SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP ACCUSING ME OF NOT STUDYING NOT REVISING NOT DOING MY HOMEWORK AND STUFF WHEN YOU DUN EVEN KNOW THE TRUTH! YOU DUN EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO KILL WAD RIGHTS HAVE YOU TO ACCUSE ME?!" then i juz walk off up into my room and slam the door damn hard...i kicked the cupboard till the door's kinda half broken...then my moma wanted to come in but (sadly) i've locked the door up...she said her towel's at my window...then i took the towel, open the door, threw it out and slam the door SHUT...i dunno if i hurt my mom physically but who cares? then i played evanescence album "fallen" damn loudly not caring bout my parents...i'm so damn proud of myself...so proud of wad i did to my parents...so proud i managed to fight back both verbally and physically...managed to get the guts to kick anything tt i want...and make them half broken...lol...then...it's like...i locked myself up in my room and did notihng lorhx...from around 8pm...all the way...then at 9 i tried to sleep since i've got nothing better to do and i dunno how to do tt a maths thingy...and...i flipped and flopped here and there until around 9.45 i tihnk...i managed to fall asleep...then next morning eyes all swollen coz i was crying all the way...coz i felt depressed...not depression but depressed...aiya crap la...then...really swollen...the worst ever...the fight was also like the worst ever...then...i was supposed to wake up at 5 then drag all the way till 6 then unwilling wake up...went to sch...didn't talk nor mutter much...first lesson social studies...we did a cotextualized case study on singapore malaysia dispute on the water prob...then...we were divided into groups by IQ (remember tt IQ test)...me, jonathan, wei feng and (sadly) nicola...i was like praying damn hard tt i won't be grouped into the same group as wei da, zi han or nicola...not tt i hate them or scared of them but juz..dunno la...it's juz the feeling larhx...kk...then suay suay larhx...hai...can't be helped...then i kena the leader...wth again...then i was supposed to assign them the questions but heck la...let them assign themselves...dun give a damn...i only know i got the most difficult quesiton coz i'm (supposedly) "the one with the highest IQ in the group"...but the ones tt got the highest are jojo and jonathan...30/50...i won't say my marks coz...no point larh...then...mr soon was in too...coz...dunno y...then...blah blah blah...geog...test...i spent too much time on the first question...1 a)i) and ii)...then not much time for 1 b)i), ii) and iii)...and NO TIME for question 2...so for question two i juz anyhow scribble shit in there...kk...then...recess...i suppose i hold myself too much tt my tears juz came rolling out out of control...then stanley kept asking wad happened but i didn't reply...he smsed me saying i look gloomy...i replied tt there's no use explaining coz there's no point when no one understands me nor cares for me...i'm juz a loner and stuff...then he say loner dun mix around...i said...i'm trying to do so...ofcoz i can't...then...i busted zhiyin...which means pang seh...dunno busted or bustard...sounds the same to me so heck la...then...a maths...finally my prob is solved...as in the problem sum...then...chinese...i kena the "sha sha"...lucky neva kena bitten...haha...then...e maths...i juz got so sleepy...then i juz fell alseep...then...mrs yeo wake me up like...twice? but went back to sleep...on the third time she wake me up i couldn't get back to sleep n i've got nothing to do so i juz do the homework she asked us to do...thx to mr ng i know how to do...coz mr ng always go through the very basic of each chapter before he goes on...which means...i'm having both e and a maths in an a maths tuition...kk...then...after sch mrs yeo asked me if i was unwell...i said i woke up too early...then...i borrowed 10 bucks from stanley...coz i'm going parkway with sarah-ann...then stanley asked why...then i said coz i'm not going home...coz i dun want to...then...i took the bus to parkway...meet sarah-ann...we went to pasta-mania...so long never go together...i ate creamy chicken...she ate the one with bacon cheese and cream...then...after tt...we went ice lemon tee...saw two rings tt i like...but i bought one first...coz...i dun wanna be too spend thrift as i already am one...then...aiya duno larh...kinda forgotten...i only know we met sarah-ann's junior...then met sarah-ann's friend...then sarah-ann's friend, sarah-ann and i went BK...we also met Amat...something which sarah-ann didn't like...then at BK...there was this irritating old man who kept asking bout the day date and time...aaargh...then...moma called...like wtf...then...sarah-ann's friend sent me a techno ringtone...so cool...then...we walk...again...say sarah-ann's junior with her stead...then we kept following them haha so farnie...then...we went to mac's...somehow sarah-ann's junior and stead want to go there also...then we sat there like quite a while then my parents came to pick me up...like wth lorh...spoil the mood...kk...then i go off...go home...then dinner...i and my parents....kinda like ok alrd...but...i won't say sorry...i think my cupboard will collapse one day but...heck larh...then...here i am...sian...haiya...kk...sian...i just realised tt evanescence's songs describes so well bout my inner feelings...and for these two days i realised tt i'm one who doesn't know how to expressed my inner feelings to my friends...i'm one who doesn't express...i'm one who hides...the real me is inside of me...no one will know the real me...only i do...here's evanescence's going under


Going Under - Evanescence
now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousands tears i've cried
screamind deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thought i'd reached the bottom
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under

blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through

so go on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken again
i've got to beathe i can't keep going under

kk i'm so pissed ok...my fucking bitchy part time maid juz throws every single clothe of mine into the laundry! inculding the cleans one which are obviously clean coz they are so nicely folded...and i have not kept them coz my parents always pass them to me either late at night when i'm asleep or early in the morning when i'm about to leave for sch...wth lorh...thank god i've got some clothes in my cupboard...if not i've got to go tuition naked...and my parents say it's my fault...wth? you give me my clothes so late i've got no time to keep it and the stoopid part time maid you hired juz sweep all into the laundry! and you say it's my fault? where have your sense of logic gone to? the drain? the bin? the sea? nvm...i got so fedup i slammed my room door shut and started throwing things around (including my clothes) and kicked my cupboard, my dressing table and my bed...my toes did hurt a little but after a little while the pain is gone...so i kept kicking and throwing...tt's bit too much but i was really agitated coz this has lasted since the fucking day i came to this world...kk nvm...well...today...first lesson...e maths...didn't pay attention obvious then when she tell us do homework i went to read txbk myself...dun really understand but...should be can larh...read more at home should be can lerh...then PE...did lotsa warm up exercises...jumping jacks...arm flexes...then...run...i really wanted run...but got cramps mahx...so...didn't put in my best effort...ran 1.5km only...10 mins plus only...think without the cramps i could have done better...kk...then...physics...then...recess...garlic bread and fan choy and pinapple drink...then...eng...then chinese...break...went down with zhiyin...then sit outside the girls toilet chat chat chat...then go back...a maths...today's lesson quite easy...then...tutorial...we late again...haha b4 tt christine's wallet got snatched by the guys and tina's rubber band also...haha...chase here and there so farnie...so chaotic also...dunno tina got back her rubber band alrd not...lucky she got extra...then mr lee was conducting the tutorial today...he was so farnily lame...kk "farnily lame" is crap...singlish...lol kk...then...supposed to stay for history remedial but i got physics tuition...so...i went off...sorry mrs wong for not informing you...hope eunice passed my msg to mrs wong...kk then went home...threw tt tantrum...then dinner...then tuition...omg glenn came back...he say coz his male private tuition tchr very boring so he came back to this lady tutor miss angie lie...haha...then he kept singing..."where is the love" "shut up" "hey mama" and "this love" lol...haha...the class suddenly became so lively again...with alex too...and me and sarah-ann...and dorcia's squeeks due to our tickles lol...yeh...then home...homework...here i am...dunno y today feel so depressed...hai...

i'm having cramps all over...thx to ballet...well...today...geog...learn new topic...quite fast...but thank god i understood...then...e maths...oh wait! i managed to write my diary secretly during lessons! not secretly la haha...quite "zhen da guang ming" =P...kk...here it goes!

haha i'm not copying notes! i'm writting this hand written diary...reminds me of arthur...he once told me he doesn't like using a blog coz he's computer illiterate...i knew he wasn't coz after a few...days? weeks? months? (not sure) he managed to create one and it is actually very cool with videos and songs in there...like what the hell...dun thk he did it himself haha kk...juz had geog lesson...feel so...hardworking XP...jkjk...kk...from now on i must be hardworking to achieve good grades...now e maths...mrs yeo didn't want to come in coz (she thinks) we were not ready but in the end she bo bian come in...then she ask those without tcbk to go out...almost half the class go out...those go out looks quite happy some more...i rather sit although i feel like going out too coz i'm having cramps all over so...sit better larh horx...hehx...kk...sian...now chem...i need the toilet...

haha sorry for ending of there but after that i needed to concentrate during chem or else i won't understand a single shit...aaargh cannot...cannot shit too much...hehx...kk...then...recess...i ate my garlic bread...played with stanley's phone...nothing much larh...then...eng...my god miss chan scolded us damn badly...chill...kk...then...physics...can't remember much ler...damn...like...short term memory (stm not std) hehx...kk...then...assembly...they talked bout the attachment programme...sounded quite fun but i rather rot at home...:P...haha...then...mr soon talked quite alot bout discipline...then...early dismissal...then moma fetch...buy laksa go home eat...moma you make me fat! hmph! kk...then...slp...then...wake up...dinner...homework revise...watched 'get real!' on channel news asia...then...hai you ming tian II...till now...sian...cramps...aaargh...cannot walk properly...hope i'll be well by tomorrow...leg...arm...tummy...stiff neck...thx to ballet...aaargh...pain...

hey hey...i'm so sian...ballet...wth...sprain my ankle again...if this goes on my ankle will break ok...aaargh...i really seriously wanna quit...i quit alright...aaargh...my right ankle's in pain again...damn...aaargh...but i still have to wear shoes to sch coz...wad to do i didn't go find the chinese sin seh...heck larh...kk...then...shi hui n i today very close...not very very close but close lar haha...then...so pai seh have to borrow $1 from her to buy drink...hai...pai seh pai seh...i return u next week k? i promise! =)...haha kk...then...ate dinner wif daddy...moma got dinner...as in at neptune court...good for her...then...watch tv...tt show...my gawd they are like...testing their lives at a higher and higher...rate? dunno larh haha OMG 5566!!!!! meng zhe like damn shuai lorh...haha and wang ren fu also...haha...kk...then...aaargh...i very sian larh...

aaargh...i dunno why but when it comes to sunday i always have bad mood...tt's why i hate sundays...coz of mr fadhil and coz of ballet...wth...kk...there was supposed to be another entry last night but my comp juz suddenly shut down and i didn't save the bloody thing so everything is gone...RIGHTS...well...i went for tuition like wad i said...then...i understood the first half of the lesson but i had not a single idea wad mr ng was trying to teach on the second half of the lesson...mr ng help me...mr ng also gave me a friendly lecture like mr kalai did and he asked me why i went for physics so late...and only until then did i realise how much mr ng, mr kalai and miss angie lie care bout me...like...omg...i'm so sorry...and i'm sincere...i swear i am...then...hai...he kept encouraging me not to care bout daryl...kept encouraging me to study hard...kept encouraging me to be strong...i was so close to tears i tell you...but ok la...then...madison and i kept passing notes...but it's like...we are only side by side so does it still count? i hope so...then...we talked bout how cute and sweet daniel was, how shy and cute joel was and how sucky and bitchy tt selinah was...n i spell her name as selinahhhhh coz i hate her...k fine both of us do...then...i mean joel seriously is damn shy quiet and cute lorh...he laughs without a sound according to madison...lol...then...daniel,...he's so so gentlemanly...he's so polite...so forgiving...so understanding and stuff...i swear i've never met any guy as sweet as he is...like...one in a million! i can even say he's more gentlemanly then daniel...although daniel burped once in class...but tt was farnie lol...and the daniel i'm saying is the one in mavis tutorial centre taking a maths tuition and is from tanjong katong secondary school and NOT in tt lousy montfort sec...i'm not critisizing tt sch...k fine sorry but there is one guy in there that is really lousy...and he's daniel wongm deborah's good damn brother...kk...then..blah blah blah...dinner...go home...here i am...damn i managed to emphasize on everything yesterday but i forgot wad i wrote! holy cow...kk...then...this morning...i woke up on time larh but i took my time while i was bathing coz i dun see the point of going to tuition early...coz i dun like mr fadhil not to beat around the bush...kk...then...aaargh...daiyu and i passed notes bout how gay terence is...n terence was like sitting so darn close to daiyu lorh...i'm so sorry for daiyu man lol...and...i like daiyu's hat...so punk...haha...punk...reminds me of leon...haven't seen him online for quite some time...he kept going "with my hairstyle you must say PUNK'D in a PUNK'D way...if not punk'd punk'd punk'd, pubk'd wad?" lol...he was so farnie...and cool...miss him...kk...then...where was i? oh...and...haha...fadhil was kinda pissed coz we passed notes but after a while we got sick of it and didn't write notes anymore...then...compre i was quite slow and fadhil told me off...and (FINALLY) i managed to talk back at fadhil...i was like "so? at least i do right?" um...kk here it goes:

fadhil: hey look do it quick why are you so slow?
de xin: so? at least i do rite?
fadhil: tt's not the point you're not concentrating
de xin: who says so? what rights have you to say tt? do you know me better than i
myself do?!
fadhil: kk juz do your work alright?
de xin: wadeva la

haha! to you all it's no big deal but fadhil is one kinda guy tt you will find difficulty in talking back on him coz when he makes you angry he'll know it and he'll kinda make you not angry but this time no man...haha...kk...then...break...cheese fries...then...i msg daiyu (b4 tt i was telling daiyu fadhil can't do anything to me bout being slow)...here it goes:

de xin: sian seriously wad can he do to me lorh...do i look wierd today with my tt
coloured contacts?
daiyu: at least repect mah (somethinglike tt can't remember)
de xin: he don't deserve MY respect...the word respect is made not to be abused ya
noe
daiyu: tt i have no comments (something like tt can't remember)

yah and oh yah i was wearing coloured contacts...i'm gonna wear it to ballet too...see wad they're gonna say...they as in my ballet friends, mrs skipp and miss chew...then...go back...blah blah blah...then...come home...blah blah blah...i also told my mum i wanna quit ballet after grade 8...she said my wish...my wish then...can i quite NOW?! no cannot...tt'll be a waste...rights? yeh...so my ambition as a ballerina obviously do not exist anymore...so my ambition as an air stewardess still exists...or maybe police...coz i find it real cool being a police and it's like...doing a good job for the citizens but i dun thk it'll be possible...my mum is like nagging like a crappy shit now...say wad if i dun eat lunch i'll have no energy to dance...not coz i no energy larh wa lao is coz i no interest...still say you understand me BULLSHIT...kk...sian larh wa lao...damn pissed today lorh...dunno y also...oh ok...i was also trying to say last night tt i feel real guilty and i wanna "dedicate" the song guilty by blue to my tuition teachers...ofcoz the lyrics in there dun telly but at least they know i'm guilty...rights?


Guilty - Blue

[VS 1 - (DUNCAN)]

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[VS2 - (SIMON)]

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - [LEE])
I never wanted to live a lie

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do [Duncan]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind [All]
Gulity [Lee]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
I'm prepared to testify [Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside [Lee]
If loving you with all my hearts a crime [All]
I'm Guilty [Duncan]

i never seen my moma so kind b4...she went to help our neighbour keep their clothes coz they've got lotsa clothes to keep and it was starting to rain quite heavily so yeh...omg busted rulex...kk...then...i woke up at 10++...my stomache was totally flat and shouting for food...then...eat breakfast...then...switched the tv on and realised there was nothing on...YET...so i'm here using this bloody laggy comp...this comp is cool and all la but it's still...LAGGY!!!!! but not as laggg as mrs michelle wong's state of art machine...which is her comp larh...haha...she got two com...nono...she got two laptop...one is the ordniary one and the other one is the apple one which has loads of cool songs in there...cool eh? haha...then...aaargh...someone find something for me to do...from now on every of my entry will have songs lyrics that describes my feelings for some people...now i'm gonna have "who's david" from busted...ofcoz...i'm not the guy...kk...the song is saying a guy who thinks the girl is cheating on him...which is true...but now lets try to put it in a way tt i'm the guy and the girl is jc...which means...I think JC is cheating on me...not cheat...but cheat my feelings...

Who's David - Busted

You've always been this way since high school
Flirtatious and quite loud
I find your sense of humour spiteful
It shouldn't make you proud

And i know your pretty face gets far with guys
But your make-up ain't good enough to hide the lies

Are you sure
That you're mine
Aren't you dating other guys
You're so cheap and
I'm not blind
You're not worthy of my time

Somebody saw, you sleep around the town
And i've got proof because
The words going around
Don't know you

You left your phone so i invaded
I hated what i saw
You stupid lying bitch who's David?
Some guy who lives next door

So go live in the house of David if you like
But be sure he don't know Peter, John or Mike

Are you sure
That you're mine
Aren't you dating other guys
You're so cheap and
I'm not blind
You're not worthy of my time

Somebody saw, you sleeping around the town
And i've got proof because
The words going around
Don't know you

And i know
That you try
To break me into pieces
And i know
That you lie
But you can't hurt me now
I'm over you

Are you sure
That you're mine
Aren't you dating other guys
You're so cheap and
I'm not blind
You're not worthy of my time

Somebody saw, you sleep around the town
And i've got proof because
The word going around
Don't know you

Don't like you
Don't know you


yeh...i typed it all myself and not copy and paste...i got it from the album i bought just yesterday...you see JC...now everyone knows what kinda guy you are now...and be very sure tt you this kinda guy won't let many girls fall for you...

i really dunno how to start my entry today...should i start with "omg everything looks blur coz..."...or should i start with "why can't my parents just understand me for once?" or should i start with "mr kalai gave me a friendly lecture today..."? hai...i feel so messed up for today...well...let me juz start from this morning in sch...started off with english...we did the captur a ghost compre...then miss chan showed us part of "the others"...i dunno why but...i dun find it scary at all...maybe i expected a better one? i dunno...then...cme...the teacher damn farnie...then...a maths...quiz...my answers same as yiting and chun chen...is tt a good sign or bad? i dunno but a good one i hope...then...recess...ate hor fun...then...chinese...same things...then...chem...finally roughly understood the lesson...history...copy a whole load of history of china...made my eyes so tired...then...go home...sleep...dinner...tuition...went popular to buy cd and pens first...i bought busted's album...second one and bought pens la...then...i ran up the stairs...firstly to avoid daryl and secondly coz i'm running late...then i ran up i saw my dad...he was looking for me...as i was late i juz said "i went popular to buy pens" then i ran into the classroom...then...i sms-ed my dad and explain to him...then...mr kalai gave me a friendly lecture...he says i get influenced easily...and i should spend more time studying...i explained to him bout my parents thinking i never studied...coz when i studied they treat it as if i'm not...when i dun they started nagging...then...he say...i should learn to please them...you think i never tried meh...i tried for 15 whole years...then...nvm...lesson...after lesson go home...my parents juz dun understand me anyway so wad's the point?...hai...i was saying everything looks blur coz i'm wearing my coloured contacts and coloured contacts no astigmatism...then...yeh...but still ok la...wtf my dad nagging again...wtf lorh...WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS JUZ FUCKING HELL UNDERSTAND ME FOR ONCE?!?!?! is it better to have pens out of ink and unable to write a single shit note or homework or is it better to go late to class and at least be able to get the notes and homework done?! wtf nvm...then...hai...now at home lorh...juz gotten rid of my dad...hai...i'm like in such a mess...relationship...trust between parents...wtf is wrong with my life?! wtf did i do in my past lives to make God do all these to me?! wtf wtf wtf i dunno why but i'm full of wtf today...hai...i still hate my life...thx for the msg, stanley but...as you can see...yeh...then...hai...here 'm gonna show some lyrics..."i don't want you back" from eamon (it's full of vulgars so hope you guys dun mind) and "my happy ending" by avril...these two juz shows how i feel for now..."i don't want you back" from eamon is a song to tell JC how much i hate him for now...and "my happy ending" is to tell albert how i feel...and i actually still do love him...seriously do...alot...hai......

I Don't Want You Back - Eamon

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
You burnt bitch, i heard the story
You played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
You're just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Your question, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its over, but i do admit i'm sad
It hurts real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah


My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh, oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
oh oh, oh oh, oh...

gor! thx 4 tt msg! hope mine's as good(",) hehx...sian...today...quite happy...dun wanna say why...nothing happen...but it's just a feeling due to some reason that...no one can understand...yeh...then...recess zhiyin dun wanna come down with me...i was quite pissed la...but...what can i do...she wanna do hmwk...but...still she wrong wad! holiday until now so many days dun wanna do homework now then pia...wth...heck her larh...so i got tina to get luo mai gai for me...her change for me is 20+20+10+10+10+10+10+10=$1.00...lol...then got that youth donation...haha...everyone donate coins...from one cent to ten cents to twenty cents...dunno got 50 cents not haha...but the coins damn heavy so...donate lorh...hehx...then...my savings! i'm supposed to save coins but...aiya nvm...donation also good wad....hehx...then...e maths...mrs yeo extend the lesson...make me need to sms daddy...idiot...then...i sleep...haha...but dunno why...i managed to understand...wierd...nvm...then...i do some homework lorh...did damn slow coz i dun feel like doing so copy stanley's...hehx...then...go off...then...go home...ate the suan pan zi...a hakka dish...eat with one very nice chilli...shiok xia...hehx...then...drank coke with lime...then...hot chocolate...i made myself with that recipe but no dash salt coz i have no idea wad the hell tt is...lol...but damn nice xia...then...i went to sleep...so nice...then...wake up eat dinner with daddy...then go watch the lake odyssey vcd...starting damn touching xia...haha...then i like the fourth story...the pig...no...the rooster (=P) damn cute...haha...then...GOR IS IN THE VCD! bond between the sch...haha...wad rubbish...=X...then...shuai xia...love my gor! then...now...i'm here lorh...sian!!!!! dunno why these few days so sian...BLOODY HELL I FORGOT TO BRING HOME MY A MATHS TEXTBOOK!!!!! tomorrow must pia in sch liao die...

today...yawnx...hai...i'm gonna be sick...nono...i AM sick...woke up with a blocked nose and sneezed non stop...like wth...kk...then...sch...not bad larh...coz dun haf toh lay hoon's lesson...hehx...=P...then...after sch lib duty...got one sec one "shh" geraldine...pls lorh...firstly, you're not a librarian wad rights have you to shut a librarian up? secondly, you're sec one and geraldine's sec 2...pls show some respect as geraldine wasn't even making too much of a noise...thirdly, the toilet's not in the lib...if you're really THAT urgent then the toilet's out of the lib towards your right...kk...dunno why but kinda bad mood today...maybe coz i'm sick ba...then...yiting (lib) ok lerh...unlike last week face like shit like tt...haha jkjk...then albert came in...wth...of all ppl y must it be him? being stuck in the lib for 2 hours with him taking glances at me once in a while is like so damn irritating...then...halfway joyce (lib) n i do hmwk...i helped her abit...coz she was doing sec 2 maths...so yeh...then 3.30 geraldine n i go canteen slack...then...go back...albert still there...then...4.00pm...gtg...sign out...then...said bye to sze yan and yuan ting and (reluctantly) albert...then...he said bye also larh...then...go home...had a quarrel with my moma...aiya dun say lerh...then...tuition...mr ng praise me worx...hai...haha...i kept going "minutes ago i dun understand a single shit bout trigo but juz one simple explanation tah-dah...so many weeks dun understand worx...hai...then...yeh...yawnx larh...back home...did a maths and a maths tuition homework...and revised for my physics...SIAN LARH

i said sorry to you coz i wanted to return tt ugle disgusting face of yours back to you although i (reluctantly) won it...and now YOU (somehow) won MY face and i WANT IT BACK RIGHT AWAY...you bunch of immature geeks...i fucking hell want an explanation and apology from all of you...you guys think the two msgs are fun eh? you guys think i am someone for you guys to bully eh? you guys think i can amuse you guys well eh? well i'm here now to tell you guys to STOP THINKING...i may look like a fool or someone good to bully but I AM NOT TT TYPE OF GIRL...you guys are to explain and apologize bout the two msgs...esp seb, you know i dun like you guys to joke this kinda joke with me but now? this is it man...and jc, you will NEVER be the wonderful friend i thought you ONCE were ever again...so yeh THIS IS IT...if you guys dun explain and apologize, dun ever think of even talking to me...or msg or e-mail or fax or call...if you sms or e-mail, i'll delete it before i even open it...if you fax i'll tear the paper up...if you call i hang on you...you may be asking "then how to explain to you?"...haha...then COME TO MY HOUSE since all of you know where i stay...then i will let my parents know how disgraceful you guys are...well you this bunch of immature geeks inculde sebastian, jc and xin hua...y xin hua? coz you have not apologized for insulting my parents...if you dun apologize either then tt will juz be it between all of us...i'll delete all your contacts...infact i'm gonna do it now...the first one i'll delete is JC's...coz wad for? i dun need this kina friend...at all...those hugs and hand holdings? it's fake la huh...admit it...i'll treat it as i never even MET you at all...

kk...well...today...sch...PE circuit training again...i think i better do it once more tonight coz it's like...i ate so much today...garlic bread, laksa, chicken mcnuggets meal upsize and dinner...like...OMG...kk...then...no tuitorial coz my name ain't in but i'm under probation...aaargh...nvm...then...go home...tuition...omg sarah-ann is seriously in love...but dear arh...although i can see both of you are happy but...dun go too deep coz you may never know what will happen...ofcoz i ain't cursing you but...i'm still gonna give you my blessings! =)...then...haha...we went bonkers in class again...with tt wierd alex tt is...lol...then...go home...cannot connect internet...moma keep blaming me for having all tt viruses...knn larh...you dun even know why then you start blaming me...you also got use wad...y dun you ask YOURSELF?!...kk...then...stanley helped me and tah-dah! i'm here...oops...kk...then...thx man! best buds 4eva...then...aiya...like tt lorhx...stanley act guai...haha...jkjk...

k fine it was ME who asked you guys out for movie but if you guys dun wanna go out watch movies with then TELL ME...i can go out with my friends or even watch it ALONE...A-L-O-N-E...wth...went to watch spider man 2 with my parents...there was one family with two kids who were so fuckingly irritating...two guys had to scold them...then they shut their gaps up...then...after their movie they asked me wad i wanna eat...ofcoz, like usual, i'll say wad's in my mind right? so i said pizza hut...then they say it's not of their kind and they want noodles or rice...hellooo?!?!?! have you forgetten spaghetti is a type of noodle and baked rice is also rice? are you STUPID or are you FAKING STUPID?! and, YOU asked ME what I want to eat and ofcoz i say want I WANT to eat not what I DON'T WANT to eat...OK FINE then i'll say i wanna go toilet and eat shit and drink urine la huh...wtf lorhx...kb...kk...so...hell yeh i'm at home now...and what did you say? qi4 bao3 le4? let me tell you this la k, I ALSO QI4 BAO3 LE4 AND I DUN WANNA HEAR YOU FUCKING MOUTH CRAP BOUT FUCKING UNLOGICAL STUFFS...fuck off larh...i treat you guys so good on fathers' and mothers' day yet what you do to me on youths' day? ofcoz i dun expect the same thing back...i dun expect a fucking cake or wad but AT LEAST LET ME HAVE THE LUNCH I WANT...k fine...now that i qi4 bao3 le4 i'm not gonna have lunch k? if i get gastric or wad so eva you guys better fucking hell NOT blame me but yourselves...knn......

oh btw, greece won by LUCK...TYCO...it's juz coz THAT referee is kayu larh k? PORTUGAL should be the one winning

ello...haha...well...today...late for eng tuition as usual...on purporse actually hehx...well...at least the compreh today is quite easy...tt fadhil got migrane...in the pass i will be worried...but for now...why bother? when you're getting more and more irritaing...kk...then...haha...sms daiyu so much...great friend he is...dun sad ler larhx...you will get over it de...like me! i finally got over albert...at least i thought so...hehx...well...the last msg he ended with..."kk i dun disturb you liao...take care"...aiyo...dun wanna sms liao then say larh...lol....then...go home...watch tv again...i think i addicted to tv liao...lol...then...at around 2.15 i go toa payoh with moma...to buy the geog workbook from the popular there...so many ppl xia...giddy...then...bought new calculator...and...a b'dae card for moma's god ma which is my god grandma...haha...kk...then we went to get some food...then took mrt then bus to ah mah's house...oh! bought kacang puteh and made donations too haha...then...dinner...blah...walk Cookie with jiu mu and samantha...talked bout my studies and friends and movies with jiu mu...then...go home...sian...nothing to do....=P

omg i can't believe i told mr ng about daryl...kk...well...i had an afternoon nap...woke up...bathe and stuff and went for tuition...i bought large fries...coz i didn't have breakfast n only had a light lunch...then...i ran up the stairs coz the lift was slow and i dun wanna crash into tt daryl...then i "hide" in the 7th floor staircase..."hide" from daryl ofcoz...like wad dorcia said...i'm paranoid...haha...very farnie...lol...nvm...then...i go in for class at 5.40...late for 10 minutes...on purporse ofcoz haha...then...i was kinda angry...but i thk i looked more like "sad"...then mr ng passed me the new notes on trigo and asked "wad happened???" i was like..nothing...kk here it goes:

mr ng: "wad happened?"
de xin (me): "nothing"
mr ng: "who made you angry? or who are you angry with?"
de xin (me) shooked her head
mr ng imitated my actions and said: "come on..."
de xin (me): "fine fine fine...it's daryl..."
mr ng: "really??? wad happened?"
de xin (me): "quite long alrd...he thinks i'm a flirt then goes around spreading rumours bout me making ppl and even parents have bad impressions on me"
mr ng: "oh...i'll talk to him"

then he walked away...then i smsed him saying "if u juz TALK to him its no use coz he'll continue telling you rumours bout me...it's not as if you dunno him"...then he teach and i listen...teach and listen...but never read my msg...nvm...then i go home...then...yeh...sian...watched movie juz now...on TV...haha...nice movie...only nice and good movies teach us how to skip school...haha...jkjk...lol...

omg...i'm totally famished...or is it flamished? heck larh...i didn't eat dinner last night...n i had to climb up and down the stairs to popular so i won't crash bang into my moma in the lift...then i bought hoobastank cd and a pressie for min ru...omg happy burfdae min ru!!!!! 15 lerhx...make IC alrd leh...haha...well last night chem...went into the office with my moma to make payment...i shouldn't have so when he critisizes me my moma can slap him real tight...but dun want larh...i dun want moma's hands to land on his dirty face...then...go to room 4...moma go down the lift alrd i ran down the stairs to popular...then buy cd and pressie for min ru...then...ran all the way up the stairs again coz i scared i late for class but in the end mr kalai later...lol...then lesson...then go home...watch the bachelor...i so hope mary or estella would win...not tt short hair geek...kk...not saying me =P...haha...kk...then...wanted to slp but cannot slp...jia yi sent me a touching msg i sent it to all my good fwenx...quite alot but not alot...haha...dunno wad i'm toking bout myself either...hehx...then...i tried to sleep and finally managed to...then i dreamt bout wierd dreams...like i stayed in a house beside a river but my (dream) bf destroyed the river by changing it into a park...i got so angry with him i ditch him...then (dunno how) both my parents sprained their ankle and somehow he did too...so we went to shops to get their ankles done...met tt (dream) bf and he chased me and i ran away n i sprained my ankle and he had to help me...then my (dream) moma happened to be miss gan (HUH?!?!?!)...and my (dream) papa is my original papa...then i got together with my (dream) bf again and stayed with him in a flat...aaargh...wierd wierd dreams...then...woke up...here i am finding food to eat and listening to hoobastank cd...omg they rock! but i love maroon 5 much more...FOOD!!!!!

in chem i wrote these three...poems? no...three letters...wadeva...the first one is to friend 1, someone i can't reveal his name...the second one is to JC...the third one is to friend B, someone whom i can't reveal his name either...here it goes:


to friend one:
I dunno why but i just get so jealous
When you talk to other girls

When i thought you were just my another classmate
You end up being my good friend

Now that you are already my good close friend
I dun dare to think much more


to JC:
Never would i think i would meet you ever again
But in the end i did

Never would i think i would be friends with you
But in the end i did

You were such a great friend and i trusted you so much
Yet you could do all those to me?

I may be a year younger and may look like someone you can bully
But i ain't someone for you to fool

Now you fooled me so badly
Are you still fit to be even a simple friend of mine?


to friend B:
On first glance
I thought i fell for you

I tried all ways to get close to you
But i realised i ain't fit to be yours

People thought we were together
Because we were real close

But after much explaination
I realised we were just good friends

Now that rumours have came out bout both of us
Who m i to believe?

I really wish we can remain as good friends
For good and for-ever


there...hai...my feelings are so mixed up...hai...and one more thing...JC, let's treat it as i only met you once at the south east cdc office at sing post...let's treat it as i never met you at the st. pats fun fair...let's treat it as we never met in parkway and you never hugged me there and never brought me to the library and never held my hands! it's all over...i thought you were someone i could trust but you went to fool me...it's all over...unless you give me a reasonable explanation and apologize to me!

wadzup dude~ blehx i'm going crazy again haha...kk...well...sch lorh...haha...friday...finally weekends are coming...this morning flag raising almost half and hour leh...sianx...then...history watch the lake odyssey vcd...mrs michelle wong let us watch one...INSIDE GOT JIN WEN GOR WOR!!!!! OMG I MISS GOR!!!!!...kk...haha...muz get the vcd...haha...then after the lesson me and stanley went to borrow the vcd from mrs michelle wong...then infront of teacher stanley say he wanna burn the vcd...wth haha...so stoopid xia he...he should wait go out then say mah...lol...nvm...then i chased stanley all the way back to classroom wanting the vcd from him but he started off so far from me...nvm...i nice fwen let him take first...unlike him so ungentlemanly haha...jkjk...then go home...damn hungry...cook maggi noodles...watch tv...wanted to sleep but...nvm larhx...tonight still got tuition...after tuition...watch bachelor...oh yah...now use comp tonight cannot use ler...dammit...i'll see if i can get to use it while watching the bachelor...yeh...STANLEY I WANT THE VCD!!!!! kk...well...nothing larhx...yawnx...getting sick......

i juz realised how much i love my family...although i sometimes(k fine almost all the time) dislike my father side relatives but they, i mean we, are afterall a family...and my mother's side...after the prob is solved, i love them even more...and my parents...i love them...n i can never find someone whom i will love more...haha...kk...today...sch day lorh...haha...kk i'm mad...well...after sch go home...watch tv for one hour...parents come back...my parents did send me home but my moma went to fetch my dad...FINE MY MUM SENT ME HOME NOT MY PARENTS...aaargh...i may be happy but may be sad at the same time too...kk...back to the subject...then...parents come back...i go sleep...very tired...then wake up...flu again...coughing and sneezing...damn...then dinner...bathe...homework...but haven't finish...HOW?!?!?! sian diao...nvm...then...now use comp lorh...sigh...recently i've been receiving stoopid smses from JC...stop fooling me would you...i may be one year younger than you and i may look dumb like a fool but i ain't tt stoopid to let you fool! i thought you were i nice guy n all...but hey! i was wrong! i've seen the wrong side of you...now i know truely wad it means by reveal his/her true colours! it suits just so well on you! i'll never trust you ever again! ofcoz i can say you ain't the worse...BUT I HATE ALL GUYS WHO ACT INFRONT OF ME TRYING TO GET ME TO LOVE HIM!!!!! hai...nvm...i shall remain calm...coz i wanna be happy...n let nothing affect my studies......