COLD, RAINY AND VERY WINDY WINTER

It's amazing how winter can bring out the extremes in you. It can either make you warm, fuzzy and cuddly with the heater in doors or just make you cold right through the bones. I've experienced both. I enjoyed neither. Not even the warm fuzzy and cuddly extreme.

Had lunch and coffee with Mishi just this afternoon. Talked about life. Life can make you go nuts but then again you have the choice of handling it the right way. I don't know how thankful I am to have God holding on to me whenever I fall. Seems easier to fall during winter, hey. The wet and the cold. Urgh.

Sometimes I really don't know where I'd be if not for God. Maybe I would have gone back to my old ways, cursing and swearing, probably even relying on tobacco to escape the sourness spreading through every single vein in me. But it's God's Love, forgiveness and Grace that comes running after the sourness, defeating them in every corner, making me fall to my knees to realise the awe of it all.

I can't help but gasp at how much back up plans God has for each and every one of us. How in the world can He musti-task so well?! Every slip we make, He's already there, ready with another back up plan. How often do we handle stuff with back up plans right at the back of our minds?

Sometimes we try to stay within our comfort zone, even when we're down. We're afraid to move on, afraid to face another fall. If so, how can God reach out to us? If we don't try, how would we know the possible outcomes God will provide us with? How true is it that everytime we try to avoid one situation, God will place us right back into similar situations to help us grow and learn to overcome that very hurdle, to make us stronger individuals?

Reason why I can pretend to be so sane on the outside is because even while I'm tearing into pieces on the inside, I know God's there to pick my every piece up and piece them together again, making me a stronger final piece. I know that as I take a big step of faith in life, moving on from the many lessons I've learnt and will learn, God will be there to prepare me for something better.

God's my fortress, my shield, my comforter and healer. It's in Him I find life. It's in Him I find sanity.

signing off~DE XIN