is it true? is this feeling for real? are my feelings for him for real? sigh i dunno...i'll just let fate decide i guess...let me see...today...monday blues...so yepx...sat with huan yuet during the second half of sch...then dorothy and i listed out the amount of money we want the fucking guys to pay us for stealing our things...think this friday we gonna go their sch and give them hell...then...after sch went parkway's BK with huan yuet...then...come back...go home...here i m...i'm not gonna have dinner tonight la coz...it's like...today eat so much alrd...morning eat cereal...recess eat wanton mee and two small slices of cake...then BK...dinner? forget it...i shall wait for time to pass...hmm hmm hmm...la la la...kk i'm going mad again...listening to MP3...=)...=S

kk tt entry was lame...let me see...the last time i blogged was...was...was...aiya friday larh...well...yesterday woke up at 1.30pm...can you imagine????? so long never wake up so late alrd...lol...then...slack...gunbound...until...3.30? went to bathe and change and set off to the police station...then report to the police bout the hua yi boys and my phone...the police said, "you can't totally accuse those two boys coz you only saw them touch your bags but not take the things"...but i insisted on him writing down them touching my bags in the statement...then...got one boy lost his laptop...his friends...got one quite shuai...then went for tuition...sarah's parents were lookin for her...hai...i give up on her...but she, still, is my friend...then...go in for lesson...ofcoz no mood la...coz...hp...sigh...then tom came in coz his parents came to check on him...lol...sec 4...in a sec 3 class...wierd...nvm...then dunno y...joel also never come...sigh...then go home...gunbound...sleep...can't sleep coz...wake up too late la...ik ain't even awake for more than 12 hours man...lol...today...took bus to tuition...the two fat guys never come xia...only kenny come...think they scared....lol...then i feel very pai gia today larh...also no mood...but got do a lil work...dai yu so qian bian today...dunno wad he draw for me also...lol...then break...bought cheese fries...insulted the KFC workers badly...they scared they run behind...bitches...then...went back...do more english...then...after tuition slack at the office...mr fadhil and mr kalai and janice and i went mad...lol...then we went to buy lunch...i ate bandittoes...die gonna go fat...then...at 1.30 mr kalai and i went through the chem notes while he eating...lol...i told him he won't have peace eating...lol...then...mr fadhil mr kalai janice and i went mad again...lol...then went to century square with moma...got the seimens phone...service damn poor...got this girl stare at me...i damn du lan coz of the crowd already then this girl come and stare at me...then i went "stare wad stare? not happy me arh?" then moma went shushhh...then i went "shush was shush? for no reason stare at me...becareful of your eyes xia!" then tt girls moma told her to apologize to me...i went "apologize got wad use? stare alrd cannot take back wad right? juz dun let me see you guys ever again can alrd la!"...then we walked out of the shop...went to get a bottle of perfume for daddy...then went to foodcourt and walk around the food lke no very nice...saw sarah's didi...lingen...dunno his name la...then went to delifrance...the food not nice xia...not hot somemore...then after tt went home...moma say my attitude no good juz now...sigh...i also know...dunno y these days...so stressed up and so bad mood then become so rebellious...sorry la...sigh...heck...think i next week should be much better...if i dun haf big tests anymore, if i dun have heritage tours anymore, dun haf to be my parents' trolley anymore and dun haf to lose my hp again...sigh...well...ballet...no mood la as asual...took me a looong time to master the third dance...something mazurka thingy...so now i know three dances...Petite Lyrique, Demi Caractere and that something mazurka...duno la...it's between the Caractere and Mazurka...depends on miss chew...mazurka like...too fast la...can have the style but too fast for me...amanda can do it...not me...coz my leg not long enough...so...i guess it'll be the Caractere...then go home...dinner...here i am...should i play gunbound? tomorrow la...tomorrow i gonna start running again...if i got the time...=)...>=(

God told us not to waste food

wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf very fucked up can? my hp lost...kena stolen...by who? a bunch of sec 2 c boys basketball players from hua yi sec...knn...you guys are gonna get hell from me...not only steal my hp still steal dorothy and yiting's wallet...cb la...you think you wad xia...chee hong...knn la...mopeng somemore...fucking assholes...now tt i've suspended my line the next step is 999...you think you can get away easily? now so easy assholes, i clearly remember who the fuck you guys are so one day i'm gonna "visit" you guys and point out to the police and make sure you get into boys home xia...lighten the sentence? you wait LOOONG...well anyway CHUNG CHENG MAIN WON!!!!! woohoooo! 63-59...yay babe! muahahaha...won unity...we last year lost to them...this year won...but the fucking referee damn ka yu lorh...cb...nvm...then...aiya very happy and sad at the same time larh...lucky got dorothy's bf help...then...wa lao...damn fucked up can??? gor.....wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf...sigh...btw, xavier have fun packing up...see you online when you've reached canada and settled down...WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF...sorelosers wanna steal our things...we'll see you in police station xia...knn...FUUUUUCK

sian...very tired...today sch...can't be bothered...but at 1.15 we got released coz we got fieldtrip...then sherry and i went to get some food...then at 1.30++ we got onto the bus...we went to fort canning hill...went there before...so...nothing new to me...oh! got one part...we went up the fort canning gate...then stairs was short and narrow...so on the way up although the tall guys had a difficuly prob but the way up was kinda ok...but on the way down...mr gan had a prob...haha! the guys were like...one more step one more step! haha so farnie k...went off...then had a break at dunno where...got stanley to buy a drink for me...haha haven't return him money...haha...nvm...then...went parliament house...never bring ezlink...juz my luck...so mr gan help me sign in...he remember how to spell my name exactly worz...knows where to space somemore...lol...then...went to supreme court...so cool...then went to the old parliament house...then go back...moma fetch me home...dun wanna go tuition...coz sian la...yesterday two tests then tt bitch then today fieldtrip...so heck la...now at home lorh...legs very pain...always right leg...really feel like chopping it off...oh God...stanley's a 17 year old girl leh!!!!! lol......

i'm so fucked up today can? kk let's all start from the beginning...in the southern province of china long before your time...kk cut the crap...today sch...quite depressed...then got chinese test...already quite fucked up by tt...to make things worse, english test...but the test quite easy...but...still...fucked up la...then...borrowed 10 bucks from yiting today which i didn't use...return her the same exact notes to her tomorrow...then...call my moma send me go parkway coz i was supposed to "do homework with sarah" but actually no i'm supposed to zhao fan...moma say no coz she doesn't like sarah...y? coz tt time i played with sarah the bomb thingy...and juz coz of that moma thinks sarah's a bitch, a gangster an ah lian...wth la will you just stop judging ppl on first impression all the time...then in the end i still go la...then at macs...ate two large fries...share with sarah...how we share? she took the hard fries and i took the soft fries...then it's like...if there's one tt contains both hard and soft, we'll split the fries into half...lol...then sarah's didi "lincon" and joel and the other tall guy came...haha...had so much fun together...then...small pai gia kids came...created havoc in macs...i was like...oh shit later james got bad impression on me...no not james from cch but james from...nvm...then...saw glen and...si xuan? maybe...haha bullied glen...then...they went up for tuition...sarah n i didn't really feel like going up so we continue zhao-fan-ing...then two bitch came down...sarah and i didn't take notice of them at first...until dorcia smsed us telling us anita tt bitch went to check on us...wtf lorh...i was like...scolding all the vulgar languages i can think of and the guys was like...woah song! xiong!...then ppl around me look at me...i was like...see wad see la...not happy arh...it's like...only xia liu xia lan xia jian ppl like anita will go and send spies come and check on us...and only xia liu xia lan xia jian ppl like jolene and another bitch will be so willing to be spies...wtf larh...then daddy called me...so obvious that anita called my home la...wtf...cb...i late no more than 15 minutes can? wtf...cb...knn...she think she kkb then very sexy then can do all these fucking things...no lorh...you can be kkb but you not sexy at all lorh...lj...kk...then we go up...so sarah n i were like fuck here fuck there...then angie went to talk to sarah...then sarah say "she got important thing have to go down" which obviously is not coz i think she go complain to her didi la...then i also fuck here fuck there then angie talk to me outside...then slowly slowly the subject changed to school...angie told me i had to be selfish and tell a teacher...i was like...yah ok...then...i cry la...dunno why she also started crying...aiya...then...she hugged me alot of times and comforted me la...then we talked bout 15 minutes? sorry guys for using up your times but i'm juz really fucked up la k...then go in...sms-ed glen...kinda like scolded him for wad the boys wrote on the board...we had a quarrel la...but we solved it coz we found out the mastermind was tt alex...then after class he kinda like...asked me if i'm ok...ofcoz i say ok la...so...you know...yeh...then i go down by the stairs coz 1. i dun wanna go down the same lift as dorcia after wad she did to me and 2. the fireman's lift was so fucking slow...then...went down and gave sarah-ann her bag...then wait at carpark...the gang of guys came...sarah and i overthere vulgar vulgar...then sarah zhao coz dunno who she saw then my moma came to fetch me...said bye bye to the guys la...then in the car i told moma wad exactly happened...ofcoz changed one part to i'm doing homework la...then she like..."i told you not to go with tt ger...i dun like her...she so..." before she could continue i was like "CAN YOU STOP JUDGING PPL ON FIRST IMPRESSION? YOU'VE NOT SEEN HER GOOD AND FRIENDLY SIDE. I'VE GOT MY OWN CHOICE OF FRIENDS AND YOU'VE GOT NO RIGHTS TO INTEFERE WITH WHO I MIX AROUND WITH ALTHOUGH YOU'RE MY PARENT COZ IT'S PART OF MY PRIVACY AND FREEDOM" then she diam...song boh...kk...then go home...i dao dao...then now...ok la...like nothing happened like tt...but i smsed mr ng "can you tell anita to STOP calling my parents whenever i'm late coz at this time of the year it's impossible for me to be late on purporse and tell her to STOP sending spies too"...ofcoz got one part is untrue but it's seriously very irritating can? wtf knn cb...kk sorry i've not been so vulgar for so long...but i'm gonna really let it out this time...so tt some bitch will know how fucking bias she is...cb

omg i've got LOTS to say...where should i start from...hmm...sunday morning...tuition...haha mr fadhil scold those fat asses leh...wrong wrong...even fat asses look better than them...well...yeh mr fadhil scolded them...i damn song can? haha...then after class mr fadhil shawn wei xiang and i at the lift talk...then saw the freaks squeeze in the lift...then i shouted "AIYO MUST SQUEEZE IN THE LIFT AAARGH" then fadhil and shawn was like...you dun insult them one day will die izzit...haha...how you all know arh? haha...then after tt parents fetch me go some restaurant have lunch...haha had so much fun...jojo and i kept walking around to "burn fats" lol...jojo as in jocelyn my cuz...yep...then after lunch...went to send ah mah home...then...went to the soccer field at east coast park...it's only a smaaall smaaall field...for beginners ma...so jian en and theophilus went to their soccer enrichment programme...lol...interesting...then...we "adults" had a picnic...then...at 5.30 my moma ask me to go...then i dun wanna go...coz i dun wanna go ballet...it's like...family outing leh...with theophilus and fourth aunt...then...very rare chance k...then...i got so pissed i cried la...i didn't want tt to happen either but...my tears always squeeze their way through whenever i get angry...then...my dad knew bout it...and i heard he was also damn pissed...i mean...it's not as if i dun go one lesson i'm gonna fail the whole exam damn badly or wad...further more it's in march...not tomorrow! oh God...and so many ppl didn't come last week so...they sure repeat right? nvm...then...germaine jojo and i had alot of fun larh...jojo was chasing after germaine for the cam...and both of them run very wierd lorh...then i was like laughing till my tummy ache...lol...then i was like...relay relay relay! then i took over the cam and jojo ran after me and jojo had no stamina and she gave up haha...there were quite a few pics taken of germaine jojo and i...then...after their enrichment programme we went to my uncle's restaurant...we had free man tou and free drink...song right? haha...then sarah-ann wanted to meet me but it's like...the time is always not right...then i think she got a lil pissed...i mean...sorry larh coz...my uncle wanna send me home already wad...i dun feel good asking him to wait lorh...sigh...nvm...then...go uncle's house for dinner...haha the tortuise...damn big fat clumsy and cute...reminds me of the joke zhiyin told me....lame la zhiyin lol...then...dinner...moma came over...me and her ok liao...then after the dinner went home...thank goodness daddy not at home...so...i went straight into my room and i just somehow went to sleep immediately...it was around...10? yeh early hor...haha...then sleep...till today...sch...heck la...felt a lil depressed...sms-ed stanley...think he gave me the right choice...then...after sch...went michelle's house...wanted to do chem...but in the end we did the teacher's day collage...me and dorothy went to use terence's (michelle's bro) comp to find pic...haha had so much fun...then...after tt i tried to copy and paste the chem thingy but got prob...aaargh...dunno la...then doris played pool...then played the car racing game with terence...then i play jigsaw...but halfway i was like...oh shit! then i went down to help...pulled doris down too...haha...had quite some fun actually...then...walk home...then...here i am...not having dinner coz had kfc for lunch then like very full...aaargh my leg...dunno y...so pain...ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch.....ankle i mean

sian...hmm...yesterday...nothing much ba...just very happy after sch coz it's weekends again...isn't it great? dun have to see some immature bunch of freaks in sch...again, not girls...not saying who la...coz...aiya why create the commotion right? letting them guess whether or not it's them is more fun...well...go home...played gunbound...santa claus...haven't seen him at gunbound for so long...i want my pressie...sobx...haha kk...then...dinner...bathe...chem tuition...haha had so much fun again but damn mr kalai has no time to give me extra lessons on friday nights...so i guess it'll be sunday afternoons...sigh...then go home...watched "my big fat obnoscious fiancee"...haha...the "groom", steve, is an actor and he's supposed to act nasty...he's big and fat so yeh you get a hang of it yet? then the "bride", randi, doesn't know steve is acting as her fiancee...lol...very complicated but a very interesting story indeed...then...sleep...then today morning...rise and shine! haha...then sms stanley a lil...haha so farnie...bout the flashing and stuff...lol....tsk tsk tsk stanley arh...haha...then went swimming....i had to help moma park car k...she kept bumping into the curb...coz she keeps turning the steering wheel left while reversing...so i was like...right...right!...RIGHT!!!...RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!!!!! then finally she got the car right...lol...then...the sun is RED HOT man...cool right? then there was this guy who has a very muscular body...i ran up and down and he's still on the other half of the pool...and i waited for him to be back...guess wad? he's panting like a mad dog...i was like...huh?! a guy? like...right...then there was this woman in bikini with no figure and a terribly big tummy swimming with her head sticking out...she swim surely very slow la...then the other women...less than half her head goes into the water...but she swam damn fast leh...wierd...lol...then went to change and i was like...WOAH...can see the colour diff k...but...not very tan la...but at least got tan...haha...so happy with the results...then go home...gunbound...then...bathe...go tuition...bought two large fries and one large sprite juz to share with sarah and madi...then...met sarah's di di...haha he's so cute...nice guy...sec 2 only...very farnie k...haha...dun worry sarah i not interested...i not interested in any guys nowadays la...dunno why also...haha...then after tuition go carpark and wait for my parents...guess who i saw? MYREN!!!!! once i saw him, images of me and sarah insulting him juz drifts into my mind...i felt guilty k...coz i recently found out tt myren ain't tt bad actually...then we had a small chat...he showed me his new ear ring...k la k la cool la k? lol...then...he walked off...he smsed me a very nice and encouraging msg...dun wanna say la...if not later some of you say i ego big or some of you will juz say big deal...but it was very nice of him la...thinking wad he called me last time and now this msg...a lil ironic leh myren...lol...but nvm haha...then now here i am at home...wondering if i should play gunbound...c first la...

haha these few days like very slack...not in studies but in comp...lazy to blog...haha...k fine i'm a lil slack in sch...durin chem...sigh...i juz can't get a single thing into my head during chem! mr kalai, i need your help now...although i think it's a lil too late but...never say die man! kk lame...haha...yesterday? ALOT of things happened...dun say sch la...so stressful...say sch see sch think sch smell sch hear sch touch sch everything sch also sian diao...kk...after sch geraldine came to my class...she was hurrying me so much and irritatingly i had to leave my filings to the next day to do...then we went parkway...i got her the tamagotchi...then went to pasta mania for lunch...he called...HE called...i mean...i'm not against him or wad but i dun wanna reject him coz he's like...one friend i care...i'm scared tt if i reject him i'll hurt him...but on the other hand...i've got no feelings for him at all...as in...not even a single feeling...i juz dunno how to phrase it la you get it? sigh...i really dunno wad i should do...nvm...kk...then...had lunch la...then i wanted to get a cd...but i dun wanna go sembawang...i've got bad impression on that shop la...then...i also dun wanna go cd-rama coz...far la haha...then...i went ice lemon tee...found no necklace i like...saw no mini skirts i like...so i headed to stege...saw thing very plain looking metallic ring...my type...i like...but it 25 bucks and i've got only 23 bucks...the shop owner was like "this is a very nice and plain ring...you should get it"...i went "ya tt's why...i like this ring alot...'ve been finding this kinda ring for very long...but i've only got 23 bucks"...then he went "ok...tell ya wad...why not i charge you 22.50?"...i was like...SET!!!!! haha...and the ring, is miiine...haha...i told myself, i'm gonna start my very own collections of rings man...and it's all gonna be the type of rings you find in stege...it's like...stege never came into my mind k...now then i realise...sigh...haha...then called my dad...go home...bathe...went tuition...then...i wanted to be dao la...coz i scared that...nvm...but...haha madison and sarah went mad and i juz unknowingly went mad with them...haha...then after tuition went to germaine's dad's restuarant...had dinner la...like...you know...family outing...we only have that when fourth aunt come back with theophilus...and...my god there was this waiter that is damn cute larh...i mean...i dun like him la...juz find his looks cute...but...haha not my type and i ain't interested...so...abit...you know...haha...nvm...a lil ironic la...but tt's the way =P...haha...then go home...used comp a lil...sian la haha...then today...nothing much either...he called again...sigh...someone tell me wad i can do...pleeease...

DADDY LET GO OF MY LEG!!!!! we started punching...then kicking...and he grabbed my leg...and he still is...aaargh...LET GO!!!!! forget it i shall juz blog while he holds my leg for me...uh...massage? can you do that? thanks...no NO DUN PULL MY LEG...oh freak you...kk i juz kicked him and he's gone...hee...rights...my whole day is so darn screwed up...or is it i screwed it up? or ppl screwed it up...all la k ALL...oh shiiit no singlish...heck...i feel so crappy today...well today morning...parents told me they won't be home so i have to go home alone and they kinda like didn't tell me where they were going to...so...i heck la...then sch...lazy to retake the tests coz...sure fail mah...always fail by a few cm...if not by a few seconds...and that's always standing broad jump and 2.4...agree, stanley? oh rights...then...play badminton lorh...the last shuttlecock (very screwed up coz it's broken) got stuck in a tree and it took me ages to find out where it was and jian hao was laughing his head off for my blur-ness...lol...kk...then...after PE...normal larh...then recess...then...miss chan never come...everyone was..."celebrating"? yeh...then...mrs yeo came in...she teach e maths...i went to do my filing coz the e maths part of my brain is totally burnt...then miss wan came in...no mood for chem so i continue filing...yeh...then chinese...the test i was like....tikam tikam larh haha...then...sleep...then...after class so wei da's and zhi hao's tamagotchi getting confiscated...thank God i was sleeping if not i sure play with it then it will also sure kena confiscated...haha then break...huan yuet and christine and i had quite some fun...err...nvm...lol...haha...memories memories memories...shhh...yeh...haha...then a maths...a maths cells burnt...TOTALLY...then...called daddy...and guess wad?! they are in JB...like wtf? they go JB neva tell me then i have to go home all alone with my fuckin heavy bag? oh screw it ok SCREW IT...oh man...i mean...i really find it selfish can?! rights nvm...then, out of anger, i said i'm gonna take taxi and claim money from him...and then ya know wad he said? no chewing gum...NO CHEWING GUM...as if i'm gonna die without a day of chewing gum...lmao...kk...so i found ying xian and we took bus together...chatted ALOT i tell ya...haha...then go home...gunbound gunbound gunbound all the way...oh no mummy's out of the bathroom...heck...then...they came back...i was, obviously, pissed with them so i immediately went to bathe...then go tuition...sigh...upset again...my friend...not tellin name...she's...oh maaan...i dun wanna write it here coz i dun wanna make her hurt you get me?!?!?! oh maaan...but...now tt dorcia n i have talked to her i hope she realises it...although i dun thk she did...we're trying to get more helpers...shh...kk...chester, nono...MR chester, STOP BEING SO LAME and dun bully me!!!!! sobx...haha kk...go do your album la...haha...yesterday's stuff? lazy la haha kk sian bb..............................

wee! haven't blogged a looong time...lotsa things happened...firstly, i've started playing gunbound again! yeh...on thursday i guess...yeh...then on that very day i met that very vulgar GDsaint in GunBound...we somehow became friends and now he's less vulgar...he's from aust...can you believe it?! australia!!!!! omg...yepx...then on friday i just kept playing with GD and Joel...they both just kept killing me!!!!! seperately ofcoz...then on sat, i might santa claus, gerarde0045...and no it's not the freakin gerard from st. pats...it's gerarde0045 from aust...ANOTHER AUSTRALIAN!!!!! omg...and he promised me a pressie for my birthday...hope it's an avatar...man he's so cute! santa! but he keeps killing me too...then today...realised steven plays gunbound too...then played with him...haha THRASH...i killed him alota times...that was how i earned my gold...haha...secondly, my tamagotchi went through a match making session today morning and had sex and gave birth to a baby...sho cute can? haha...nothing much larh...today tuition just keep suaning the fucking fat guys lorh...feel like making trouble...muahahaha...shutup dexin...sorry...kk...today ballet...revised Etude Lyrique and finished up Demi Caractere...damn cool k...hee...now must revise myself everyday...very satisfied myself...hee...haha...kk...i'm going off for MORE gundbound...here i come, santa!

wow that was a looong entry...haha...kk...well...today...woke up...sch...oh man...dun talk about it...makes me sick...stanley didn't go to sch...gastric flu...do take care pal...but today early in the morning mrs wong sms-ed me saying on MC for 3 days. Viral infection and high fever. Please use free periods well. See you next week"...oh man! wad has this world come to? kk i'm exagerating...well...i told zhi hao and he was like damn happy...haha...wadeva...then...nothing much la...no lib duty coz lib close for sec 4 o lever aural...or oral or wadeva shit...i'm sooo bored...someone play online games with meeeeeeeeee......

my tamgotchis are so ugly now...the older version one looks like a fat duck head with that fat lips sticking out...and the newer version looks like a big fat tadpole with swollen lips...rights...the newer version one is singing to itself...wadeva...kk...well...i really did have a wonderful time yesterday...well...lets start from yesterday morning...went for that damn a maths tuition...thw whole class is packed i tell ya...and it was damn stuffy...lucky sarah-ann and maddie managed to get seats right where the fan blows towards...so i dun feel that stuffy after all...but the worse thing is, some bitch behind keeps whining "i dunno how to do" "it's so hot"...and it's reeeal high pitch i tell ya...sooo irritating...then she saw the gossip slip (a piece of paper sarah, maddie and i used to write our gossips on) and said "ONLY A BITCH RECOGNIZES A BITCH"...so cowardly lorh (according to sarah-ann), if she unhappy then juz scold us la since we juz infront of her wad (also according to sarah-ann)...i wanted to turn around and say "thank God you recognize yourself as a bitch" but nah...firstly i dun wanna waste my time, saliva and everything just to tell her something she knew and...why should i even turn around to look at her and...why should i even talk to her...rights? right...haha...kk...then sarah-ann n i sent msgs to scold mr ng...i'm not gonna show wad's the content coz it is R(a)...yeh...then after class we went to talk to mr ng...woah song...as in not lalala that song but shuang tt song...understand? aaah nvm...rights...then after tt sarah-ann and i went to get some lighters from a mama shop and went to explode them one by one...the first and second one at a playground...lol...lucky no kids there...then the third one at a voideck next to a street soccer court juz behind a police post...one ah peh got a shock and the guys at the street soccer court stared at us in shock...lol...damn farnie man tt scene...the fourth one sarah-ann give me...ofcoz have to return her 50 cents la...coz i no money so she blanjah me first...then...we went to carpark...on the way there saw another shop selling lighters so we got 2...i exploded one and sarah-ann exploded the other...my moma saw...but didn't see wad we exploded...i said it was that type of "bomb" where you press then KA BOOM one...haha...she believe...HAHAHA...oops...haha...kk...then...go home...was in a hurry to pack my bag...then we set off to hotel...daddy stay at home...coz one room for two only...so...haha too bad for him lorh...XP...then...we reach the hotel checked in and guess wad??? we got the deluxe room! it's damn big can? woah seh...nice...then we slack...laze around...jia hao came first...he damn quiet and shy...so unlike the online type of him...haha kk...then we started eating some snacks...then daddy's youngest sis came with her hubby and two sons, ah yang and ah chao...i was having a terrible headache so i dun actually know wad they did...then at 6 the parade started...nothing much until the fire works thingy...damn farnie k...we dunno how to open the damn curtains until ah yang realised there was a button to open the curtains...haha...then we had a damn good view of the national stadium and everything...then ah chao started playing with the curtains button...lol...haha then got fireworks again he had to very quickly open the curtains again...hahah so farnie so cute...then after the whole celebration we as in all of us, jia hao, ah yang, ah chao, daddy moma, daddy's youngest sis and hubbie, went down to have dinner...due to my fucking headache i totally got no appetite and i juz sat there looking at how wonderful the dishes are...ofcoz i got eat a lil la...but when near the end i felt like i was gonna puke and i didn't touch any dishes anymore...hai...such good opportunity my headache spoilt it all...it's damn fucking irritating k...wtf...rights...nvm...hai...then after dinner go back to hotel room...i took my own sweet time to bathe...coz the bath room is so grand and big and beautiful tt it kinda like soothed my headache...so...i was juz enjoying myself walking up and down the bath room looking here n there testing this and that...until i'm fully satisfied i starting bathing...lol...damn fun...then my moma was like...wad did you do in the bath room?! wash you skin and bones?! haha...then once out of the toilet i went straight to bed...smsed jia hao a lil then zzZzZZzzZzZzZZ...yeh...then...next morning...which is today...woke up at 9...changed and stuff then went down for buffet breakfast...sux i tell ya...the design of the restaurant very nice but the western food...god...sooo oily...i mean i'm not really that picky...or at least not that i want to...it's just tt nowadays i dun really like oily stuff...coz i'll think of the fats, clogged up, then causing high blood pressure and stuff like that...it really freaks me out...one very good example lives in my home...tt's daddy...hai...rights...but we kinda like got ate ALOT of hot cakes...coz tt's the only dman nice thing...so yeh...then went shopping...we walked a whole 15 minutes to suntec city...then we shopped up and down down and up left and right right and left...which means almost the whole suntec...saw a bitch but NVM...dun spoil my luxurious holiday mood...then...walked another 15 minutes back to the hotel...i changed...then went swimming...at first no sun...then swim halfway the other end of the pool got sun...so i got up and applied alot of suntan lotion and go back in...but the sun wasn't strong so...aaargh...nvm...then went up...bathe...wanted to take MRT home but daddy came to pick us up...then go home...pack everything then OUT to physics tuition...then abit bad mood...also dunno why...haha...then i realised...MY HANDPHONE IS GONE...like...oh great...then after tuition sarha-ann n i blew up a few more lighters...then go home...searched up and down down and up left and right right and left for my phone but no sight of it...then daddy lifted up one of his wierd "meeting" books...and tah-dah...daddy...your fault...haha...kk...then...here i am using com...going off soon...wana bathe and slp alrd...tomorrow have to fucking hell go to sch...juz my luck...oh fuck...sorry for being so vulgar but i seem to hate to go to sch alot these days...oh well......

for the very first time i'm actually looking forward to national day...why is it so? coz tomorrow i'm going to check in to a hotel with daddy and moma!!!!! yay! my second time...i think...the first time was with all my aunt on my moma's side when i was very young...tt was in sentosa...now it's in singapore itself...it's with my god father and god bro and god sis and god mum...so yeh! i'm begging dad to let me stay overnight in the hotel...he say see my performance...which means i must get straight out of bed after my dad wakes me up tomorrow morning instead of having him kick me out of bed...coz i know tt would hurt his foot haha! rights...well...today...OW!!!!! that was...MOMA!!!!! tt's pain!!!!! "i wanna use the comp" "hold on la i doing my entry of the day leh" "wad's tt" "internet diary la" "oh ok faster"...heck...haha...kk...shoo...SHOO!!!!! go go go...kk good...then...this morning eng tuition...very sian sia...holiday mood...but still read the complaint letter writing tips a lil...then...break...used the coupon bought a two piece chicken value meal...lunch - DONE...then...after class xiang feng, michelle and her sis, wei xiang and i walk down the stairs...coz the lift and the fireman's lift damn packed...then kenny and tt "big shot" guys are below us...so michelle and i shouted "EY, PEOPLE THINK THEY DAMN BIG AND DAMN FAT THEN VERY BIG SHOT XIA"...haha...then walk out of the stair well they also there...we shout the same thing again "EY, PEOPLE THINK THEY DAMN BIG AND DAMN FAT THEN VERY BIG SHOT XIA"...haha...SHIOK...saw daiyu at the carpark...told him the whole thing...he said SHUANG...kewl xia!!!!! shuang...yeh...then...go home...i ate a very small amount of noodle...then change...went ah mah's house...slept a lil there...then woke up ah mah also woke up come out of her room...then...talk talk talk...ah mah cook...then at 5 we go...then fourth aunt came back with theophilus...then fourth aunt gave me the shirt she bought for me, some really grande tea bags...and dark chocolate...wee! then i kept tickling theophilus...haha...love him lotx...then...went to pick daddy up...then went for ballet...today ballet we revised Etude Lyrique...did bar work...and learned Demi Character...Etude Lyrique and Demi Character will be two of the four dances i'll be dancing for my grade 8 exam in march...aaargh!!!!! so damn nervous and stressed!!!!! must do homework liao!!!!! aaargh!!!!! shutup de xin SHUTUP...kk...then...well...after ballet...go home...eat dinner...bathe...and...here i am! haha...i'm going crazy today...sian...haha...rights...garfield rox....garfield the fat cat...haha...

didn't blog luz night coz i was too engrosssed with my new pet...yes! my new pet! my tamagotchi! kk tt's lame but...it's damn cute k....well...yesterday...sch celebration lorh...nothing much la as usual...after the damn celebration go home...went shopping! wif moma...then went to post office...post birthday card to my god grandma in KL...love her lots and miss her too...then...bought some stuff at NTUC...then...go home...slp...from 2.30 slp to 5...then wake up...dinner...after dinner....i also forgot hee...then...today morning...daddy kicked me out of bed at 8...ate breakfast...then go back to slp...woke up at 9 again...go swimming...i swam 6 laps...then the sun was damn good i juz stood in the pool for a looong time and had a small tan...i ain't black YET ofcoz...but at least it's one step closer...XP...then...on the way out of katong swimming complex i saw qiwei jiu jiu...i was like...huh? oh hi!!!!! then he called my moma jie jie...haha nono...he's not my mum's bro...i wish man...he's my mum's cousin...he's only in NS second year...he damn shuai k...the one i said germaine had a crush on...now i not sure la...but yeh...he's a nice uncle too...caring...then...go home i told my parents i going to meet sarah-ann for lunch...then they very bu shuang coz i never tell them earlier...i was like...wth...then...i juz bathe and went off to take a bus to parkway...then...sarah-ann was in a 197 bus who jus passed by the bus stop when i juz reached there...so i missed a damn bus...then i sarah-ann called me to tell me she's on tt 197 bus...lol...then i sat at the bustop waiting for a bus to come...then i was kinda like day dreaming and a 135 bus passed by without my notice...i was like...oh holy fucking piece of shit! i know tt's vulgar but...it juz accidentally slipped out of my mouth without my notice...then...took a 76...met sarah-ann at the bustop...then...we went to have yoshinoya for lunch...then met sarah-ann's parents and bro at Oleh Oleh...had two onde onde...then...went to pee...then went mavis...then dunno why we went down to macs to get a drink...then tuition...i didn't bring my calculator...so i was damn bloody bored...almost dead...then...talk a liiitle bit to joel...thank god he's talking...then...after tuition went for dinner with daddy moma...got my old calculator and old tamagotchi fixed...now it's both in use! the only diff now is the new tamagotchi can have sex (oops!) and this old one can't...then dinner...then go home...then...fixed my tt mirror hanger thingy...it's a hanger...with a mirror! damn nice i tell ya...i love it...then...here i am...trying to get myself occupied with what i can find...obviously i can't find anything...coz both tamagotchi's alseep...oh! you know the new one? the one tt can have sex(oops!) now? it's named ice after me! hee...kk...i should juz shutup now...coz joel made me realise silence is golden...sarah-ann said i should solve my probs...i said...no thx...it'll be juz one and a half years more...then i'll go off to either australia or london...then i won't see these morons anymore...rights? so i'll juz stay silent in sch...but ofcoz i care bout my fwenx...yeh...ignorance is the best way to solve things...i saw someone's nick and i thought it kinda makes sense...anything that hurts you but doesn't kill you makes you stronger...it's darn true...yepx...alright...gtg...trying to make joel open his golden mouth......

gerard, if you are reading this, i'm more than happy...well...i just wanna say that...dun blame me for treating you so coldly...coz your friends asked for it...they caused you to get this cold treatment...i've lost the trust in you...coz i've lost the trust of you and your friends in a whole...if you could reflect wad they did to me and if you think is funny, i tell you, it's not funny...firstly xin hua insulted my parents...i told you i expect and apology...you told me to forgot...wth? why not one day i insult your parents and lets see if you expect and apology or not...secondly, the two smses...you think its funny huh...tt made me lost trust in JC...and sebastian...now you think it's nothing...huh...why not i do it to you...then we'll see who's the last one laughing...look...i dun see you as a good friend i once trust anymore...you can say i changed...you guys caused my change...you want me to change back to the girl you first met? dream on...what's done can't be undone...n i've said...if i dun receive and apology i'll delete all your contacts...i mean...wad's the point? i dun see the need of staying in touch wif one bunch of immature freak from the small penis society...gosh...i regret even telling you tt Mavis opens at 2 tomorrow...you left your file there? if you lost it you'll fail your D&T and N levels? tt's YOUR problem...wad has tt got to do with me? how i wish i could take back my words and let you fail your whole damn N levels...you think i'm a fool...i think your friends and you are a bunch of immature freaks from small penis society...i'm no longer the girl you first met...the girl you think you can talk to...the girl you can joke around with...the girl you can treat as a fool...coz you won't even be able to stay in touch with me...wad if you bump into me at Mavis? i'll treat it as i just walked pass a stranger who once betrayed his "good friend"...good friend? you think i'm your good friend? forget it...i dunnit your symphathy...your acting ain't good enough...

why m i showing the lyrics of this song? coz some ppl ought to read the lyrics of this song...and realise how childish they are...i'm not saying who...not girls ofcoz...oh maybe one girl...tt's adeline...the rest are guys...which guys? i'm not telling...might be tuition centre...might be sch...who knows? they know who they are...miss ya gor...love ya too

Our Lips Are Sealed - Hillary and Haylie Duff


Can you hear them?
They talk about us
Telling lies, well that's no suprise
Can you see them?
See right through them
They have no shield, no secrets to reveal
It doesn't matter what they say
In the jealous games people play
Our lips are sealed

It's a weapon
Which we must use
In our defense, silence
Spreading rumors, so far from true
Dragged up from the underworld
Just like some precious pearl
It doesn't matter what they say
In the jealous games people play
Our lips are sealed

Pay no mind to what they say
It doesn't matter anyway
Our lips are sealed

Hush my darling
Don't you cry
Crying angel
Forget their lies

Can you hear them?
They talk about us
Telling lies, well that's no suprise
Can you see them?
See right through them

They have no shield, no secrets to reveal

It doesn't matter what they say

In the jealous games people play
Our lips are sealed

Pay no mind to what they say
It doesn't matter anyway
Our lips are sealed
Our lips are sealed
Our lips are sealed

today...hmm...nothing much...stanley's got a fever...tell him to take the ice water in the fridge at the sick bay he do-wan...hai...then geog test...hope i can pass...then...nothing much larh...chinese relief teacher...haha...think she damn pissed with our class by now...then...after sch pft...all my items very good leh! except for my standing broad jump fail by 2 cm...wth...rights...then go home...oh! n i've figured out how to change tt origami thingy theophilus gave me into a tropical fish! gosh i really love theophilus...he's so cute...so shuai! ofcoz la he my cuzin haha...jkjk...=P...XP...but seriously he damn cute...he stay in ah mah's house...hope cookie doesn't bark at him...i mean...in other words...hope cookie remembers theophilus...cookie's our family dog btw...yeh...then...at home...slp...i never bathe then go slp...die later bed smelly...at least i kinda like...brushed the bed after i woke up...then dinner...moma cook...PINEAPPLE CHICKEN?!?!?! not tt bad la...but not very nice either...sorry la moma...haha...kk...then i ask her if she know how to cook mango chicken...she say i learn myself...then i say...you buy the mango for me la...haha...kk...now here lorh...today dinner eat damn late sia...hai...sian...FIVE DAYS HOLIDAY!!!!! i told moma i dun wanna go for tomorrow's celebration...i mean...sit in the grand audi for 2.5 hours for one (stinking) concert...no thx...my butt will be damn pain...i heard it's in the hall...which is something MUCH MUCH worse...rights...hope she allows me not to go...but my zhuo ye how...aiya...juz say i never go on friday la...heck...sian...

the day i anticipated for so long has finally came...daddy has finally came back from china...i woke up and daddy juz suddenly appeared at my door giving me a fright...i boxed him then we hugged...wee! the feeling of daddy love is back again! yayie...love daddy forever...then...sch...nothing much...then after sch lib duty...did homework instead...i think wu jiong lao shi finally remembered who i was and i could now say hi to him again...then...after lib duty wait for moma at the gate...it was BURNING HOT i tell ya...at least i can get a good tan (i hope)...then...saw marcius...he said i looked diff...everything i diff...even the tchrs are diff too...glad tt he noticed...lol...he's such a nice friend...help him do a survey...then...moma came to fetch me...guess who's in the car??? theophilus and 4th aunt!!!!! they're back form london again! man tt's the second reason why i've been anticipating this day for sooo long! man theophilus is getting cuter and cuter year and year and God he's coming to 5th grade in london soon! he's gonna be a hunk man...love my cuzzies to death...then moma dropped me off at home then moma sent them to ah mah house...yeh they're staying there for the time being in singapore...then...moma came back with and origami in her hand...i was like...wad the hell? she said it's from theophilus...it can change into a...hat? fish? box? multi-purporse origami...man i love my cuzzie! gosh...i miss him...i miss his laughter too...haha...so cute of him...then...go tuition...the sad side of me's showing again...i was kinda like...damn quiet...then i madison was like...are you ok? i ignored...then all of a sudden the tears juz flows out...mr ng saw and was very concerned for me...then sms-ed sarah-ann...i know she's juz two sits beside me but there are some things better said silently...then...she consoled me...then...after a while mr ng tried making a crying face and sarah-ann went "tt so don't look like a crying face"...then mr ng tried to exaggerate the expression which left maddie and sarh-ann laughing...then...after a while sarah-ann made me laugh again...can't be helped with a friend like her...then mr ng saw...some farnie conversation happened:

sarah-ann: "see i made her laugh...i'm much better than you are!"
mr ng: "de xin and i have gone through many ups and downs since she was sec two!"
sarah-ann: "but i still managed to make her laugh!"
mr ng: jokingly angry face

haha...maddie and i were laughing like mad...then after class three of us took the fireman's lift...another interesting conversation took place:

maddie: "joel always goes to the toilet after class" (starts laughing madly)
sarah-ann: "joel? you mean tt shuffling sound?" (maddie laughs harder)
(joel appeared)(maddie suddenly sinked into the floor laughing like mad with sarah-ann n i laughing at her)
me: "do you always have to go to the toilet after every lesson?!" (three of us laughed harder)

then we laughed into the lift...maddie seemed to be bouncing form walls to walls in the lift...making three of us laugh even harder...i tell you my stomache hurt damn badly! lol!!!!! then we went macs...got some drink...then sarah-ann n i went carpark maddie went home...then sarah-ann's dad came and my mom's car juz right behind...so we were behind each other all the while until the traffic light which my moma turned into telok kurau and sarah-ann's dad went straight towards pasir ris...i guess letting yourself cry will make you feel better afterwards and may even make you smile or laugh...i love sarah-ann and maddie...love you guys...

hai...duno why today got tt depressed feeling...so long never feel this way...it's like...kinda wierd...k i admit tt time i cried in sch i was a lil depressed but it's coz someone brought up something tt made me recall some of my past...yeh...then...hai...dunno why larh...well today...PE i tried to rerun...but after one run my stomache like...suddenly very pain lorh...even worse than the monthly cramps...hehx...then...samantha leg cramp...hope she's better now...we went sick bay...there wasn't medicated oil so i...unlucky larh...then after pe...my stomache is like...pain but not pain...you get wad i mean? it's like...it's pain but...it seems as if it's not pain...aiya heck la dunno how to say...then...recess i got stanley to get $1.50 chicken rice...coz i feel so uncomfortable no energy and mood to go down...then forgot to tell zhiyin...aaargh...sorry sorry...then...yiting and i go lib...then go back classroom eat...then lessons again...then nthing much le la...then...after sch moma fetch me home...moma eat shao rou fan...temp me...but didn't eat larh coz her lunch ma...so yeh...then slp...woke up at 4.45...bathe...dinner...then go tuition...haha keep suan-ing glenn...lol...then halfway we go down macs...supposed to be 10 minutes but thx to glenn larh...fill in tt useless form...wadeva...then tt fwen of his...dunno how to spell his name...then...ha keep suan-ing me also...then we took alex's drink...he don't even know...then it ended up in the corner...alex tell glenn's friend to get it for him then we ka jiao alex mah...then dun wanna take for him...then...alex show attitude...then glenn and his fwen act as if they very scared...lol...farnie...today class damn farnie...then saw dai yu...he wait for his sis 2 hours...poor things sia...tsk tsk tsk...say i got tuition but you can sleep? at least i dun have to walk around for two hours with nothing to sit on and do...ha! =P...so fun to joke around with daiyu...me damn sian now...hai...

wee! i've got lots to say man! firstly this morning...well...tuition...i wore me orange and white spaghettie stripes top with tt black mini-skirt...i wore my skirt damn low...as in...very very VERY low...yeh...then...everyone fill up the whole class except for the middle sits...so it's like...yeh...then the two 'BIG' guys come in...they think they very dua pai...pls lorh...you guys may be BIG with fats but you guys are not big shot lorh...pls lorh...yeh then nvm...then michelle and wei xiang and shawn and i kept making fun of them...haha...then break i got cheese fries...then back to tuition again...then...after tuition...go home...then...nothing much...slack the whole day lorh...play comp and watch tv...then dinner...ballet...at first i was like...damn...but after the whole ballet lesson, i found out tt grade 8 is fun! only 8 exercises at the bar...and four dances! the dance i learnt today also very fun! but quite alot of technique needed...must practice alot xia...then can remember...yay! i'm in to ballet again!!!!! kk i'm crazy...