COLD, RAINY AND VERY WINDY WINTER

It's amazing how winter can bring out the extremes in you. It can either make you warm, fuzzy and cuddly with the heater in doors or just make you cold right through the bones. I've experienced both. I enjoyed neither. Not even the warm fuzzy and cuddly extreme.

Had lunch and coffee with Mishi just this afternoon. Talked about life. Life can make you go nuts but then again you have the choice of handling it the right way. I don't know how thankful I am to have God holding on to me whenever I fall. Seems easier to fall during winter, hey. The wet and the cold. Urgh.

Sometimes I really don't know where I'd be if not for God. Maybe I would have gone back to my old ways, cursing and swearing, probably even relying on tobacco to escape the sourness spreading through every single vein in me. But it's God's Love, forgiveness and Grace that comes running after the sourness, defeating them in every corner, making me fall to my knees to realise the awe of it all.

I can't help but gasp at how much back up plans God has for each and every one of us. How in the world can He musti-task so well?! Every slip we make, He's already there, ready with another back up plan. How often do we handle stuff with back up plans right at the back of our minds?

Sometimes we try to stay within our comfort zone, even when we're down. We're afraid to move on, afraid to face another fall. If so, how can God reach out to us? If we don't try, how would we know the possible outcomes God will provide us with? How true is it that everytime we try to avoid one situation, God will place us right back into similar situations to help us grow and learn to overcome that very hurdle, to make us stronger individuals?

Reason why I can pretend to be so sane on the outside is because even while I'm tearing into pieces on the inside, I know God's there to pick my every piece up and piece them together again, making me a stronger final piece. I know that as I take a big step of faith in life, moving on from the many lessons I've learnt and will learn, God will be there to prepare me for something better.

God's my fortress, my shield, my comforter and healer. It's in Him I find life. It's in Him I find sanity.

signing off~DE XIN

ALL THAT JAZZ

OMGOSH! SHE'S SO GOOD! That jump split. AND when she spinned NON STOP on the podium *covers eyes* I was so scared she'll fall off! She's crazy. Insane.

I miss those days where I was probably just as flexible. Which would be about 12 years ago. Gah.

signing off~DE XIN

=D

"Let's go watch movie."

And within half an hour, we were on our way to the cinema. Phil, Philip and I watched The Hangover together last Sunday night. DAMN hilarious! I can say I laughed through the whole movie. Including the credits. But no, we didn't throw the popcorn like in the picture above haha I just thought it was funny, the dressing, the seats, their expressions and the lighting.

Jordan was upset 'cos we didn't call him along. I guess that's what happens when things get so inpromptu. We forget people. =P

I GOT MY CAMERA BACK! Met Faith in the city last Thursday after my Business Econometrics paper (don't ask).

She brought Daylan along! Little Winnie the Pooh! Gah he's so cute. You should see him when he gets hyper. He's. Damn. Cute.

We had lunch together at Han's.

The sick me had Banh Canh noodles. I was shocked they used udon noodles instead of the normal glass noodles. Not good.

Faith had Pad Thai. They used bee hoon instead of the glass noodles also!

Both our dishes were super oily even though mine was with soup. Another Han's branch to cross out.

signing off~DE XIN

SICK

When I was terribly sick at the start of the year in Singapore, I remember there was once I had to go for physiotherapy due to my ankle. Daddy very kindly offered to follow me down via MRT. Being a senior citizen, he very easily got a seat while on board the train. I obviously did not request to sit because HE'S MY FATHER, I love him and I'd rather he take the seat no matter how sick I was.

While sitted, he took my hand, made sure I stood steady and constantly checked my body temperature. With so much love and care from Daddy, it didn't matter how the crowd in the train stared.

At the physiotherapy centre, he made sure I wasn't out of his sight. When I had to go into one corner to get my ankle massaged, he sat in a chair beside the bed I laid on. When I had to go to the main area to do some ankle exercises, he followed and stood by watching.

After the physiotherapy, Daddy said, "where you want to go for lunch? Anywhere also can." I knew he loves beef and so I brought him to Wheelock. In there was a very fine Japanese Restaurant that serves very awesome beef. The thing is, it's pretty pricey, but then again, it's not exactly fine dining.

When we got to the restaurant, it wasn't open YET. We walked around Wheelock for about 15 minutes and went back, still not open. We walked around Wheelock for another 15 minutes and Daddy said, "if still not open ar, I bring you go hawker centre. My wallet won't cry also." So we went back, and WALA! IT WAS OPEN! Acting as though he was in grief, he still happily went in with me.

Daddy ordered a sukiyaki set, while I ordered just plain cha soba. He even asked me to just order any drink I want. HOW COULD HE, WHEN I WAS SO SICK, JUST LET ME ORDER ANY DRINK I WANT! Was he trying to pamper me while I was in so much pain? I knew one thing for sure, it was his way of showing love =).

Having never tried sukiyaki before, he was constantly asking me how to eat it. I kept telling him it's up to his own preference and no, that wasn't a good idea. He just asked more. When he's settled with his own way of eating, he constantly shoved beef onto my plate. After a while I said, "YOU DON'T NEED TO EAT MEH!" And then he shoved the egg yolk into my spoon and forced me to eat it, saying it's good for me =_=.

On the way back home in the MRT, he did just the same as when we were on the way to my physiotherapy.

Now that I'm sick, I can't stop thinking of Daddy. How he constantly came in to my room to check if I was ok when I was fast asleep. And these thoughts never fail to bring tears to my eyes.

p.s. doesn't mean Mummy wasn't there HAHA she was there for "night shift" after she knocked off from work xD.

signing off~DE XIN

LAST CELL

Bloody hell. My pink sony vaio crashed, AGAIN, yesterday. I can still reember when I first got it, totally brand new, untouched, unused, the motherboard spoiled. I had to trouble Wei Xian's parents AGAIN to bring it back to Singapore to get it fixed. And now, after less than 1.5 years, it's crashed again. What a timing. More than a year, less than 1.5 years. I can't even claim any warranty.

I've promised myself never to buy a vaio ever again, however good their red ones look. *spits*

So. Whose computer am I using now? Leon's. Thankfully, he has a spare compact notebook for me to borrow for the time being. I feel really bad, though, 'cos he uses this notebook for his school work. But I did tell him to just take it back whenever he needs it.

Anyways, last Friday was our last cell with Evangeline. How fast, hey. I've only joined her cell for about a month or so and it was already the last cell. Boo. And for our very last cell together, we went to Cottesloe Beach after cell evaluation at Florence's place =).

Ahhh the moon. Covered by clouds =_=. This looked a bit like some water colour painting, IMO.

Our cell's very own F4. L2R: Jordan, Leon, Philip, Phil.

Food, glorious food!

Same three guys, doing the same things to each other, as usual.

Supposed to be a shot of them jumping off the cliff. It was...a bit...hard...for my...DSLR...to take...in the night. Damn. I'm still waiting for my Lumix!

And again.

Flowers 4 on the grass? HAHA!

Oh gosh, I swear they look the cutest here.

A bit off focus, but you get the point. Leon saving Jordan from falling off the cliff and I miraculously hung off the cliff, taking this shot.

The girls!

All emo, except me.

All emo (and one dead), except Jordan.

Sigh...I'll miss you guys while I'm gone, really.

Totally. Random. Shot. WASN'T MY IDEA!

Me and the emo giant.

Giant and the spoilt me.

Yay Pauline! Eh. Did you change your facebook account?! How come I can no longer find you on my facebook friends list!

Leon. The pepsi guy. HAHA! Go shopping, Leon.

Ah well. I really will miss this bunch when I'm leaving. This is boohoo. Bad boohoo.

signing off~DE XIN