should i?

daddy told me...if moma uses my sec3 results to apply some UK shit...n if the UK ppl aint satisfied with my results, they'll ask me to take some tests...if i pass i'll study in UK with the same education level as singapore...but if i fail they'll downgrade me...so it IS a risk coz my sec3 results are like...shit...terrible...so...should i take the risk? i seriously dunno...my ultimate goal is still to go to australia...so...how????? sigh...tt three months thingy is implemented again...mr ng is right...we are like guinea pigs...being experimented on so many new stuffs...expecting us to adapt like *poof*! i've adapted to the new system again!...crap...sigh...dunno la...daiyu had been my listening ear today...aargh i've been a burden to another person!!!!! damn...but hey thanks for letting me see ur gay face through webcam...i no webcam la...cannot let u see my les face lol...only once a week u can see my les face haha...kk tts lame...wells...im off now~!

read this! survey result!

For you, love and friendship are almost the same thingAnd your love tends to be the enduring, long lasting kind(You've been known to still have connections with exes)But sometimes your love is not the most passionateLeap before you look, and you'll find that fire you crave

timothy is back from australia! only for bout 2 weeks though...he's going off on the 10th of april...so after school i was supposed to meet timothy like either at his house or outside branksome road but he's so stucked at home eating noodles...so i went parkway first...had pasta mania...the nice friendly waiter's there!!! i mean...the cute one is not there anymore...maybe coz he part time one...so when i went there, the waiter....forget it...this is wad happened:
"wad do you want?" - waiter
"creamy chicken" - me
"pasta choice?" - waiter
"linguine" - me
"any drinks?" - waiter with hand sign
"mm...coke will do" - me
"so how are u?" - waiter fiddling with the cashier
"fine thankyou" - me
*waiter smiles widely*
i mean...ya i've been there like so many times n he knows me but...how often do u get to see such friendly waiter! yep haha...then i went to mavis...supposed to meet him there...while waiting, i went to finish my summary...then when timothy came it took me so long to convince timothy tt he can go into the office coz only anita is there...then he wont go parkway coz he claims he came from there...n then he's meeting his friend later in parkway la...nvm...then tuition start...4 new ppl...wa lao...then dai yu n weixiang are both like so farnie today la!!! laugh until peng...haha...then after eng immediately i went to put my bag in the first row...coz i never manage to get it...i mean im not being kia su la but mr ng really hopes i'd sit infront...so he can watch me...n at the same time find out if i have problems...i mean...i really dunno how he does it la! wanna hide my feelings also cannot...i mean its ok for my parents to be able to tell me feelings but...MR NG?! sigh...4 years...doesnt seem long right? its long enough for mr ng to really understand me so much tt he can tell if i have a problem or not...crazy teacher...ok so ya...daniel was being as cute n farnie as ever...he's so innocent n gentleman like lorh! nvm...free from love...my, i repeat, MY qoute...kk then after tuition go home...told gerard all my problems...not exactly problems but...the pain in my heart is reliefed...sorry for being a burden but u were a good listener thanks gerard...still, i dun think im worth it...but still, thanks =) im off!

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she's such a pain in the farkin ass!!!!! okok lets not talk bout tt...lets talk bout my ballet exam...

friday...18th march...4.10pm...DINGDONG...run in...pink-blue-white-yellow...
"good afternoon miss atkinson"...
"good morning...u're deborah, mavis...and...how do i pronounce ur name?"
"DE xin"
"deRR xin? and amanda. please go to the barre pls"
*start of barre work*
*end of barre work*
"let me reassure ur dances. deborah? u're doing demi character, poetique and dance russ?"
*deborah nodds head*
"mavis, u're doing demi character, poetique, mazurka?"
*mavis nodds head*
*miss atkinson looks at the paper...looks up at me...looks at the paper...looks up at me"
"im sorry but i just cant remember how to pronounce ur name...dearrr xin?"
*mr chester makes a farnie face*
*i smiled, tryin not to laugh, n nod my head*
"and amanda, u're doing waltz prentum, dramatique and mazurka di salon?"
*amanda nodds her head*
"now u girls can have a rest outside for 30s-one minute. i'll ring the door bell for u to come in again. from now on, i wont say a word as i'll sit back n relax"
*deborah, mavis, me n amanda run out n prepare to go in again*
*DINGDOOONG*
*deborah, mavis, me n amanda run in n stood in our positions n got ready for entree polinee*
*start of entree polinee*
*end of entree poline*
*four of us went out n cooled ourselves down as deborah gets ready for her first dance, etude lyrique*
okok haha tt was crap...well...then deborah, mavis, me n amanda dance etude lyrique...solo lorh...so deborah goes n then come out then mavis goes in then come out then i go in then i come out then amanda goes in then she comes out that kinda thing...when do we know when to go in? when the examiner rings the door bell...haha...after etidue lyrique, its deborah mavis n i with demi character n amanda with waltz prentum...there goes the second section...solo also for all...then deborah, mavis n me with poetique n amanda with dramatique...third section...solo also...then deborah-dance russ, mavis-mazurka de salon, me-dance russ, amanda-mazurka de salon...end of fourth section...solo also...then four of us will go in again as a group for our finale polenee...then...
"thankyou miss atkinson"
"thankyou girls"
END OF EXAM!!!!! WOHO!!!!! then my mum helped out in locking the room n blah blah blah n it so happened that she ended up takin the same lift as my examiner...the examiner told my mum "ur daughter just had her grade 8 exam didnt she?"...when my moma told me wad happened in the lift i nearly chocked on my water...haha...

kk im too pissed to talk bout my tt stoopid lil cousin so i shall blog on that the next time

You Are In a Decent Mood

You aren't turning cartwheels, but you're having a pretty good day. Some ups, some downs, but overall you're coming out ahead. And who knows? Tomorrow could be even better!

What Mood Are You In?

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

Your Love Number is

4 You are a creative and expressive lover - a true romantic at heart.An introspective soul, you know exactly how your ideal relationship should be.But if you don't get that ideal, you tend to get a bit pouty and dramatic.You need someone who can roll with the punches, that's for sure!

What Is Your Love Number?

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Belong in 1976

1976 If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

You Are A Little Honest

Sometimes you do the right thing, but not often You prefer to look out for yourself most of the time But sometimes honesty does get the better of you Here's hoping you answered this quiz honestly

How Honest Are You?

You Are Pretty Logical

(You got 63% of the questions right) You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

You Will Die at Age 70

70 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

more to come!

LIZ PHAIR LYRICS

"Why Can't I?"

Get a load of me, get a load of you

Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you

It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you when we're out at night

Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right

And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning

We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up

Finding someone else you can't get enough of

Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch

Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch

But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go, we're at the beginning

We haven't fucked yet, but my heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

High enough for you to make me wonder

Where it's goin'High enough for you to pull me under

Somethin's growin'out of this that we can control

Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

i regret...i regret letting himA go when he wanted to leave...i regretted neglecting himB whenever he needs me...i regret...playin with love...i regret......

*himA n himB are two diff guys

wad is love...im currently devastated over the lost of my previous love but...on the other hand i seem to have fallen for another guy...i wont say love...coz i myself dun even know wads love...seeing my previous love being so happy with his current affair...i cant do anything but sit back restlessly seeing him fade from my vision slowly by slowly...wad can i do? my vision is so blurred that i cant even see properly where he's going...i only know...he's leavin me...for good...for lovin him...i guess i should let him go...let him find someone better than me...n for the new guy i seem to have fallen for...i dunno if he knows i like him...neither do i know if he likes me...i expect n look forward to his calls n msgs everyday...but those expectations just crash into bits by the end of each day...wad should i do? should i tell him? if i do...will he ignore me? if he does...wont it be worse? maybe i should...maybe i should just step aside n see his happiness flood myself with wonder......

i've got a few statements to make:

1. SPIDERBOY IS SUPER SMELLY COZ HE KEEPS PEE-ING...not tt social studies PEE format
2. ashley eats noisily
3. mr ng accused me without knowing the truth today. pissed.

okok those are the statements i want to make...n i think i should learn to forget someone although i see him almost everyday in sch. so...this song...should apply to me...i think...well...make every single "love" word in the lyrics into "lovED" thankyou.

Let Me Go lyrics
3 Doors Down

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

tara is a lazy bum~ tara is a lazy bum~ tara is a lazy bum~ tara is a lazy bum~ tara is a lazy bum~ haha okok i shall not continue before tara comes n hoot me...hehe...life has still been as boring...chinese is still as dreadful...chem is still as horrifying...i got a new hamster...its called...SPIDERBOY! coz he was trying to climb out of the box n his position looked like spiderman n being only 3-4 weeks old i named him spiderboy...^^...^^"...ya...so i just fed ashley n spiderboy rice...they're both enjoying it now...n when i tried to put ashley n spiderboy together..........ashley bit spiderboy -.-"...n pearl was telling me spiderboy will bite ashley -.-'...kk...so spiderboy has been really noti coz he bit me...y? coz i provoked him hehe...yeh...his teeth are super sharp but he's too small to actually dig his teeth in like ashley does...he sleeps reallly easily...i put him in the towel n within seconds he will juz fall asleep regardless of wad position he is in...haha...kk i love my both hamsters n shall they have long luxurious life...no cats no jealousy...kk fine ashley's very jealous but HECK harharhar...kk gtg...tara is a lazy bum~tara is a lazy bum~tara is a lazy bum~tara is a lazy bum~tara is a lazy bum~ =X