blood is everywhere...everytime i thk of xiao bai...blood gushes out of no where n flood the earth...xiao bai is no where to be found...coz she's been drowned by blood...blood is in every corner of my eye...all i see is blood...FRESH RED BLOOD drowning the whole world...squeezing every single drop of blood out of every living thing...xiao bai's fur coat has change from snowy white to RED...the colour of blood...MY universal colour...BLOOD RED...

let us observe one minute silence in memorance of xiao bai...

xiao bai u'll remain in my heart forever n ever...the good times we had together when i threw u in the air n caught u giving u the adrenaline rush...the times when i cuddled u to slp in my shirt...the times when i bathed u in the container n u tried struggling out...the times i fed u...the times my mum appreciated u...the times i played with u with my neighbour n christine...the times u nibbled me(n not bite me like the two stoopid hamsters do)...n the very day i fell in love with u at the pet shop n got u for 21 bucks telling myself to be responsible over this princess - u, xiao bai...u shall never disappear from the inside of me...ur heart is still beating in me...ur breathes can still be heard...n ur image haunting me every second of my life day n night whether awake or in dreams...xiao bai...im still owning u...im still loving u...im still waiting for u to come back...i love you...n i forever will...

xiao bai...where are you? why...why must you leave me? is it the food? if it is i can get better ones for u...is it the water? i just got a water bottle for u! is it because the cage is too small? i can get a bungalow for u...wad is it? just wad is it? why must u leave me...i bought u for 21 bucks...i didnt buy u for fun...i bought u coz i liked u n i wanna be responsible over u...even my mum likes u...but why must u leave? dont u know how much i love u...i always spend so much on u...i bought the best food...nutritional snacks...bathe u in WARM water...give u COOKED rice...give u bread...i treated u like a princess...my princess...but u did this to me...ur cage is forever open...pls...xiao bai...pls come back...i miss u...n i forever will...xiao bai hui jia ba xiao bai...

k...so...i shall NOT set SMU as my dream school...well...FINE i DID once set it as my dream school (if i stay in singapore managing to get into vjc n the uni i want in singapore)...but now...im cancelling it...before i continue, SMU stands for singapore management university...m i right? i hope so...so...firstly, the students in SMU were not told of the building of their new school compound...secondly, they did NOT ask for a new school compound...thirdly, because of the building of the new school compound, the students' school fees are increased without the students' awareness...fourthly, they encourage students to borrow money from the bank to pay their school fees if the need to...would u go into such a school? if yes then...well...i've got no comments but i WONT...it sounds so...negatively negative...i guess i'll have to aim for NUS (national university of singapore) then...that is if i manage to stay in singapore...with the ability to get into vjc n NUS...yawn...this is so...complicated...life is complicated...aaargh...i shall not continue rubbing in...coz its so fustrating...bye for now...

C.H.I shall rawk on 4eva!

my comp had been down for the whole darn week...so...met this new guy ken...i havent actually met him yet but i know who he is n i k now how he looks like...he's really caring towards me...haha but no i havent accepted him coz...HELLO?! i havent met him! so yap...had been busy with tests lately...so tired...juz came back from tuition...eng tuition had a new guy called robin...friendly n sociable...talked loads of crap with him...then b4 a maths tuition i crapped ALOT with gerard...lol...bout the guys in st pats...bout heights...lol...then now im back at home super delighted that i can use this comp again...the prob is this comp kena reformatted so have to download everything again haix...gtg! cya babes!

C.H.I shall rawk on 4eva!

sat...i went to shaw centre to watch the aviator with timothy...then tuition...then sunday...popa's fwen'x baby daughter full month...so eat lunch there...eat alrd time to go then popa send moma n i to far east n bought my new year clothes...lol...luv those girls there...always treating me so well...monday...sch boring lorh...after sch juz slack coz all hmwk done...then today...sian also...sch has never been interesting right? oh well...oh! gym was fun...tt's all...thk its bout time i start gyming again lo...

thought of the day:

i am now in a cheerful state of mind

i have dreams and hopes

love may also occur

got this from a folder i bought today...super cool...yep...

haha sorry i havent been blogging lately coz ive been in a rather down mood so i wrote all the crap down in my fullscap paper so...yarh...no one gets to see it...

k let's do some "filing" here harhar...let's file my teachers!

teachers i like:

Zhen Lao Shi [Chinese]

Miss Lao Han Wei [Geography]

Mr Soon (Discipline Master) [Social Studies]

teachers in between:

Miss Chan Choo [English]

Mr Kwek Wei Hong [A Maths]

Mr Gan [Physics]

Miss Elizabeth Wan [Chemistry]

teacher i dislike:

Mdm Toh Lay Hoon [E Maths]

Mr Yazeed [History]

reasons y i like...

Zhen Lao Shi: her lessons are fun, she doesnt make us want to sleep except once in a blue moon, she knows how to entertain us, she knows how to chase for hmwk [-.-!], she knows how to teach, she cares for us

Miss Lai Han Wei: she really emphasizes on discipline, she's strict, she knows when to joke with lame jokes, she knows when to let us rest, she knows how to teach

Mr Soon (Discipline Master): he's strict but not to his classes, he's crappy with his incomprehensable jokes, he's experienced, he knows how to teach, he doesnt make u feel sleepy

reasons y they are in between:

Miss Chan Choo: she's a very good friend of mine but she is not a good teacher, she doesnt know how to joke, she's acting as if she knows us well, she has poor n exagerated pronunciation, she's a very caring friend after all

Mr Kwek Wei Hong: he craps alot n his jokes are so lame u can really laugh at the lameness, his lessons are boring, he makes ppl sleep easily by the way he talks, i dun really dislike him so much after all

Mr Gan: he somehow gives me this impression of a really respectable father(which obviously he is not one), he always tries his best to please n discipline our class, his lessons are half boring half ok, the way he speaks makes ppl sleep easily, my mum thks his a good teacher

Miss Elizabeth Wan: she doesnt really know how to teach well, her voice is too sharp when it gets loud n really hurts my ear, she's a caring teacher

reasons y i dislike...

Mdm Toh Lay Hoon: she teaches V-E-R-Y slowly, she's very boring, she nags at every little small things, she takes ppl's stuff without permission(STEALING!), she's always behind time n blames us for it, she's old n stoopid n ugly haha nah she IS old, she's NOT stoopid, n...her looks...i wont say she looks ugly neither would i say pretty *puke*

Mr Yazeed: he talks in a monotone manner, his lessons are boring, he's fussy, he makes ppl slp VERY easily even while standing...dun believe? try it out urself...i've just been through it this morning -.-"

this is only for sch teachers tt teach me...tomorrow i'll emphasize on tuition teachers ;)

i've got something to show daniel ong of perfect 10 98.7 fm:

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?

And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?

But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't pretend that

I'm alright

And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't stand another fight

And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said

Nothing's gonna make this right again

Please don't turn your back

I can't believe it's hard

Just to talk to you

But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

haha so yeh hey dan, this song is about a SON complaining bout his DAD n NOT a boy complaining bout his girlfriend...lol...dan...try harder...harhar

i shall blog more on tomorrow as tomorrow's bloody hell cca recruitment day...wth...sian diao...bb...

C.H.I R.I.M rawkx on 4eva

k...today...is another BORING day...lucky spot check nv kena...harhar...wanted to go bugis with chris n hy...but chris cnnt make it...so hy n i dun wan to go le...then go home...play gb n do hmwk...then now going tuition le..nothing much...bb!

C.H.I R.I.M rawkx on 4eva

finally for one day i dont get to see him...not telling who...no prize for guessing the person right either...yawn...lazy to type more bb!

me n chris...haha we were like super sad today...physics mr gan didnt go through anything coz he did some more admin stuffs wif us...then PE...first day PE dio running...wth...we were supposed to run as a class la...n i wasnt supposed to run coz i had cough...but heck coz i had not run for bout two months plus...so run run see first la...but...i run bout 2/3 around the sch i start coughing alrd...it is along tt LOOOOOOOOOONG stretch...then i started walking...mr goh was like...COME ON COME ON!...n i was like..."*cough cough* i got cough"...he say..."slow run"...then i started slow running...n coughing again...then he was like..."okok! stop stop u better walk...but fast"...so i walk all the way in...then we assemble and mr goh talk bout some P.E. test or sometihng..then chris came over n my stomache was like...SUPER pain...then after tt got 20 minutes more...then i had this urge of crying...so chris n i went to behind the old cca block there...we sat down...n i started crying...haha also dunno ...then both of us also cried...then when bell ring we assemble...then greet liao i went to meet hy...then meet christine...christine had to go meet mr tan...so hy n i went canteen...then we bought drinks...then...hy go bookshop...VERY long...then...eng...diagnostic test...@$)(&...didnt manage to finish la...but oh well...then a maths...permutation and combination again...sian diao...then chem...oxidation and reduction...sian diao...so i was half sleeping the whole day...after sch go eat ban mian at roxy wif moma...then go home...slp...then chem tuition...harhar...fun fun fun...then...back home...im bored...go play gb wif dear le bb

so...first day of sch...only one word -=> BORING...kk...well...as usual go to sch...i couldnt find my classroom -.-" they shifted it...changed to second floor...so yep...when i reached there it was just nice for flag raising...so i put down my bag and rushed down...with my tie ofcoz...and then we stood in our new position...and flag raising...then mr gan saw my hair -.-" k...then after flag raising i thought ok liao worx...guess wad now...i kena caught by mr soon's supposed gf...she say we can be models...of dos and dont dos...-.-"...so we went to staff room...jasmine, erico, sally chia, darren tan, sebestian, matthew, two other girls...n me...so...they all took photo...n i was the last...n she looked at me...up n down...she went "why i catch u for arh?" *faint*...then she looked more closely...n said bout my hair -.-"k...then go back class la...heng nv take pic of me...then mr gan...talk n talk n talk...had quite some fun...then...recess hy, chris n i met...and we went down but nv eat...coz queue too long...then i was wondering how albert looked like in long pants...n he appeared -.-"...so i was like...want to laugh but cannot laugh then i started coughing again-.-"...then recess up we go back n have lessons...then lunch break...meet again...then huan yuet eat but chris n i nv eat...then hy talk to her sec1s friends...n then chris n i went to chris's classroom...then chris return vcd to darren...n i accompany chris till bell ring...then...saw albert again...yawn...then go down...e maths...SUPER boring...then finally assembly...dunno y mr soon suddenly so strict...then mr loh had his talk...either low or loh larh dunno...i only know his nose is big...then...after flag raising meet chris lorh...then we go parkway...eat pasta mania...blanja chris bou...3 bucks...coz she got reutrn me 5 bucks...eat le we walk around...go sembawang no cd to buy...go everywhere nothing to buy...then we go to roxy square...met uncle lee...then walk around also nothing to buy...then we go take bus 12...tt bus...suck like shit...the bus driver like having PMS liddat one...then at my house there the bustop both of us got down...n both of us waited for the next bus 12...then chris take the next bus 12 n i went home...didnt eat dinner...yawn...sian diao...gone to gb...dear arh...i oklarh...harhar...juz...still coughing >.<

last night...was a really memorable night for me...hehe...with yb dear...my parents n i reached east coast park at 6.45...n then i waited for yb...but couldn't find him...i sms-ed him...he said he would be late...so popa moma n i went up to tong luk first...then came auntie ah noy...then uncle ah lee and auntie rui wen...n then aunty mei fang n her hubby...n then yb finally came...so i met him outside macs...n brought him up to tong luk...n then we had dinner...we had ALOT...yb n i were about to burst...hehe...then after dinner...which was bout 10.45...we went down...then coz we had wine...yb had a headache...so i told moma i'll walk around with yb...so yb popped out tt question...hehe...ofcoz i said yes la...so we held hands...n walked n talked n walked n talked...then we came to tt pond...it was really dark n desserted there...so we went in...and then we started hugging...n guess wad...we...kissed...>.<...hehe...my first kiss...we did those quite a few times...there was one kiss...we kiss halfway n some idiot shouted "OI!" n we both got distracted...wanted to strangle whoever tt guy was...hehe...then we found a chair n sat down...yb took a short nap on me...did he even slp?!?!?! i dunno...then at 11.45 we got up...n...he started to vomit...hai...i was like...patting his back...till he stopped...so we found a toilet and went in...then went back to my parents n fwenx...juz in time for the countdown...after the countdown i quickly gave yb the comfort taxi hotline...i thk he managed to get a taxi coz at 12.39 or around there he was arld home...then today...HE STILL GO TO WORK!...he promised me to take half day off...-.-" nvm larh...as long as he's ok then im not too worried...but he still has rashes...sigh...take care ya dear? *muakx* buaiii...